u/DoNotDisturbThem

You chose this over me. You chose to completely remove me from your life so you could have this temporary thrill that means more to you than I ever did or ever will. So now I have enough disregard from you to finally give me the fuel I need to make sure I never remember anything about you or our past or the future that I thought we would have you will no longer exist in my reality whatsoever so enjoy your priorities and your choices your anchors your distractions and enjoy those things that you value now in your life that mean more to you than your own soul I've got better things to do with my life too like watch paint dry you've proven to be the biggest mistake and regret I've ever felt I've ever encountered or ever will thank God you no longer exist and I'm talking thin air

I though I was aware of so much because there was so much going on that was being kept from me that I already knew continued to follow up on and I thought surely there's not more than what I know but in the last two days so much more it's been revealed and I didn't want to hate you I don't want to be resentful I want to believe it's all real I guess I was protecting myself from finding more than I needed to know at once but now it's all out of the bag and I don't know why or how you could be that way but you are you did those things you do those things and I didn't matter one bit they're so many more just like me that's why I don't matter that's why you're always so distracted I was ready to go before I met back up with you you kept me around you can't keep me around anymore I don't want to be so you finally got me you finally hit me where it hurts hard enough to make that impact to where I can't fix it. You asked me once how it feels knowing I can fix everything and anything, I'm sure you remember my answer that there's one thing I can't fix...now there's two. They'll never see me in motion again in fact no one will out of sight out of mind with blood I know your soul away you have signed I know you're more than just in a bind and there's no way I'll ever get your morals back aligned just remember that wasn't your soul to sell so you don't have to be doomed to an eternity in hell I'll take that from you too goodbye.

I hate you now you made it clear what you been doing what you want and who you want it from so don't come back I'll deal with the s*** you left in my life starting with the stuff that has any value I'll sell it to try and make back the money you've wasted of mine in the last week trying to protect your stuff and save your stuff that ended up costing me and then you left me after the fact you've done this before I won't tolerate it again I'm going to make my money and burn the rest of your s*** this is what you want you can have it I'm going to have you replaced before the end of the week. I will lower my standards and even pay just to have you replaced and never have a memory of you again because I don't know you never did you're fake and a phony and I'm done being in denial and telling myself you're worth anything to me now you cost me you're not worth anything you're a debt and I don't want any more of it enjoy your priorities and your anchors rot in the field that you've chosen I'm moving on I deserve better you deserve nothing.

Is it that hard to follow up and give a response when the conversation gets cut off two days in a row and never gets any follow-up despite the texts and the messages requesting follow up on the questions I had that are somewhat crucial at least for me trying to schedule my weekend. Not important to you with whatever distractions are going on just like yesterday to not acknowledge one bit but leave me hanging and ghost me two days in a row again basically when you know you have the opportunity to respond instead of just leaving it silent now so f*** it. I'm going to follow through with the plans I already had and assume you've changed your mind in just decided not to mention it to me I'm always at the bottom of the list anyway and anytime you suggest something as far as a plan I can always assume something better will come up and I will be left in the dark. Yeah maybe I have a list of my own and have no intention on taking names off of that list to accommodate your false claims and leading me on again to unnecessary hope. Then again I'm sure you know I'm smart enough to follow your conversations with your other options on here no matter how many different profiles you have and how cowardly you to speak. You can hide in the shadows all you want but you forget somebody stole my light a long time ago you think I can't see in the dark think I haven't been off the path long enough you think just because I only have one good ear that I'm not going to point it in that direction I think I don't have another plan you think I hung on this long just to lose my dignity or maybe it's just a very very well drawn out ruse that will be definitely worth the grand finale after you trying make a fool of me again and you get shut down. Or maybe I'll just be on vacation and all you're wasted efforts to trigger me will be a joke or maybe I'll send in a video just to expose what I've been doing in my free time and then deny it to you even though everybody sees it, or maybe maybe I'll just say helllllooooo baby and while I crashed my new bronco into a falling apart Jeep leaving its carrier strung out in the street needing rehabilitation but too broke to make the move. Or maybe I'll just sit in my corral like a good bull waiting to charge laughing at the p**** sitting there on the bronco and the homeless lady climbing in the sunroof broken out of the Jeep complaining about the Lost key and wondering where the key holder went. Now that's one cool pin. Signing off good riddance I stepped in a beehive while killing wasps. Nobody told me it was pay to play but every silver linings got a touch of Gray. Can you contract the disease when you've been sleeping with a ghost or can they even get pregnant how do you handle a ghost baby? Now how do I respond to this how did I get to this point how is this a point it's so dull and it has no direction but we have no Resurrection just a bunch of dead bees and we'll leave the J's to circle around somebody has to watch the last nail go in the coffin otherwise that Big pine box serves no purpose might as well be ashes and we'll All Fall down instead of making a ring around her Rose cuz we know what that's for. That's how she drains her conscience and blacks out the noise of Jiminy cricket whistling in her ear. Well why you're doing that bumble, I'm going to tend to my roster and protect my herd. I got to make up time for that wasted devotion that was so absurd when I knew all along the other options you preferred but you're so foolish s*** your eyes are brown just like a turd and that's the value of our relationship and what it's worth one peanut and corn kernel and now I wish that the last 4 years of our connection never even occurred. And I'll make sure that every memory within the next week becomes nothing but blurred and stirred into a melted pot I've lost and confused memories blacked out by a concussion and I won't say another word.

You took advantage of my love and devotion to you. You led me on, got all you could out of me, used me and then threw me out. You replaced me overnight again, pushed me to beyond my boundaries, took me for granted and left me on the sidelines so you could be available for other options. You had no faith in me because I'm not wealthy or born in poverty never fortunate enough to have the wealth or luxuries you and your ex had. So the effort to pursue a real relationship and connection with me is not an option in your eyes. But you knew this and let me think you would, you let my hope and devotion to you blossom as you sabotaged and made other plans and saw other men knowing you'd have no problem pushing me out.Ive lost faith in ever feeling love again or hoping to have a partner so share my life with. So now with all the betrayal and sleeping around you were doing, thinking I didn't know, now I have gone back to my old lifestyle met up with some old acquaintances and returned to doing what I do best. Satisfying other men's wives sleeping with other women with no feelings no expectations more excitement no need for trust no heartbreak and no more being lied to by people like you. I forgot how much less toxic my life is f****** other people's wives and being appreciated for it when you couldn't even appreciate me when I was giving myself to you 110%. You are spoiled, a liar, ungrateful, self absorbed, greedy, cruel, superficial, and not worth the blood sweat and tears I she'd for you. These women that do appreciate me, I bless with experiences, positions and satisfaction I never offered to share with you. You didn't earn them. They do and my roster is growing faster than your web of lies do. Sux to be you. Bee's produce....you're just a wasp. I hope that stings for a long time and you break out in hives again. You had a home and security with me. You had love from me and loyalty from me. That meant nothing to you. Now enjoy your other options and add up your regrets. I hope they get too heavy for you and you fall down alone. I hope you ask me for help as always so I can laugh in your face then service your sisters, friends, enemies, then lie to you about it while watching the actual security camera footage and regaining my pride and showcasing my true pride. When I'm sharing love, you'll be experiencing depression, resentment, lack of value and hunger. Sadness, homelessness, rejection, loneliness and most of all, empty. Unworthy. If only you had a genie in a lamp that you could rub that would remind you how special you could have been.. now enjoy your new company and your better options and well continue sleeping your days away reminiscing all the mistakes you've made and how you did me wrong because now it's your turn and I don't f****** lose.

Take your other options, take your available company, take your financial security from your other options and use them. You won't see me standing around waiting for you to see the value in me and how I protect you and your life and your possessions anymore. You lost so much in my absence when you ditched me for the last 2 months I come back around and all your life is back to chaos and all the stability I brought you from the sacrifices and the hard work that I've done to try and keep you comfortable is trashed and now you're talking about keeping your other options comfortable insecure in your life as some kind of better financial security for your future because I don't have that? Let's watch the rest of your life fall apart and turn to garbage now because that statement showing your true colors and your intentions on putting me back on the back burner as you have always done couldn't be more clear now and I'm f\*\*\*\*\*\* gone there's plenty of people that will see the value in me that do see the value in me that you just refuse to accept as I put it all on you. I'm going to go ahead and open up my options and see where that takes me instead of wasting my time effort and health, and blood on someone like you. I'm good enough for somebody out there and I could give a rat's ass if it's you anymore.

I would have thought maybe you would have some interest in trying to visit with me or at least talk with me in your last bit of limited time before you go disappear most likely for good. But no you ignore my texts Dodge every possible scenario that would keep us together one way or another in this life but no and your last bit of time left you decide to ghost me again. As I've been frantically trying to find another solution to help take care of you, despite your choice to return to your ex for help instead of me you've now just disappeared again without any reason other than being completely rude last time we talked for no reason at all other than I suppose you were frustrated that you didn't have a reason to b**** at me or treat me like s*** because I was still trying to help you. Meanwhile your ex was rejecting you. I've come to realize my whole purpose in your life has been nothing more than to use me just to make him jealous and manipulate his reactions. You only come to me when you want him to respond to you going to somebody else for help which he is always reacted that way and I've always been put back on the back burner. What a waste of love why the hell do I love you why do I give a flying f*** about somebody who treats me with no value at all other than a f****** tool to regain your f****** EX that you're so obsessed with? I don't expect you to have that answer because it doesn't serve you in any way back into his hands but that's okay I have the answer it was a rhetorical question Farley. So you go on ahead enjoy f****** off in a straight jacket where you belong I'm going to go about my business as if I never met your sorry ass. I should have never helped you from the start ever because it's done nothing but wasted my hopes my efforts my time and my ability to love somebody I wasted it on you while you were playing games well enjoy this game I'm f****** out and I'll never see you again got a problem with that take it on with your f****** EX you'll realize soon enough what you had enjoy your psycho ward at somebody else's expense you passed up something good that you'll never run into again don't call me for help don't reach out for something that you've ever gave a s*** about I'd rather be somebody else's tool then you're f****** joke. Put that in your pipe and smoke it. Every one of my ex is treated me better than you. Everything about you is fake you ought to be ashamed of yourself but you don't know the feeling of shame because you don't know the feeling of anything you just mimic human emotions and blame everybody else for your problems that you refuse to take responsibility for you just point that finger I hope somebody breaks that f****** thing off all 10 of them. Screw you I should have never moved out here thinking that you would be here with me. That doesn't make you smarter than me by any means but congratulations you fooled me all that does makes me naive blinded by love that didn't exist but I learned my lesson and that's to stay away from trash like you and really stay away from anybody this whole world is f***** and I actually thought you were a good person even though I have no reason to think so you've been a liar since day one you don't care how it affects people and who you hurt as long as you get your obsession with your ex accommodated f****** have him that's the last f****** time. The best thing I can say about you and me was I had the opportunity to f*** a ghost and watch it disappear. Beyond that you've caused me nothing but pain you pretend to be sorry but continue to do it drag me back in just to do it again taking advantage of the fact that I love you so you could use me as a punching bag because you can't have your ex cuz he puts you through the same s***. I hope it f****** hurts I hope it hurts so much when reality hits you in the f****** face but I won't be there to see it which is a good thing because I don't want to see you hurt it would hurt me twice as bad and I can't change that. F*** you I should be in that God damn straight jacket. Goodbye by the time they set you free I'll be gone so don't assume that I'll always be there for you life is short especially when life sucks and is wasted on somebody not worth wasting it on.

When somebody wastes half of their day just to try and convenience you get you your transportation working despite the way you've treated them which has been s***** and then you chew them off when the task is done in a hurry so that you're not caught interacting with them all the while you being not even burdened by the facts of what happened after leaving your presence in your rush to get me out of there my running out of fuel and having nothing to get gas with because I spent all of my money on gas to get you to your f****** vehicle and you wouldn't lend me a dime to get me back to a place where I was safe left me stranded with puppies in my truck and no way to fix it and then you two accuse me of stealing your money in your wallet after I wasted half my day in the hot sun working my ass off on your vehicle that somebody else f***** up the somebody that you've been sneaking around behind my back and always have but you two accuse me of taking your s*** again which is always proven to be wrong every time you've accused me because you misplaced your stuff and don't clean up after yourself the audacity of you to even consider that thought just means you have no common sense no sense of morals and a straight-up disgusting need to be the victim and treat the people who care for you like s*** you need to be reevaluated you need to take a look at yourself and try not to vomit because the real you from 4 years ago would be absolutely disgusted by what you've become and by who you point your finger at. No wonder nobody wants to help you with anything because everybody that does you complain and accuse just like every other sorry ass ungrateful whiny spoiled brat that I have helped in my life has proven to do you're nothing different and should be ashamed of yourself. Screw you and your Jeep screw your lying two timing unloyal sorry ass excuse for being.

F*** you, you're coward, a liar, cheater and completely full of s*** you have no right to make a decision for me as if you know what's best for my emotions my abandonment issues and my heart.

To tell me that you are giving me space to protect me from your emotions to save me the heartache and to stop interfering with everybody around you and burdening them with your emotions and problems and using that as your excuse to throw me out into the dirt instead of telling the truth that you've been seeing somebody else that you've traded me in again for the same pathetic b\*\*\*\*\*\*\* the same guy you've always obsessed over and confirming that I was right while you were lying even when confronted directly by me and to try and make yourself appear as if you're doing the right thing and sympathizing by protecting me instead of admitting that you are lying cheating and disregarded everything about us goes to show that although I do deserve so much better than you, but you also don't know a damn thing about me and what I can handle what I have handled plenty of in the past and how truly emotionally immature and blatantly selfish and greedy you truly are. If I didn't love you I would expose you for who you are right this second I would say your name and what you drive and where you stay and who you obsess over even though he doesn't give a s\*\*\* about you and drags you along just like you've done me I would expose every thing about you just out of spite to make you feel pain and make you feel the only thing that would hurt you which is your f\*\*\*\*\*\* image and what other people think of you. Not how you've hurt other people not how you've affected somebody who loves you unconditionally but how you appear in other people's eyes. Unfortunately I love the person that is tortured me plays me for a fool and thinks I'm stupid enough to fall for her lies and excuses. I think you forget your sapiosexual and what does that make me? You forget I'm not the idiot I pretend to be. You forget that your lack of a heart doesn't justify your blind selfish obsession with the one you pretend not to constantly sneek of with isn't easily noticed by me every time your ignorant and thoughtless excuses and lies are painted across your forehead and I can read it from a mile away probably before you even realize it and act on it but if you're going to lie put some thought into it it makes you an idiot or just plain lazy to cover up your shame and guilt that a normal human being would certainly feel in your position making the decisions you make and continue to support rather than acknowledge and do the right thing or own up to your f\*\*\* ups that just keep coming which make you that much lower and never enough for any person or any situation and that's why you always feel like you fall short because you do by choice just because you can convince yourself by lying to yourself about anything you choose doesn't make it okay it just makes you stupid stupider than you think I am because your brain is that fragile that small and delicate to where you yourself can convince yourself of your own lies not a lot of brain capacity there to see through the mist so don't patronize me with your b\*\*\*\*\*\*\* excuses about doing this to protect me you've been cheating sneaking and lying for months and you're ghosting me was a direct result of your failure to take accountability for being a lying sneaky cheating disgrace to my intelligence and our relationship or lack thereof. Do you think I do not realize I was being used or didn't realize it during the entire charade of a relationship? I knew the whole time but unfortunately when somebody's in love with somebody else they have a tendency to care and have compassion and forgive but certainly not the ability to see themselves as The idiot that you perceive them to be once blinded by your own lust and selfish need to deceive good people. I wish that you had the ability to feel shame guilt and compassion just so that I could see the pain flow through your veins as I've had to feel it flow through mine so that I could feel the guilt and pain for wanting to see that in somebody I care about unfortunately I'm incapable of wanting that or taking amusement and something like that or ignoring it at all good riddance enjoy your new beehive I'm sick of being stung by what was supposed to be a queen bee but is just turned out to be a f\*\*\*\*\*\* hornet spreading its wings to avoid accountability and the reality of her disgrace I'm going to go rebuild my own hive and you're not allowed to touch my honey something that sweet is not made for something like you to indulge enjoy watching that from afar when you realize your choices have left you all alone without anything in your hive to keep you going the only thing buzzing in that hive requires batteries and you won't be able to afford those pretty soon either. You don't have any worker bees and certainly don't have any soldiers for protection and you used your stinger on me so have fun with that I hate wasps and hornets they have no place on this planet. They should all just buzz off to where they came from down in the dirt in the ground buried and isolated.