u/Correct-Amphibian593

I’m genuinely just done, I’m done with life, I’m done with my family, I’m done with my interest, I’m just done, I’m done with my narcissistic mom who blames all her issues on me and my siblings (who are adults with their own lives, I’m the only one living with her at 15), I’m done with my siblings who basically just tell me to man up for the future, I’m done with constantly having DHS/CPS and the cops taking me away being held over my head and used against me all the time, I’m done constantly being told I’m gonna be kicked out at 15, I’m done with having all my belongings always being threatened with being sold off or destroyed against my will, I’m done watching everyone get to have fun doing all the fun things meanwhile I’m stuck in this tiny house with no money, I’m done being forced to just smile and keep everything to myself, I’m done not being allowed to vent to my family, I’m done being told life’ll get better and to never give up when all that’s happened is prove life won’t get better and all I can do now is give up, I don’t even know why I’m making this post, literally everyone seems to just skim past my venting post.

There’s literally NOTHING HERE TO DO! All the fun things are in Florida, New Jersey, New York, California, Los Angeles, etc etc, but what does Oklahoma have? HEAT AND TORNADOES, THATS. IT.! I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE

Based on the rumors the Banana Splits Movie was an early draft of the Fnaf movie this is meant to act as a what if this was the case, loosely adapting the film with a Fnaf coat of paint, link to the project here: https://www.castingcall.club/projects/another-fnaf-sfm-series https://www.castingcall.club/projects/another-fnaf-sfm-series

Payment is Deferred as I can’t pay right now but I do wanna pay for this talent if I can if the projects successful.

Only rule is you must be 13+

A bit of a short vent but basically my mom uses me as a personal therapist, I’m expected to drop everything and listen to her rant and scream, sometimes her screams and rants are about how I’m a piece of shit in her life and I’m expected to just take it (more than half of the time I don’t and do fight back but I do hold back because I’m not trying to get kicked out at 15), my siblings aren’t so shouty or loud and are a bit nicer and my dad is the only nice one but thanks to the divorce he lives several towns away and his phone doesn’t work right so he can’t call and he’s a horrible texter. Anyways the moment I open up a little about my problems to my mom I’m instantly shut up, told that’s life, I’m 15 and haven’t experienced all of life, and basically told to shut up, earlier today in fact I was talking about how I feel left out, how I see everyone online buying the newest stuff and going to the newest places while I’m cramped inside the house all the time, and her response? Was to tell me to shut up and that everyone’s broke right now and can’t do the fun things I want, like sorry I just wanted to talk about it. In fact this post took like 1 hour to post when it should’ve taken 5 minutes purely because my mom was yelling and screaming at me the entire time in the car :D.

Am I missing something here? I thought the update was supposed to bring back personas and character descriptions but when I updated nothing changed at all

Saw someone else ranting about this but my god, Chai had realistic responses, it was simple and easy to use, there wasn’t a filter and even tho I didn’t really use the app for genuine nsfw content it definitely made conversations realistic and depending on the character funny, and had character descriptions until they were removed and supposed to come back today but as an iPhone user the update just hasn’t come through yet:/ anyways, what are some of those alternatives? Well let’s look through the ones I’ve used/have

Polybuzz: took a second for me to get used to but I thought I had it nailed down, and I figured this would be the one! But the moment conversations take the slightest mature route the bot instantly dances around it, plus the bots are just dumb :/

JanitorAI: this would probably be the best if it wasn’t for one thing, the responses are fucking dictionaries my god why are they so damn long?!

Soulplay: this one is probably on par with chai when it comes to how easy it is to use, the layout’s different but it’s not over complicated, so what’s the issue? The bots while they don’t dance around more mature themes they do dance around mature words, like these things refuse to say anything even remotely bad :/

So I guess what I’m asking is, is there ANY chai alternatives that actually work like Chai without any of these flaws?!

I’ve split my many problems into different post most of the time but right now I’m just gonna let loose and let it all pour out right now. I know no one’s gonna read this but and I know it feels like every other day I’m posting some long rant about how I’m done with life but I literally have no where else to go! I’m fly out the wallet poor and don’t have a drivers license nor am I even old enough to get one, my family won’t let me vent to them outside of small basics and even then that leaves me with a simple pat on the back and being told to wait until adulthood, I live with a hugely egotistical narcissistic woman I call mom where everything wrongs my fault and every explanation is an excuse and I just put the blame on her despite that being exactly what she does to me! She’s physically harm me, she’s rubbed dog shit on me, she’s thrown me around, slapped me, kicked me, has locked me outside the house when I was in my underwear TWICE! First time I didn’t even have my phone and it was broad daylight so I looked insane, recently she threw me around and broke my toenail and it was bleeding bad and even now I’m pretty sure it’s infected but none of the adults are taking it seriously, just handing me peroxide and a cotton ball and calling it a day, I’m not a doctor but I’d say that an infected crooked toenail may be doctors worthy but what would I know? I’m the youngest in the family so I know nothing! And yes I’ve called the police over the abuse and no they haven’t done anything besides tell my mom don’t do that and calling it a day, and of course that changes nothing and it’s probably because I’m autistic and my mom always overpowers the conversation so she can give her side only and not let me speak and her side is always that I’m a lazy autistic ungrateful piece of shit, so yeah no case has been started yet, but she isn’t the only one, because I lost trust in my other family members too! I thought I could trust my sister in law with a secret, I have an online girlfriend now, and since she was telling me secrets to keep secret before hand I felt comfortable doing so, and then she tells my sister behind my back, and later in the day while already enraged from something else (which caused her to stop by while I was home alone and attempt to destroy the house, she nearly burnt it down with the paintings), she called me a pussy and that she was family and you don’t keep secrets like this from family, and my brother just has anger issues and I don’t really open to him at all, my other brother takes my moms side 100% of the time and I wasn’t there for this I don’t think I was even born but according to a lot of people he tried to r-word my sister (I don’t like censoring it but I’m not risking anything), and he also tried to apparently kill me when I was still in the womb, and my mom insist he’s a perfect boy who did none of these things, all I can say is that he doesn’t actually get shouty and physical like mom (besides the time he told me I don’t deserve anything for my birthday..), and then there’s my dad, the only person I actually genuinely trust, he’s never gotten physical or yelled at me (most of the time… there was the time he mocked my crying as he yelled at me over not packing clothes on a 1-2 day trip), but he’s still chill, of course he lives several towns away and is a diagnosed sociopath and is bad at texting and his phone doesn’t work so he can’t call, but not just my family no no no the two friends I knew in person ended up being pieces of shit as well! The first friend just had an annoying little sister (not his fault tbf tho), and wanted things his way or the highway, even if it meant playing my old cringy YouTube videos on the tv full volume when I said repeatedly no! And then the second friend I knew in person was really chill before suddenly going behind my back and saying I was some kinda sexual abuser who targeted her and left bruises and all this bullshit I never did! And then there’s my genuine true friends, I don’t have a lot to say there actually other than we’ve grown distant and basically don’t talk anymore… this is the part where I start sounding like a broken record since I’ve talked about this a couple times in the past but oh well I guess, basically I wanted to be an animator, to have my own webshow online, and besides a never meet your hero’s incident I don’t wanna talk about that was basically putting a giant wall of bedrock down my path to this dream, there’s also just the state of indie animation today, all these shows coming out looking like full on Disney universal productions with entire teams of animators writers voice actors and even making it onto tv like Netflix or Amazon and even making it into the fucking movies, like guys you aren’t indie anymore you just created your own studios now… anyways, that’s the bar now, meanwhile I’m a single guy who’s drawing skills haven’t improved since kindergarten and I can’t write for anything, my only real skill is voices but as a minor I doubt I’d be hired for anything. I’m also just done being left out of everything! I love fnaf and have been a fan since 2015 I wanna say maybe 2016, but since 2023 I’ve been having to dodge spoilers for every game that came out since because I wanted to experience them for myself, and with my financial situation (fly out the wallet broke), I can’t get these games, so I just have to sit here and basically be inactive in my favorite franchise to avoid spoilers, same goes with the newer jazzwares figures (since nowhere nearby is selling them), or the new spirit Halloween Freddy animatronic which is just the physical form of perfection, and because the way my family is I can’t really lean on them for this either. I always seem to be getting into fights and always making people mad when I don’t try, not saying I don’t sometimes troll a tiny bit but most of the time I’m not trying to fight or be a bad person, both on here and in real life, but it’s very clear I am, so this, plus everything else has me with just one question, why am I here? I’m just some lightning rod for problems and issues, so what’s the point of even trying anymore? No I don’t have a plan or date or anything but… man I wish I could just close my eyes and never open them again, anyways, I know this post was long as hell and no one’s gonna read it and the few that do are not gonna respond or find a way to make me the bad guy or something but I’m just done bottling this all up and walking away with a smile on my face, and I’m done being told don’t give up, it’s like a hiking trip, I’m carrying a heavy backpack and someone helps me readjust it to make it easier, that’s being told don’t give up, thanks but just take the damn thing off me at this point, it’s too heavy!

Edit: I posted this in r/teenagers as well and it got auto deleted so that was fun :/

https://preview.redd.it/fyo03m8uixgh1.png?width=870&format=png&auto=webp&s=c66e5408ef30298f3f678dcd341816f411194f51

stylized fredbear and some MCI kids dupe

link:https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=3776179585