Both have great reviews and are located in New Town. Just would like to know if anyone here has any experiences or feedback regarding these options.
I can’t do this anymore. This just isn’t for me. I’m tired of worrying about effects of hrt, and everything. I just wish I could not exist (I don’t want to off myself just be alone or not exist), be born with a normal brain, no ocd/anxiety or be on a different planet by myself. I’m just confused. I’ve lived as a socially transgender woman for 3 years now,
I’m 24 and started at 21. Because I have a naturally “twink” body, I’m 5’6, and I have a softer facial structure, I’ve passed for 3 years and have lived happily (my full story is here - https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/s/s5Tr4AOwnv). My friends and family have supported and I have just lived freely. But when I started to bear the thought of starting hrt in the last year, I was initially excited but seeing detransitioners and doing online research on forums about hrt and sexual function, I’ve been afraid to take it.
I’ve been told that because I fear loss of genital function and would rather not take hrt to feminize, it’s likely AGP or I’m just trans for sexual reasons even though I’m only attracted to men. I have been feeling like I should try to live as a man again to just put this all to rest. I may lose friends and family plus who knows how I will feel at 30, 40, 50 years old but I just wanna run away and not deal with this anymore. I wouldn’t have to worry about my current worries plus life would be easier.
I’d rather potentially regret not furthering this journey when I’m older than taking hrt and regretting starting now.
https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/s/dAScea8JHb
Per my last post I don’t think I’ll ever build the courage to ever take hrt. I was prescribed last year and since then, I have set dates I will start and when the time came, I always chicken out and try to see if I can just live the rest of my life as a feminine gay male instead. I don’t cry or hate my body when I look in the mirror but maybe it’s just suppressed feelings?
I’m just in a unique situation that really makes me second guess if I’m trans or not. Some will say it’s not so “unique” but I rarely if ever at all, known transgender women who have ever only be interested in exclusively topping their partners. Most are bottoms or vers (if they even are comfortable with that part). As a 20-something year old, who has only ever been into topping, losing genital function is obviously terrifying and people say your sexuality or interests don’t really change so it seems I will just be frustrated in the end.
I know many say function can be kept but it’s not guaranteed even on meds which is scary. Then it’s the “well you can just stop hrt”. How devastating is it to stop hrt and know others can be feminized and maintain function while you have to pick and choose. I would be devastated if I got the body I wanted but had to give up my sex life in my 20s.
I know people say you can use toys to top but people who have vaginas and use toys to top are different because at the end of the day, their genitals still function and they can receive pleasure. At this point I’d rather just try to live without hrt and see if I can move away from all of this than deal with this reality…
https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/s/dAScea8JHb
Per my last post I don’t think I’ll ever build the courage to ever take hrt. I was prescribed last year and since then, I have set dates I will start and when the time came, I always chicken out and try to see if I can just live the rest of my life as a feminine gay male instead. I don’t cry or hate my body when I look in the mirror but maybe it’s just suppressed feelings?
I’m just in a unique situation that really makes me second guess if I’m trans or not. Some will say it’s not so “unique” but I rarely if ever at all, known transgender women who have ever only be interested in exclusively topping their partners. Most are bottoms or vers (if they even are comfortable with that part). As a 20-something year old, who has only ever been into topping, losing genital function is obviously terrifying and people say your sexuality or interests don’t really change so it seems I will just be frustrated in the end.
I know many say function can be kept but it’s not guaranteed even on meds which is scary. Then it’s the “well you can just stop hrt”. How devastating is it to stop hrt and know others can be feminized and maintain function while you have to pick and choose. I would be devastated if I got the body I wanted but had to give up my sex life in my 20s.
I know people say you can use toys to top but people who have vaginas and use toys to top are different because at the end of the day, their genitals still function and they can receive pleasure. At this point I’d rather just try to live without hrt and see if I can move away from all of this than deal with this reality…
I’m traveling to Edinburgh Aug 1 - Aug 7 and wondering if it will be an issue? Thank you!
How are you supposed to use it if libido is dead on hrt especially during the first year since you’re not able to take progesterone and if manual stimulation isn’t enough? Like how to do you make yourself want to use it and get in the mood if you need more than just visual image or touch? Sounds easy said than done.
I have accepted hrt may not be for me forcing myself to make the most of my situation. I’m 23 socially transitioned (I pass when I present feminine day to day but my body definitely bothers me at night) and I just want to be able to have a sex life in my 20s. The thing is nothing is guaranteed on hrt which scares me. The unknown scares me. People constantly recommend Cialis, Viagra, creams, etc but none of that is guaranteed to work. You can go on hrt and libido/genital function (if you don’t have bottom dysphoria like me) is not promised to be kept. If no meds work, you either deal with it or go off of hrt and I’ve seen girls literally experience this online. People have called me fetishizing the trans experience for prioritizing my sexual health on here when I should be able to have a sex life just like people my age do. It’s not my fault I was born weird and not normal with a female/female heart/mind but enjoy topping. Will I regret it in the long run? I feel like I have numbed a lot of pain so I’m able to live ok day to day but I just don’t know what to do.
I’m traveling to Edinburgh Aug 1 - Aug 7 and wondering if it will be an issue? Thank you!
I have not started hrt because even with methods (cialis, creams, etc) suggested on here, I have seen quite a few who this have not worked to keep function. Idk why I care about keeping function so much over hormones but how can I get to a point to not care about genital function or topping anymore?
He’s still younger than Kenzie lmao
I’ve been doubting recently that I am trans or not since I really don’t know why I’m scared to put hrt in my body? I guess since it’s altering the chemistry in my body I’m a little freaked out. I also don’t know why I worry about my sex life in my 20s so much. I hate that I prefer to top which is why I have doubts I’m trans because most t-girls would just start hormones and not care about keeping penis functional or anything like that. I have ocd so since such function is not guaranteed even with cialis or use on hrt with the many recommended solutions on here (I’ve heard them all), I fear the worst will happen to me leading me to not take it. But day by day passes, I waste more time, I am numb to the pain in the mirror but yet when I lie in bed deep inside my brain, it still hurts. I guess the only solution for me is if I could somehow stop those desires, then I wouldn’t need to care for my penis being functional and I can just start hrt with less fear. Plus that will remove all the disgusting men who are almost always chasers. How did hrt change your sexuality?
I am 23 almost 24 mtf?, and I have had a weird relationship with my gender as since I was little. It started out as having more interest in traditionally feminine toys, names, teacher pronouns, but it was all deeply suppressed due to my family environment. I would be uncomfortable to show my chest or stand up and pee since “girls didn’t do that”. I did not want to be transgender as a kid in 2010 because the only representation I saw were horribly offensive displays on Jerry springer. Around puberty I started to gain a deep desire for female shaped body and was deeply sad my body wasn’t developing like female peers and would live vicariously through female celebs on social media who had the body type I wanted. I deeply admired curvy female figures and would imagine myself as that through imaginary lens. I also would secretly cross dress as a tween.
The weird thing despite this I started to gain deep attraction to men with “nice butts” and the desire to top so I just assumed I may just be a gay male. I suppressed most of that and just lived secretly as a gay male in high school. When I graduated, I tried to entertain being a feminine gay male or “twink” but I still did not feel fully expressive of who I was. I remember going to a female hair salon and feeling ugly and envious of cis women or in general other transgender women I saw who lived as themselves fully. I then had a period around age 19-20 where I tried to suppress all femininity and be more masculine but the more I did that, the more depressed I got.
Around age 20, shortly after with more accepting friends, I started to express myself more and eventually I slowly socially started to transition around age 21 and have been the happiest in my life with my social presentation and how I’m perceived as a woman. I would say when I fairly pass pre hrt with the added makeup and padding inserts but I’m ready to physically actually have all that but idk why I continue to procrastinate and never take my hormones. I thought about how I would want to see myself in 10 years, 30 years, 50 years, and the thought of being an old man scares me. I want go back to school to be an MRI Tech and freelance a makeup career on the side and could only see myself as a woman. I contacted a lgbt health clinic last year to start hormones and was prescribed estrogen Monotherapy but I’ve been so scared to take it and have rescheduling/procrastinating. I have seen it’s not certain you will maintain penis function since I don’t hate mine and like to top. I know the classic “use or lose it” advice but I’ve seen women post on here stating they’ve stopped hormones because manual stimulation or did cialis just didn’t work which frightens me because it puts you in that situation do loving the physical effects while also not being allowed to maintain something others suggest wouldn’t be lost. So since it’s not guaranteed you can keep function, and there’s that possibility of losing it no matter what on hrt, I have been battling the idea that what if I’m not really trans since if I was, I would just risk everything to be a woman. Right? I would not care about topping nor my penis to be functional if I was really trans. Plus the only men I will ever will attract are “chasers”.
It’s just hard as also my ocd will set days to start hrt in my head like starting this date or that day. Eventually I never do. I was going to start today but we’ll. Here I am typing and not taking it for the 100th time now. Am I not trans since I would’ve just started and not cared just like most if not all trans women do anyways? At this rate I will never start because I’m too scared to bite the bullet. I just hurts because I am numb to the pain but daily dread for my body to just be a woman already. Why couldn’t I have been born normal like most trans women who prefer to be bottoms and submissive so I didn’t have to care about my penis. I already paused seeing my endocrinologist plus my patches expire next month July… I just wish I didn’t have to deal with any of this.
I honestly just don’t know anymore. Like I feel most of not all transgender woman are eager to start hormones and don’t care for genital function. The fact that I’m so scared to the point of not starting hrt because of “what if” makes me second guess myself. Like what trans girl wouldn’t start hrt just because her penis might not work. If I’m wrong lmk but I just can’t get it out of my mind… Maybe it really isn’t for me despite my story (https://www.reddit.com/r/MtF/s/SRB2I6ww7m)
I really want to start hrt but not knowing how hrt is going to affect me personally regarding function since there’s no guarantee is what is holding me back. If hrt can get rid of those sexual urges to top at 24, then hrt doesn’t see so scary. I’ve had those sexual preferences since puberty and now I feel it’s getting in between me and starting hrt. Can hrt make me a bottom? Is there any other medication or method that can stop urges to top because I just fear they will still be there while I’m starting hrt and then if genital function stops, I will be just frustrated in the end.
I am 24, and I have had a weird relationship with my gender as since I was little. It started out as having more interest in traditionally feminine toys, names, teacher pronouns, but it was all deeply suppressed due to my family environment. I would be uncomfortable to show my chest or stand up and pee since “girls didn’t do that”. I did not want to be transgender as a kid in 2010 because the only representation I saw were horribly offensive displays on Jerry springer. Around puberty I started to gain a deep desire for female shaped body and was deeply sad my body wasn’t developing like female peers and would live vicariously through female celebs on social media who had the body type I wanted. I deeply admired curvy female figures and would imagine myself as that through imaginary lens. I also would secretly cross dress as a tween.
The weird thing despite this I started to gain deep attraction to men with “nice butts” and the desire to top so I just assumed I may just be a gay male. I suppressed most of that and just lived secretly as a gay male in high school. When I graduated, I tried to entertain being a feminine gay male or “twink” but I still did not feel fully expressive of who I was. I remember going to a female hair salon and feeling ugly and envious of cis women or in general other transgender women I saw who lived as themselves fully. I then had a period around age 19-20 where I tried to suppress all femininity and be more masculine but the more I did that, the more depressed I got.
When I got a new job and had a more lgbt friendly environment as I started to express myself more and eventually I slowly socially started to transition around age 21 and have been the happiest in my life with my social presentation and how I’m perceived as a woman. I thought about how I would want to see myself in 10 years, 30 years, 50 years, and the thought of being an old man scares me. I want go back to school and get into either nursing or own my own a salon one day and could only see myself as a woman. I contacted a lgbt health clinic last year to start hormones and was prescribed estrogen Monotherapy but I’ve been scared to take it and have rescheduling/procrastinating to take it as I have seen it’s not certain you will maintain penis function since I don’t hate mine and like to top. I know the classic “use or lose it” advice but it’s not guaranteed that you will manually be able to use it or that cialis will work since everyone is different and you just don’t know how your body will react. Since it’s not guaranteed you can keep function, and there’s that possibility of losing it no matter what on hrt, I have been battling the idea that what if I’m not really trans since if I was, I would just risk everything to be a woman. It has now made me feel ashamed of liking to top because I feel the only man I ever will attract are “chasers”.
It’s just hard because I have only had my sex life and attraction be what it is for the last 10 years since puberty so to lose that seems scary to me. Since that I have been questioning, am I really trans? Is it just a fetish? I just really don’t know what to do? I’m tempted to not start hrt ever and I canceled my appointment and told my provider I will be pausing this mental process and not moving toward but I don’t know if that’s just a self defense mechanism for right now but will hurt in the long term. I’m sorry if this post is all over the place. I’m just venting emotionally…
I am 24, and I have had a weird relationship with my gender as since I was little. It started out as having more interest in traditionally feminine toys, names, teacher pronouns, but it was all deeply suppressed due to my family environment. I would be uncomfortable to show my chest or stand up and pee since “girls didn’t do that”. I did not want to be transgender as a kid in 2010 because the only representation I saw were horribly offensive displays on Jerry springer. Around puberty I started to gain a deep desire for female shaped body and was deeply sad my body wasn’t developing like female peers and would live vicariously through female celebs on social media who had the body type I wanted. I deeply admired curvy female figures and would imagine myself as that through imaginary lens. I also would secretly cross dress as a tween.
The weird thing despite this I started to gain deep attraction to men with “nice butts” and the desire to top so I just assumed I may just be a gay male. I suppressed most of that and just lived secretly as a gay male in high school. When I graduated, I tried to entertain being a feminine gay male or “twink” but I still did not feel fully expressive of who I was. I remember going to a female hair salon and feeling ugly and envious of cis women or in general other transgender women I saw who lived as themselves fully. I then had a period around age 19-20 where I tried to suppress all femininity and be more masculine but the more I did that, the more depressed I got.
When I got a new job and had a more lgbt friendly environment as I started to express myself more and eventually I slowly socially started to transition around age 21 and have been the happiest in my life with my social presentation and how I’m perceived as a woman. I thought about how I would want to see myself in 10 years, 30 years, 50 years, and the thought of being an old man scares me. I want go back to school and get into either nursing or own my own a salon one day and could only see myself as a woman. I contacted a lgbt health clinic last year to start hormones and was prescribed estrogen Monotherapy but I’ve been scared to take it and have rescheduling/procrastinating to take it as I have seen it’s not certain you will maintain penis function since I don’t hate mine and like to top. I know the classic “use or lose it” advice but it’s not guaranteed that you will manually be able to use it or that cialis will work since everyone is different and you just don’t know how your body will react. Since it’s not guaranteed you can keep function, and there’s that possibility of losing it no matter what on hrt, I have been battling the idea that what if I’m not really trans since if I was, I would just risk everything to be a woman. It has now made me feel ashamed of liking to top because I feel the only man I ever will attract are “chasers”.
It’s just hard because I have only had my sex life and attraction be what it is for the last 10 years since puberty so to lose that seems scary to me. Since that I have been questioning, am I really trans? Is it just a fetish? I just really don’t know what to do? I’m tempted to not start hrt ever and I canceled my appointment and told my provider I will be pausing this mental process and not moving toward but I don’t know if that’s just a self defense mechanism for right now but will hurt in the long term. I’m sorry if this post is all over the place. I’m just venting emotionally…
I’m 24 traveling to Iceland this summer and I’m getting my passport soon and it has my dead name since I haven’t legally changed it yet but all my documents match (with my passport having my fem presenting photo). I fairly pass but I wear shape wear as I’m early on hrt. Will I be ok to travel to Iceland from the NYC and back?
I don’t know why this mod is not working. Every time I add the mod into my game and start a new world, it doesn’t load but when I take it out my game loads and I’ve tried to take out all my other cc/mods to see if conflicts and still nothing. Also cleared my cache so idk what’s going on. Any idea?