u/Em0N3rd — reddlx

Hand full of BBQ chips

Everything going on in the world, especially USA....... I'm just so defeated, im disabled and ftm trans... I have a young child and im to a point I was a flip phone, mp3 and laptop to be the only electronics I have so im not asked for my ID by random apps and AI tracking my every thought....

Hell- I've even started wondering how I should make an escape plan for my family if things continue to get bad. Even told my fiance in tears that I know I may not make it far with my disabilities but she has to make sure kid and herself make it out of here okay if it came down to it.

BBQ chips cause food expensive and idk if I can force myself to cook

u/Em0N3rd — 2 days ago

▲ 9 r/Omnipod

So may 11th?

So.... I didnt see anything about the may 11th thing that was advertised other than a post here asking what happened to it? Is there any update to that?

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u/Em0N3rd — 9 days ago

▲ 0 r/GMail

How do I fix this!?

Been trying to figure out how to delete thousands of emails at a time.... cause going 100 at a time isn't working that well. I atleat am not in the 30k anymore...

u/Em0N3rd — 10 days ago

▲ 2 r/raisedbynarcissists

Feel like an idiot

Just feel so fucking dumb. Keep going through the motions of going no contact to low contact to regular contact then looping that over and over through the years.

This time I definitely messed up cause I brought up during low contact struggling with the fact I could become homeless so I took up her offer to help..... now I realize its just a trap like before.

Idk if its possible to go no contact with a cosigner on an apartment even if she doesnt live her but omg does the pressure suck. I want to just tell her I refuse to be like her but sometimes im scares im doing that.

To clarify- I say that because growing up, my family faced homelessness after a hurricane. My mom moved our family up north near her parents, in exchange for them helping her get a house I was to visit my grandparents almost daily..... this led to me being Sexually Assaulted by my grandfather for years and her just yelling at me that "she did the best she could" while still driving me to grandpa. Now im here taking her signature for a place to live....

Just feel shitty cause its that time of year again when she pushes for more contact between herself and me.. let alone the pushes to at least be in the same building as my grandfather....

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u/Em0N3rd — 10 days ago