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This girl I’ve been seeing for months end now has easily made her way into my life as someone I see myself loving. But last night when we were having intercourse over the period of a few hours I went to the bathroom to pee real quick. Let me note we were both pretty drunk but her more so than me. I came out from the bathroom and noticed she was texting someone. I had seen the messages while I was approaching the bed and she messaged someone saying “I wanna see your pretty face one more time before me and this guy make it official” my first reaction was a heart break but then I confronted her about it and she deleted the messages when I went to go get a towel and proceeded to tell me it never happened. At this point I realized she was a lot more intoxicated than i had realized. Is it my place to be bad about this even if we aren’t “official”? We were supposed to go on a nice date this next week and make it official with each other.

A few months ago, I started seeing this girl, and I simply can’t find out what to do. This girl works weird hours as a caretaker at night, and I am someone who works more in the morning. She is a fresh 21 and has been addicted to the bars, which is not that crazy to me as I am someone who met her in the bar. Anyways, she and I had hooked up one night, and we actually kept talking for weeks on end, but she’s really bad at responding via messages and admits to me she reads my messages and either “forgets” to respond or just doesn’t want to. We have never made anything official, and that’s okay with me. She will leave hickeys on me sometimes if we aren’t going to see each other for a while, and she has even told girls not to talk to me at the bar or at home. (We live in the same complex.) Recently, I found out she slept with a guy she swore up and down she hated, and when I called her out on it, she admitted to all of it and even offered me to go through her phone. All I really asked of her was to be honest and tell me if she likes me or not, and she said she did. It really isn’t my business to get mad at her for sleeping with him as we are not in a relationship, but it did hurt me a lot she lied about it. She swore she didn’t tell me because she didn’t want to hurt me, and she said she likes me. When we are together, we have such a good time, and it feels like we are almost falling in love sometimes. She even sends me funny pictures about calling me her “man” and stuff. But we do live in a small town, and without me even purposely “spying” on her, I do have friends that tell me if she’s talking to other guys at bars. According to my one friend who’s a bartender at a place we go to, she just lets guys buy her drinks, and she walks home to our complex after. Recently, she went out with her “best friend,” which happens to be a girl I have messed around with. She pleaded to me that I cannot approach her when she’s with her and cannot tell her anything about what we have been doing. I feel like she’s lying to me about all these things now, and she’s almost hiding me from people, but she will do PDA at the bars with me and tell girls not to talk to me? She hasn’t responded to me all day, and I have a friend who said they have seen her out and about. I’m probably just being used for sexual things, and I just need someone’s second opinion on this. Thanks.

A few months ago, I started seeing this girl, and I simply can’t find out what to do. This girl works weird hours as a caretaker at night, and I am someone who works more in the morning. She is a fresh 21 and has been addicted to the bars, which is not that crazy to me as I am someone who met her in the bar. Anyways, she and I had hooked up one night, and we actually kept talking for weeks on end, but she’s really bad at responding via messages and admits to me she reads my messages and either “forgets” to respond or just doesn’t want to. We have never made anything official, and that’s okay with me. She will leave hickeys on me sometimes if we aren’t going to see each other for a while, and she has even told girls not to talk to me at the bar or at home. (We live in the same complex.) Recently, I found out she slept with a guy she swore up and down she hated, and when I called her out on it, she admitted to all of it and even offered me to go through her phone. All I really asked of her was to be honest and tell me if she likes me or not, and she said she did. It really isn’t my business to get mad at her for sleeping with him as we are not in a relationship, but it did hurt me a lot she lied about it. She swore she didn’t tell me because she didn’t want to hurt me, and she said she likes me. When we are together, we have such a good time, and it feels like we are almost falling in love sometimes. She even sends me funny pictures about calling me her “man” and stuff. But we do live in a small town, and without me even purposely “spying” on her, I do have friends that tell me if she’s talking to other guys at bars. According to my one friend who’s a bartender at a place we go to, she just lets guys buy her drinks, and she walks home to our complex after. Recently, she went out with her “best friend,” which happens to be a girl I have messed around with. She pleaded to me that I cannot approach her when she’s with her and cannot tell her anything about what we have been doing. I feel like she’s lying to me about all these things now, and she’s almost hiding me from people, but she will do PDA at the bars with me and tell girls not to talk to me? She hasn’t responded to me all day, and I have a friend who said they have seen her out and about. I’m probably just being used for sexual things, and I just need someone’s second opinion on this. Thanks.

(M25) So I’ll start off by saying I haven’t been the best boy with sobriety. The last few times I’ve been with a girl it has been interesting to say the least. I have been “partying” if you catch my drift while I havent been drinking. The last few times I’ve been with a girl I havent been able to perform and get the little guy working. Last night it happened again and I kinda actually like this girl, I have known her for a little bit. After about an hour of messing around she kinda realized I wasn’t gonna be able to finish and she started crying and assuming I just wasn’t attracted to her when trust me, I very much so am. We messaged a little after she left and she just kept saying sorry and that she feels like I’m not into her. She asked me what I was doing and then she went to work and she won’t respond to me anymore. I have only messaged her once because I don’t wanna be pushy but I really do wanna try to talk to her about the situation. Should I just take my loss and maybe let her reach out to me or should i try and contact her?

Have you guys noticed they will snipe a walker from 100s of yards away with a PISTOL but everytime there’s a big fight between humans they just can’t hit a shot 😭😭

I think I’m crazy and I can’t really do anything about it

I just wanna start off by saying I’m 26 male and will say I’m decently attractive. In shape and good health and good style. I have recently noticed a cycle in my life where I don’t really go after girls and it seems to work and they always obsess over me (yes obsess I have a girl who emails me still to this day from a couple years ago) and it always seems to happen when I don’t really put any effort into it. The last couple girls that I absolutely fell for and were perfect to me in every way, have never went further than a talking stage or a hook up. I thought maybe I was bad in bed but I have had never had a unsatisfied customer from my perspective. But the truth of the reality is I’m really possessive and forward. I didn’t realize this until the last one recently confessed this to me. She had told me I was super cool at first and laid back but the second she realized i was almost in love with her she fell out of feelings. And I get it. I really do smother girls I like. I’m clingy and my emotions become exposed and I show weak sides of me super fast because I get some comfortable. I feel like this shouldn’t be a problem. I shouldn’t have to hide or suppress anything to be in a relationship. Is it my age group? Am I actually taking this too far? Me and this girl hooked up and she talked about wanting to go do something and blah blah and I text her all day and told her I liked her and told her things about her I liked and that interested me and I was double texting and kicking my feet in the air, then boom. I get the “you’re really a sweet guy. But” I just get so shocked every time this happens and i tell my self don’t do it don’t do it and I can’t control my feelings. I’m protective and possessive. Is this something I should change/work on?

So about 3-4 years ago I was living with my mom and her brother had brought a dog over and me(23) at the time and my sister (11) at the time obviously loved it to death and wanted it and my mom kind of just said “you guys really want this dog?” And obviously we said yes and I do work a job. Usually from after noon to 8-9 pm. And so does my mother and my sister goes to school. I moved out of my mom’s house about a year and half after getting the dog (Kratos) he is a ridgeback pitbull and a ball of love. He is aggressive towards other dogs. He can learn to live and play with them as he’s had friends before but when he’s done. He’s done. And if a dog keeps bothering him he will show aggression. Anyways. Just recently I was at my moms and she kind of just dropped this bomb on me that she doesn’t want him anymore and all this bs about how she wants to be able to do stuff again. Keep in mind when she goes and “does stuff” for long periods I do go and stay at her house and take care of him. I’ve also recently found out that my mom is on very hard meds “Klonopin” and she’s been on it for a long time and ever since she’s told me this I’ve noticed these super super huge changes in her mood. Anyways she pretty much threatened me to take him or she’s gonna get rid of him. And trust me I would take him in a heart beat if I could. I know I’d be gone for 7-9 hours a day but I do love this dog to death and would make sure I’m always back for him but the problem is when I moved out she had no problems with the dog and so I chose a veryyyy small apartment/studio to move into cause it’s cheap. I mean I can barely walk in this room with a desk and a bed in it. There’s just absolutely no space. I’m pretty sure my mother will get rid of him or do something with him if I don’t figure it out soon. But as you all may know finding housing in such a small window is not an easy thing. I’ve found maybe one place that would work but I have no consigner or friend to move in with and they won’t accept me till I do. I’m really scared I’m gonna lose my best friend and she does nothing but blame me now days “it’s your dog you get rid of him” it was always the family dog but now somehow he’s just mine. She has entirely gave up on this animal that loves her more than anything and I’m sure it’s the meds. Please your best advice I’ve never had to deal with this before. And let me mention that the place I live never made me sign a lease. They can kick me out whenever they want. I have asked people in my building and they said if I bring an animal they will find out fast and get rid of him, even if he’s a support animal.And I’m not being dramatic when I say I couldn’t even do a sit up in my room/place if I wanted to. Wouldn’t even have anywhere to put his food and water down that’s how small it is.

This poem is a note left by my main character after he has committed the ultimate act. (No need to say) please share your thoughts thanks.

If I could open my eyes again. And start over. If I could stop over thinking. If I could had faith in the unknown. If I could live another day without approval. If I could wake up without questioning. If I could give my entire life. If I could see you one more time. If I had a different child hood. If I had another path. If I wanted for less. Would I still be the same man. If I drowned in a puddle, or choke on air. If I could be more confident. If I could take risks and lose it all, and try again. If that day the clouds were different. Do you think everyone we remember, remembers us? Do you think people remember the little things you did like we remembered theirs? Do you think about a moment you felt you shared with someone? Do you think the remember it the same? Do we naturally enclose ourselves? Do I have to find something worth finding? Or will it happen as easy as I breathe? Would that make it less than anything else? Am I scared of failing? Does an ego keep us from suicide? Do you think you could forgive me for doing the unthinkable? Would you speak of me to your children? Would our memories make you smile in remembrance of happiness but cry of sadness at the same time? If only I stopped being insecure. IF only I wasn’t afraid of shame, and disapproval. Is self destruction in my nature? Do I have to apologize for these things? Do these things and thoughts make me human? I remember a place with no streets, But too many lights. I remember little conversations we’ve had, but not the first day we met. I remember your favorite color, but not what your dream in life is. Is this selfish of me? Forgive me if one day you must forgive me. Just promise me one thing, you’ll be a little be better than I was.

Thanks for taking the time to listen to my rant. I’ve never taken counseling at a mature age and not to be dramatic or seek validation but I have not had the best life. I know someone’s always got it worse but I’d like to hear some black and white opinions. I am a male and 26 years old. I deal with insanely bad depression and have considered taking my life multiple times.

I won’t elaborate my whole childhood but will say some key factors I believe have messed with my head. At a young age my parents split when my dad left to fight in fallujah. My mother has never had a great choice in men and a lot if not all of them have sexually abused me as a child or physically. My mother is an addict and put us in terrible situations. I was often abused when expressing my emotions as a child and I feel is a reason I am so lifeless today. After my father left the war he realized the things I was going through and threatened my mother with custody of me if she wouldn’t get her life together and leave my step father at the time. My mom and step dad were using when my sister was conceived and she was born with Craniosynostosis. I have always secretly hated my mother for this. Fast forward to my father taking custody of me things didn’t really get much better. He had pretty bad ptsd and he is VERY hard headed. Something that wore off on me as well. Going into my teenage years and late middle school/high school I started experimenting with alcohol and weed. I would pay homeless people to buy it for me or I’d simply just steal it. Didn’t take long for me to acquire a terrible Xanax addiction. My dad wouldn’t find out about this till years later because I ran away from home every time things got tough. I had a couple friends who had addict parents as well and they would let me stay there and get absolutely trashed. (Both of these friends I’m referring to are now dead. I miss them both deeply) eventually one day I came home to my dad and asked for money for a haircut and used the money to buy pills instead. I somehow walked 9 miles while being blacked out on pills and walked into my dad’s house. His first reaction was for me to tell the truth to him about the money and some reason I literally tried lying to him about how I did use the money for a haircut and he got so frustrated he abused me for the first time. He choked me and put me against the wall and screamed at me and made me shake until I hit the floor. I ran away from home for almost half a year. I lived on couches and would go to apartment buildings and sleep on washing machines. I was about 16-17 at this time. School wasn’t going good for me so they put me into an online schooling program. Which was a terrible idea cause I just never focused or took it serious anymore. Eventually dropped out of school due to tardiness and bad grades (I didn’t do any work) I didn’t take life serious and was pretty much planning to od and die. I should also mention I haven’t talked to my mom or sister in years at this point. I really had no one in my life at the time. I was so alone it makes me cry even to this day. Even now. My dad eventually met his now wife and they now have a child together. In my mind it was a restart for him. There is plenty of more details but I don’t see the need to mention them as I’m just saying the things I think about the most today. I should also state I got into some pretty rough gang affiliation at a young age and have done things I’m not proud of. Have never hurt anything or anyone who didn’t have it coming though.

Fast forward again to about me turning 19/20 I had single handily changed my life around with my addiction of pills but I still drank pretty heavy. I met my girl friend at my job at the time and long story short Covid came around I was pretty much living with her and my other friend at the time. I never really went back to my dad’s. Stopped going home so much he rented out my room and I just slept on the couch if I ever came back around. He was more of a friend to me these years. Anyways my girl at the time cheated on me and I found out by my natural instinct. I kind of have a super power where I can read peoples body language supppppper good. So she admitted it and I was just a mess at this point. Drank myself to sleep every night and I would sleep in my car and pretty much almost die from the heat (lived in San Diego) out of the blue my mother contacts me for the first time ever in years. Says she beat her addiction and misses me and that her and my sister went through hell and back. I kind of said fuck it and I sold my car and everything I had and I moved back close to my mom and sister in Oregon. That’s where I have lived from me being 21 up to me now being 26. I started getting into cocaine pretty heavily and alcohol abuse of course. And also got a realllllly bad gambling addiction some how. But like always I have been dealing with these problems alone. Now days I find myself waking up and just absolutely balling my eyes out. I have such little reason to keep going. I walk almost 7-10 miles everyday. just put my headphones on and walk. I like to go feed the ducks and bring my friends ashes with me. My mind feels so gone. I’m sure it’s from all the substance abuse of a young age and just never being loved. My last girlfriend left me because I’m an atheist and she said “you just look like someone sucked the life out of you every day” and I never cried so hard when she said that. I have such a black and white view of life. I never talk about my emotions to friends. I have no family besides my dad and mom. All of our other family disowned us when I was a child because of my mother. And my dad kinda had a similar childhood with his parents and they are gone now. My will to live has solely been around my sister. I would like a partner but I’m just so lost in my head it’s really not fair to someone else. There’s a lot more I haven’t said and I’m honestly getting tired of hearing myself bitch and moan. I just kinda wanted to anonymously say these things about my life.

I have a book I’ve written about a man that went through similar things like me and he eventually finds a good wife and has a child but he ends of killing himself from depression. Im scared to put it in the public because it’s almost like a confession from me. I like to think I’m really talented with my words and a lot of people compliment my people skills and English. I have never done anything in my life I’m proud of.

Thanks for listening. And just know if you can’t find a reason to live please keep trying. There’s gotta be something out there.

-D

So sitting here playing the game again/ watching the show I had an idea and was curious if anyone else thought this. If mar knows how Ellie came to be why doesn’t she just do it again? In all ways of this reality something shitty would have to happen. Ellie dies and they try to make an experiment or Joel goes crazy and kills everyone. But if they just did it to a mom who more than likely wasn’t gonna make it and her kid, couldn’t they just use the kid before it grows up? I can see this being extremely controversial. Especially with today problems. But just something I thought of.

I must say I was very swept off my feet after reading the responses on all of these threads. Let me start off by saying I loved the show. The characters. The animations. Everything! But one thing I see in all of these replies with people not liking season 2 is people just say “bad taste” or “it’s not a Shonen” etc.. I wanna state I was one of the people very underwhelmed by this conclusion of season 2. I try my best not to be biased as I am a stoic/atheist, but i for one think it was a load of bs. I get the whole point and I’m sure I’ll get slammed for saying that and I know this is has no correlation but remember the end of AOT? Did (no spoilers) he not prove a point? Everything will repeat itself without strength and authority in life! I don’t believe in this “everyone should be nice and the world will be perfect” if you’re religious and even if you’re not you should damn well know the world is not butterfly and rainbows. People are born demented and tainted by parents making actions that aren’t even aggressive to anyone. The world is full of prosperity but also free will and temptations. If everything was just a pat on the back and a good talk no one would learn anything. Not that the alternative is much better. But still. In my opinion the world needs a medium on that frontier. Thanks for reading my rant. I just wanted to say what I haven’t really seen anyone say. The world can truly never know peace as long as family’s and ancestors hold the burden of past decisions. 1,000,001 can be in a world and it only takes the one to shift a tide. Unpredictable is life and so should it be handled. Much love.

(I did flag the post as spoiler just in case)

So my LD gf (20) and me (25) have been together for almost 7 months now. Recently she had went on a family vacation and friends. Her brother had invited some friends too. One of them had complimented her several times on the trip and she had told me about it. I didn’t think much of it at the time but now she has recently told they were going to go hangout one on one. It was a day at the mall and feeding ducks. I expressed my feelings about this and said it made me uncomfortable but she insisted I was over thinking and that he has Just simply been nice to her and that she has not a single drop of interest in him. We had a bit of an argument about it and she kept telling me she’s always telling me if she’s gonna see him and what they are doing and that I shouldn’t be worried. She also says she has told him about us before. Now she says the end of the week he has invited her to go see his family in a family dinner. Am I really just insecure and damaged from past relationships? I feel in a way I would NEVER do this to her and she just can’t understand that. Is it truly possible a guy would be doing this with a girl just to be friends? (She has also “asked” him in person if he liked her and he said “no”)