I DONT KNOW WHERE TO POST THIS I NEED HELP 😭
hey everyone,
i’m a first-year cse student at a pretty intense t2 in bangalore with 96%ile in JEE engineering college in india, and i’m honestly at my lowest point right now. i just needed to vent and maybe get some perspective from people who’ve been through this. 😭
i took cse thinking it would guarantee a good package. big mistake. i spent most of my first year “enjoying” college which basically meant doing nothing productive, and now i’m paying for it hard. my college has zero actual college life. the only thing anyone talks about is placements. i skipped some genuinely better options with way less stress because i was chasing that dream of a fat ctc. now the daily 1 hour commute each way is killing me and i feel exhausted all the time. 😭
i’m studying literally double the amount i did for jee and i still only managed a 7 cgpa. meanwhile i went to a school reunion recently and saw all my friends doing really well. many in t1/t2 colleges, some seniors who’ve already cracked good offers at places like intel with high cgpAs and solid profiles. it hit me like a truck. i feel so behind and worthless. 🥲
the worst part? i barely have any time left for the things that actually matter in cs. working on projects or grinding dsa. in a normal week i get maybe 30 hours of free time and i’m expected to study for 24 of them. my parents are paying huge fees and the guilt is crushing me. the job market is already brutal and with ai changing everything so fast i keep wondering how i’m ever going to make myself competitive or safe. 😭
i know i sound dramatic but i genuinely feel like i’m drowning. to anyone reading this who’s thinking of joining a super rigorous cs program just for the brand or package. please think twice. the stress is not worth it if you’re not built for this grind 24/7.
has anyone else been in a similar spot? how did you pull yourself out? any advice on managing time, building projects on the side, or just not losing hope in this ai driven market? i could really use some honest words right now.
thanks for reading. feeling very alone in this. I genuinely wanna kms😭🥲
please pray for me 😭🙏