Any hafiz ex muslim here?
My dad messed up my studies in the US and sent me to Pakistan at the age 10, spent 5 years there and memorized the entire quran when I was 14, while there, these "moulvis" they beat the shit out of me, tried to sexually abuse me multiple times, there have been many instances like that, I didn't realize what was happening to me until I was 13 years old, I feel like I got lucky, unlike other kids who couldn't get away from the sexual abuse, my so called "ustadji" and imam both sexually abused me and I was too afraid to tell anyone, especially my father because it was imprinted in my brain that I needed to memorize this book so my parents can wear a crown or a cloak made of gold. When I was a little older and understood what was happening, I told my dad im gonna memorize this entire quran, and then I want to go back to the states, he agreed, so the next year I grinded hard and finally got the hell outta that place.
If there are any parents here reading this, DO NOT SEND YOUR KIDS TO THE MADRASA, please