Meditation frustration
I have tried all kinds of methods of meditation. Nothing seems to work for me. And it leaves me frustrated. The biggest obstacle is that I don't know if what I am doing is the right way or not.
What does 'observing your breath' mean? What does 'feel if there's any tension in your feet' mean? I want to know which part of the feet do you want me to feel for tension- the top, the mid or the bottom?- I get caught in these things and can never do how that 'observing', 'feeling', 'noticing' is to be done. Pranayama is still doable because you are breathing in and out in different patterns. But then, that is not meditation. That is preparation towards meditation.
What is meditation then? Can anyone really meditate? I highly doubt!
This is so frustrating. And I have been experiencing this up and down relationship with meditation for almost 2 years now.
Can anyone help?
I don't want advice on instructions on how to do or not to do. I need to learn from experiences if any. Because clearly, getting instructions (like those in guided meditations) do not work for me.
Sigh.