u/Cry-Baby-7733

I'm grieving both people and a past life.

I'm 20 now. I miss being a child. I miss my child self. I miss her.

I miss great-grandma. I miss my furry little cousin Lucy. I miss my furry aunt Miss Kitty. It's so painful. It is so unimaginably painful. I miss everyone and everything. I don't know how I can go on. I just want this all to end.

I ate cilantro 4 days ago and now I'm feeling weak and really weird. I'm panicking right now:(

I have this weird stomach feeling and body weakness right now.

I'm so scared I'm coming down with *that* illness from the cilantro I ate 4 days ago:(

I'm so stressed out.

I don't know what to do. My depression and stomach issues keep coming and going and coming and going. Plus, I ate a high-risk food for *that* parasite by accident. I'm just waiting until the 7 days are up, and it's so hard to accept my fate.

My body and my mind can't handle any of this anymore. I don't know what to do.

I'm so stressed out.

I don't know what to do. My depression and stomach issues keep coming and going and coming and going. Plus, I ate a high-risk food for *that* parasite by accident. I'm just waiting until the 7 days are up, and it's so hard to accept my fate.

My body and my mind can't handle any of this anymore. I don't know what to do.

I just ate cilantro at a Mexican restaurant. My heart dropped when I realized it. Their distributor is most likely Sysco, a suspect in this outbreak.

I'm freaking out. My body can't handle another gastrointestinal illness. I'm so horrified:(

Norovirus ruined my life. It ruined my body. It continues to. I'm tired of this.

I just want this all to end. My 20th birthday was spent crying in my mother's arms depressed. I still have yet to go birthday shopping because my stomach health is down the drain and the stomach doctor isn't available until November. I can't take this.

I over-ate today. Even when I wasn't hungry, I still ate a lot.

I'm so scared. Yesterday, we were at the vet, and I kissed my cat after the doctors were touching all over her. I accidentally made contact with the part of my cat's head that I touched without washing my hands.

I feel so disgusting now. My body can't survive another bout of norovirus. I've already vomited 2 times this week from extreme hunger. My mental and physical health is down the drain.

I'm in a state of both denial and grief. I v*mited 2 days ago and 3 days ago from hunger. It turns out I've starved myself due to my acid reflux keeping me from eating.

Today, I'm on Zofran, but my stomach still feels awful. It hurts. It hurts so much. Yesterday, it was my 20th birthday, and I didn't even eat a big lunch. I still had really bad indigestion.

I can't keep living like this. It hurts. I don't see the point in living anymore. I can't do it.

I v*mited both yesterday and the night before due to extreme hunger.

I haven't been able to eat due to bad acid reflux. My stomach is now feeling miserable even after taking my newly- prescribed Zofran. It hurts so bad. I can't eat anything solid because I become nauseous afterwards.

Today is my 20th birthday. I'm so miserable. I can't keep living like this. I want this all to end.

age: almost 20

approximate height & weight: 5'3, 130 lbs

gender: female

medications: multiple antidepressants, melatonin, allergy meds, and occasional Omeprazole

medical issues: post-infectious IBS

I am so tired of this. Over the past few weeks, I've been waking up nauseous. I had to take my leftover Zofran from norovirus from 3 months ago, and now the Zofran is all gone. I haven't felt this awful since my post-viral depression started a week after norovirus.

I don't understand what's happening to me. I've been having terrible constipation along with occasional soft stool, and I also have horrific acid reflux now. I can taste the acid, and it's so terrifying.

Now, the left side of my tummy hurts. I'm so scared. I have so many important events in my life coming up, and everytime I'm in public during night time (not in the daytime, I'm usually fine then), my stomach acts up.

No matter what I eat. My tummy acts up during night time. It goes away before I go to bed, and then I wake up nauseous again. It's a cycle.

I don't know what to do. I'm starving right now, but I can't eat anything; it's either going to cause me horrific acid reflux, or it's going to go right through me. I just want to eat. I just want to live life happily and normally again. We can't make a doctor's appointment because money is tight right now.

When will it end? Someone, please tell me what's happening!😢

I'm spending the last days of my teenage years depressed, scared, and absolutely heartbroken. I caught norovirus 4 months ago and vomited only 4 times. Still, it has traumatized me so much that I still have to be in therapy.

It feels so embarrassing. Post-viral depression sounds like a fake mental disorder, so no one takes me seriously or understand. The flashbacks I have every single day are horrific. The current cyclosporiasis outbreak is definitely not hoping. I feel like the whole world is ugly and there's sickness around me. I also just witnessed someone having a seizure around me, and it made me feel so terrified that I'm panicking.

I'm trying to remind myself that life is worth living, but it seems so pointless to me.

I have now realized that I went on a really big hiking trail on Saturday, and yesterday, the incoming body aches were most likely due to the strain. Unfortunately, I haven't been to a concert in forever because there's barely any this year, so my body isn't exactly used to those activities like it used to be unfortunately:(

My tummy issues are also due to fried foods, naturally. Of course, not all fries are bad, some just are.

I don't know for sure if these are the beginning symtoms of cyclosporiasis, but I really hope not, because it's my birthday week.

My stomach has been feeling off all day. I went a lot and it's all been slight-soft, but not too bad. I still feel like I have to go even though I don't, and I've been having body aches and a headache all day.

I first suspected it was allergies, since a 2nd cat is in our house now (we are unaware of her status, we'll be taking her to the vet tomorrow). However, these line up perfectly with the reported beginning symtoms of cyclosporiasis I've seen on Reddit:(

The body aches and tiredness is getting so much worse. I am so terrified:( My stomach also still feels weird.

I had a restaurant lemon 4 few days ago without thinking it through.

I am so terrified I have it. Today, I had soft stools, bad chest pain, and now I have muscle weakness. The muscle weakness is completely new. I am so scared:( Do I have it?

Yesterday, the people at the doctor's office (for Mom's appointment) thought I was a kid, so they gave me a Popsicle! However, I didn't wash my hands before touching it, and I think I accidentally ate a part of it that I touched with my hands:/

I'm just trying not to freak out right now. I know Noro levels are lowering in the Midwest right now (at least where I'm at) but still, I'm very terrified.

I don't know if I can live like this anymore.
Today is Sunday the 19th. Tomorrow will be Monday the 20th. The last Monday the 20th, in April, is when the norovirus symtoms started. The day that changed my life. The day that started my depression and ruined everything.

I'm so scared for tomorrow. I don't know if it'll be this virus again (but a different strain) or the parasite, but I can feel something is coming.

Someone, please help me. I feel doomed.

I felt off yesterday night, now everything I'm eating is going right through me. My stomach acid hurts more. I have to take my leftover Zofran again. I have a really awful headache.

I don't know if it's the virus again, or the dreaded new stuff (if you know you know), or my IBS acting up again.

I'm so terrified. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing my big, distended tummy staring back at me. I've been dealing with this for three months since I caught norovirus. I'm tired of going through this. I really am.

I just want my normal life back. This post-viral depression has taken everything away from me. I'm so terrified that this diarrhea is only going to get worse, and I'll have to go to the hospital.

I just want to be happy again. I want to be happy and healthy again. Everything was taken away from me 3 months ago, and I barely have anything back.

This especially hurts because I'm still grieving. The week after I caught the virus, I had to say goodbye to my little cousin, who was a cute tiny dog, through the phone. That's also the day where I was crying beforehand because the depression already started. It hurts so bad. I can't live like this anymore.

This whole thing has made me isolated from everyone. I feel so lonely. I'm having a crying and panic attack right now, and I don't see the point in living anymore. I will never be happy again. I keep on having nightmares, and I keep on sweating randomly. I can't even drink because my throat is too nauseous. I feel disconnected from everyone.