u/DidYouSeeBriansHat

Stop using it or go somewhere else with that shit. We’re not interested in your lack of talent or desire to put in real, creative work.

Since Covid, I haven’t really talked to anyone outside my immediate family. Not one phone call. Nobody has even cared to keep up with an actual conversation over instagram messenger or text. The only thing a few people have asked is for me to come visit them, but nobody seems to have any interest in visiting me. I’ve always been the person who has visited friends, whether it be miles away, cities away, states away, or even countries away. Nobody has ever come to visit me. On top of that, I haven’t been on a date in over a decade. So when I say I’m always alone, I really mean it. I even work from home, so there’s no real constant interaction I have with anyone. Basically, since Covid, everything has turned to shit for me. That year (2020) I even developed tinnitus and my mental health and physical health went to shit. I ended up gaining 50+ lbs and have yet to be able to get rid of it. Idk. I’m just unbearably sad and have nothing going for me. I’m in my late 30’s, not sure what to do and don’t see much of a point given all the horrible evils going on in the world. I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I’m painfully lonely and I’m tired. I’m really fucking tired and I don’t know what to do.