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حد هنا دخل الجامعة دي و كانت اية تجربته؟ انا علمي علوم ومجموعي ٦٧% وحابب ادخل قسم ميكاترونيكس

علي كلامه الgender dysphoria هو تشخيص بديل

بنحاول نشخص ونعالج جميع المشاكل العضوية و النفسية الموجودة مثل الاكتئاب و القلق المزمن الخ من خلال الادوية و العلاج السيكولوجي في خلال سنتين و بعد سنتين في حالة عدم وجود اي تفسير اخر للاعراض اذا كانت لسة موجوده يتم تشخيص اتضراب الهوية الجندرية ويبدأ العلاج للحالة دي حسب البروتوكول الطبي وهو الaffirmation من خلال الهرمونات و الجراحة و الsocial transitioning

انا شخصيا شايف ان خط العلاج دة اكثر منطقية وامان من اني اعطي شخص خصوصا لو طفل او مراهق لم يتجاوز ال 18 سنة هرمونات و عمليات جراحية فورا

انتم اية رأيكم؟

I don't know where to even begin but I am going to try my best and give the short version. ever since I was late 14 to early 15 years old I discovered my love and passion for human medicine, surgery to be exact. nothing in my entire life to this day ever gave me the same feeling or thrill just thinking about it.

By 15 I had already bought an atlas of human anatomy (frank h netter's atlas of human anatomy 8) and I would often read it and study anatomy from time to time just for fun.

by the time I was 15.5 ish I had suffered through so much that I don't wish to talk about but my life was hell, even staying awake was a daily challenge but yet I kept pushing my way through life, fast forward to late 16 I decided to start psychiatric treatment without telling my family, after months of treatment and switching between psychiatrists and therapists I have been diagnosed with depression, GAD and PTSD and at last we suspected inattentive ADHD.

Now here is the big part, I live in Egypt at the time we even started to suspect ADHD I was already 17 and I was in the last year of high school which is the most important year of your entire education in this country. Doesn't matter if you were the top student in the world ever since first grade, if you don't score over a certain percentage that changes yearly then you don't get to enter the major want. For medicine it's usually around 95% which is the highest major.

Now back to me, I couldn't study at all. I tried I swear I tried and I tried so hard. a single lecture that's 1.5 hours long would take me 3 or 4 hours because I had to rewatch the same section 3 or 4 times for my brain to finally decide to start processing that information or at least not get distracted half way. yet I kept trying anyway for around 3 out of the 10 months you get before finals. Yet of course I was getting no where but then I was diagnosed with inattentive ADHD and confirmed again by a 2nd psychiatrist which finally gave me Concerta after we tried atomoxetine which did nothing, after weeks of trying we found that concerta barely even helped my ADHD even at the highest dosage of 72mg but it was better than nothing as there are no other medications in Egypt. by the time I was truly stable, on anti depressants and had my adhd some what under control it was already almost time for the exams, Of course I scored shit, I scored 67% and you need 93% at the very last to go anywhere near studying medicine. I am not sure what I expected but I guess I always knew it would come to this but there wasn't much I could do. and I can't redo the year as that's not legal. I just feel so lost, I don't know who I will be if I can't be the surgeon I always dreamed of being.. I feel so hopeless and overall just lost.

A few things worth mentioning is that I am now 17 at the moment and I turn 18 in october

While I wasn't able to study I was still some what able to work as a freelance 3D artist since 15

I now live alone away from my family, handle my own finances, cook my meals, clean my house and take care of my 2 cats

I finally have some friends which was something I never thought I would have, a social circle

Of course these things are amazing and I am very grateful for all of them and I know there is no way in hell I would have been the same man I am today if it wasn't for treatment after all I have been through.

Nevertheless I feel like I am capable of so much more yet I am so limited.

Is it possible or is everyone just here for a hook up? It feels like everyone is just horny af

الساعة بقت ٦ ولسة منمتش. الوحدة مش عايزة تبطل رن

Ever since me and my partner broke up I have been yearning to be held, I have never needed to be held or had that feeling this bad but I think it's because I finally got a taste of how it feels like to be loved and comforted. Now that I no longer have someone to give me that I just feel this deep desire for it but I can't have it..

Concerta used to work a tiny bit for my mental noise at 72mg. That didn't last long and just stopped working long ago. Is there any chance it could start working again after a week or two of not using it? I Haven't been taking it for nearly a week now. But last time I did that there was no difference.

Quick note: the reason why I am not on any other medications even though clearly I am not fully responding to concerta is because there are none others available in my country.

I have been in a toxic relationship. I keep on giving and giving and I get nothing out of it. She was depressed so it wasn't completely her fault. But she also brought me nothing but trouble. From her and her family. Her family literally tried to get me jailed, though not successfully. The things her father is doing especially is triggering my PTSD. I am diagnosed and on multiple medications so this isn't just something I pretend to have.

The pain I am in is immeasurable. I am so lonely and I have almost no friends. No one that would just sit next to me in silence, no one who would call me in the evening and say "hey let's hang out" I am so lonely even though I have no restrictions on me. I am fully independent and live alone but yet no one seems to be truly interested in me? Not interested enough to just talk to me?

Why am I like this? What am I doing that's so bad and immoral that I deserve to suffer for. I haven't once hurt anyone. I have always been kind to all living beings, humans and animals. But yet what do I get in return from this world? Hate. I get hate and loneliness as if I don't deserve anything else.

I am considering going back to an SSRI medication that used to just numb most things up, but I know if I do that life won't be worth living. It would be truly meaningless.

I wake up, cats shredded my pill organizer. I saved most of the pills thankfully but the organizer was unusable. I decide to use the normal concerta bottle to store pills until tomorrow. I take my usual 72mg, wake up, forget to brush teeth and just chill on my laptop and take my concerta of course. 30m later wait.. oh god.. I forgot to take the chicken out of the freezer. Then I realize I also took 144mg of concerta within an hour of each other. Can you guess what happened next??

Nothing. Just nothing it's the same if I didn't take it. Now truth is I have been struggling with 72mg concerta. Feels like it doesn't even do anything and now I am sure of it.

Idk how common this is but I genuinely felt nothing on 144mg, no increased blood pressure, heart rate or even anxiety. I think it's about time I stop wasting money on a medication that doesn't work.

I wake up, cats shredded my pill organizer. I saved most of the pills thankfully but the organizer was unusable. I decide to use the normal concerta bottle to store pills until tomorrow. I take my usual 72mg, wake up, forget to brush teeth and just chill on my laptop and take my concerta of course. 30m later wait.. oh god.. I forgot to take the chicken out of the freezer. Then I realize I also took 144mg of concerta within an hour of each other. Can you guess what happened next??

Nothing. Just nothing it's the same if I didn't take it. Now truth is I have been struggling with 72mg concerta. Feels like it doesn't even do anything and now I am sure of it.

Idk how common this is but I genuinely felt nothing on 144mg, no increased blood pressure, heart rate or even anxiety. I think it's about time I stop wasting money on a medication that doesn't work.

I have inattentive adhd and looking at my life and the way my brain works, I don't understand how could this be anything other than a curse? I am very often sleepy, it's very hard to do get up and do a lot of things like go to the gym, I can't help but procrastinate and I have a strange addiction to spending which ruins my Financials and any hopes of savings.

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My question is how do you view your ADHD brain? Do you see any upsides to it?

Around 4 months ago my dosage of wellbutrin was increased from 150mg sr to 150mg sr x2 daily, and after around 2 days boom everything was clear I had energy I nearly teared up from how nice it felt to have this blanket thrown over me to finally be lifted and being able to breath. But then sadly next day the effect was noticeably less and the day after basically gone.

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I am on 72mg of concerta and yes it does help a bit with some inattentive issues like day dreaming for example, doesn't stop it but does lower the frequency of it. And it does make my head noticeably quite I will admit.

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But what it doesn't do is make me wake the hell up. I just want to wake up and not feel drowsy or sleepy unless I am actively doing something mentally stimulating like going shopping or playing a particular fun game of my favorite video game. And this annoying feeling like my vision is a bit blurry (checked with multiple doctors no vision issues) doesn't go away unless I am also being actively stimulated.

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We have tried

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Modafinil at 400mg nothing

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Armodafinil at 250mg worked pretty good but I develop tolerance after 2 days or less

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Bupropion 150mg sr x2 still on it to manage GAD and depression but the stimulating effect is gone

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Caffeine at an unholy dose still nothing

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Atomoxetine up to 80mg nothing

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Heck even concerta makes me extra sleepy when it kicks in but that is resolved with a quick nap but that doesn't affect the general sleepiness.

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I am living in a country where concerta is my only stimulant option and a very limited medication variety.

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So now my doctor put me on 200mg of amantadine sulphate and so far at day 4 nothing changed.

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I just feel like I am out of options and idk what to do.

Around 4 months ago my dosage of wellbutrin was increased from 150mg sr to 150mg sr x2 daily, and after around 2 days boom everything was clear I had energy I nearly teared up from how nice it felt to have this blanket thrown over me to finally be lifted and being able to breath. But then sadly next day the effect was noticeably less and the day after basically gone.

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I am on 72mg of concerta and yes it does help a bit with some inattentive issues like day dreaming for example, doesn't stop it but does lower the frequency of it. And it does make my head noticeably quite I will admit.

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But what it doesn't do is make me wake the hell up. I just want to wake up and not feel drowsy or sleepy unless I am actively doing something mentally stimulating like going shopping or playing a particular fun game of my favorite video game. And this annoying feeling like my vision is a bit blurry (checked with multiple doctors no vision issues) doesn't go away unless I am also being actively stimulated.

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We have tried

Modafinil at 400mg nothing

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Armodafinil at 250mg worked pretty good but I develop tolerance after 2 days or less

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Bupropion still on it to manage GAD and depression but the stimulating effect is gone

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Caffeine at an unholy dose still nothing

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Atomoxetine up to 80mg nothing

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Heck even concerta makes me extra sleepy when it kicks in but that is resolved with a quick nap but that doesn't affect the general sleepiness.

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I am living in a country where concerta is my only stimulant option and a very limited medication variety.

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So now my doctor put me on 200mg of amantadine sulphate and so far at day 4 nothing changed.

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I just feel like I am out of options and idk what to do.

I have met tons of people from here and other places who are queer and for some reason lots of them seem to make it their entire personality. Every single topic has to be about homosexual rights or the science behide gender dysphoria, every single post they make as well has to relate to that. also things such as "pride month" or "black history month" etc I find those to also be very exclusive. I find it not as a way to express identity at this point but rather to separate humans into groups. If we have any hope of evolving past war, racism, sexism, extremist religion ideologies and and other forms of division. I say that we have to evolve intellectually past that.

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As Morgan Freeman said repeatedly "I don't want a black history month. (Then how do you stop racism?) Stop talking about it.)

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(Point here is Queer rights = Human rights)

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And before anyone comes here to slander me and calling me all sorts of things please keep in mind I am a pan sexual man who is in a relationship with a lovely trans woman whom I love deeply.

I have noticed that I pretty much never sleep or be able to sleep without having some sort of noise in my ears, Most of the time it's a human voice talking or people talking in general. though I find myself a fall asleep the fastest while listening to reddit stories on tiktok. what is the science behind that? And is anyone else like that?