u/Dependent-Lion-5572

A year later, my heart still hurts for poor trigg for spending minutes in the water taking his last breath , hoping his mom or dad could save him last may, i remember last year i cried and cried for them. I didnt even watch Emilie, i only heard of her or sometimes her videos would show up on my fyp. Only to find out she was filming content not even two months later , and got pregnant not even a year later !
So while we are all mourning FOR HER, shes fine yall. Shes good, good enough to book a europe trip on the anniversary of her sons drowning , good enough to get PREGNANT AGAIN.

Fuck all that

why does my SIL (husbands brothers wife ) dislike me ? whyy do i even care 🙄
well just a bit about me, i have (had) people pleasing tendencies. I am learning to match people energy. Its hard but im in my mid twenties now so it’s getting a bit easier bc i have just less and less tolerance for weird behavior . Im 24 and my SiL is 19. Iv been married to my husband for going on six years, shes been married to BIL for a year now, and I have tried to figure out if maybe she holds some resentment towards me for not allowing her to do my nails (she starting a nail business side hustle) bc im a toddler mom who changes diapers all day , elbow deep in sourdough, dishes ect. i just dont WANT my nails being “done” i just keep them bare. idk. When she was super new to the family, i made an effort to talk to her and get to know her. I KNOW that iv been nice and respectful to her whenever we were at family functions. Asking her questions about her life, and just overall showed an interest in HER.
The thing is, whenever we are in a group of peope , she very blatenly ignores me. doesnt make eye contact , wont say a word in my direction. Many times will literally face her entire body away from me to the point where its very awkward and noticable.
I underatand that shes really young, and maybe doesnt realize how offputing this comes off but iv seen her interact with my other sister in laws and shes VERY nice and sweet to them.
I guess im just confused.
I also feel ridiculous even writing this post bc this girl is NINETEEN. Im NOT about to have beef with a NINETEEN year old but its hard to avoid her as our family gets together a lot.
Should i just bring it up to her ? should i just do my best to avoid her ?
Iv come to the point now where when we are in the same room i dont even try to make any small talk or initiate any conversation like i have before. Which is atypical of me bc i usually exhibit “fawning” behaviors when i feel tension.
I’ve just never experienced this before and would like to hear someone elses opinion on this.

like idk today my diet consisted of coffee with condensed milk, sourdough with butter, a couple takis, and cookies .
like i just dont care and will eat whatever i want to and i dotn feel guilt i just stay within my limits 🤷‍♀️
EDIT: just an FYI NO i do not have an eating disorder !!! i have zero food noise because i eat whatever i want ! whenever i tell myself i have to eat super nutritious healthy food it creates food noise for me because then im constantly thinking about what im going to eat. YES i understand this isnt the best way to eat, no it doesnt make me feel AMAZING and yes sometimes i am left feeling hungry becuase i didnt prioritize protein , but at the end of the day the freedom i feel from not revolving my entire day around “healthy “meals allows me to live and LOVE my life. No im not condoning this and i understand that eventually i do need to clean up my diet if i want to improve skin, energy or anything like that

help why is orson turning evil again ? 😭🤣

*I WILL BE CALLING HER PED FIRST THING A.M (its 2 am here ) *
but maybe someone has some insight ?

we gave her the approprate dose , or attempted to through syringe as shes running a fever. Not even 1 minute later she threw up.
How do you even them to take a syringe ???
She was fighting it.

for example
she’ll make her famous cake that all the husbands of her daughters like (never makes anything catered to what her daughters enjoy of course 🙂) and invite everyone over to drink tea and eat her cake and shower her with compliments about her cake all night .
Cool, Wouldnt even care otherwise except for when I bring over my jalapeno sourdough bread that always turn out perfect and fluffy eveytime (unlike hers)- she wont even put it out the table. INFACT, she will instead put out STORE BOUGHT bread on the table instead while my loaf sits behind the counter .🤩
God forbid your daughter gets some praise huh🤣

could one persons conviction not make sense to anyone else ?
growing up , i lived in a pretty traditional conservative christian legalistic houshold.
eventually i grew to know Christ on my own ,
Anyway, something i always wanted to do as a child was get my earlobes pierced, and last year i was like - you knwo what yeah im a grown woman now let me get my ears pierced, and i did 😊
But… for some reason iv had this feeling of “why?” since. Like I have these thoughts that are like - “well God didnt create me with holes in my ears for a reason so why am i doing this ? “
The thing is …these feelings are getting stronger and stronger.
I cant understand why. I dont believe that just bc someone has “vanity modifications “ like tatoos / piercings done to themselves - that they arnt saved so why do i feel like this is a matter of salvation for me ?