u/FairlyCalm244

Rotating in my chair

As if I can't sit still

I feel the rumbling

Before hearing the shrill

I scurry around

To locate the noise

Nowhere to be found

I keep hearing your voice

Expected an earthquake

Even a tremor

Something severe

As I kept searching

I saw nothin near

Turn outs it was celestial

Incapable to be seen

Saturn had shifted

You only heard the ring

A reflection, a mirror

Was nothing in the dark

Only thing to be found

Was an internal spark

To analyze the depths

That weren't right in life

Exuding the darkness

With all of my might

Ridding myself

Of everything plight

Breaking the glass

A new image takes hold

Having sat with the feelings

To never be told

External shifts inspired me

To break free

From all of the things

I couldn't previously see

I now understand

With or without you

I still have to be me

Rotating in my chair

As if I can't sit still

I feel the rumbling

Before hearing the shrill

I scurry around

To locate the noise

Nowhere to be found

I keep hearing your voice

Expected an earthquake

Even a tremor

Something severe

As I kept searching

I saw nothin near

Turn outs it was celestial

Incapable to be seen

Saturn had shifted

You only heard the ring

A reflection, a mirror

Was nothing in the dark

Only thing to be found

Was an internal spark

To analyze the depths

That weren't right in life

Exuding the darkness

With all of my might

Ridding myself

Of everything plight

Breaking the glass

A new image takes hold

Having sat with the feelings

To never be told

External shifts inspired me

To break free

From all of the things

I couldn't previously see

I now understand

With or without you

I still have to be me

I thought it would be me

Stuck in that place

I apologize that you feel

Like you have to chase

I don't fancy games

Or not being clear

Have fought this whole time

And still want you near

You say no more

You don't want that with me

I feel it deeper

And I cant choose to unsee

The energy still fiery inside

You should be here

Right by my side

It's a magnetism I've never know

But if you say it again

I'll leave you alone

You are it

the one

You see

You're equipped

With the woman I need

But it's grander

More beautiful even

Please don't shut me out

No matter the reason

Day after day

I have still chose you

Through distance, through struggles

Infinitely true

Don't give up

It's not what we do

As I circle

My beautiful Goob

Just wanna go home

I miss you

With acceptance lingering

He always recoiled

Love sprinkling

Yearning to be spoiled

The gleam in his eye

Came with possessions from her past

Asking if he can be that guy?

And would they ever last?

Burden became present

And he took the ride,

To reposition his life

And where he'd reside

For he is alone now,

Maybe it wasn't meant to be,

If this is so,

Why do I still feel for thee?

Conscious and forward,

As I remain to push

Made himself so small,

Noone would tell him to shush,

Leaving first,

Melted to the floor,

This experience of discovery

Is about what my life has room for.

With acceptance lingering

He always recoiled

Love sprinkling

Yearning to be spoiled

The gleam in his eye

Came with possessions from her past

Asking if he can be that guy?

And would they ever last?

Burden became present

And he took the ride,

To reposition his life

And where he'd reside

For he is alone now,

Maybe it wasn't meant to be,

If this is so,

Why do I still feel for thee?

Conscious and forward,

As I remain to push

Made himself so small,

Noone would tell him to shush,

Leaving first,

Melted to the floor,

This experience of discovery

Is about what my life has room for.

With acceptance lingering

He always recoiled

Love sprinkling

Yearning to be spoiled

The gleam in his eye

Came with possessions from her past

Asking if he can be that guy?

And would they ever last?

Burden became present

And he took the ride,

To reposition his life

And where he'd reside

For he is alone now,

Maybe it wasn't meant to be,

If this is so,

Why do I still feel for thee?

Conscious and forward,

As I remain to push

Made himself so small,

Noone would tell him to shush,

Leaving first,

Melted to the floor,

This experience of discovery

Is about what my life has room for.

With acceptance lingering

He always recoiled

Love sprinkling

Yearning to be spoiled

The gleam in his eye

Came with possessions from her past

Asking if he can be that guy?

And would they ever last?

Burden became present

And he took the ride,

To reposition his life

And where he'd reside

For he is alone now,

Maybe it wasn't meant to be,

If this is so,

Why do I still feel for thee?

Conscious and forward,

As I remain to push

Made himself so small,

Noone would tell him to shush,

Leaving first,

Melted to the floor,

This experience of discovery

Is about what my life has room for.

I'd love to have an intellectual conversation about setting and interpreting boundaries, and being held to them, but do the boundaries exist on her side? I'm gonna say not wholly.

Why can't I be mad or expect a resolution? My ability to see everyone's side is important, but not at my expense. I'm tired of losing it all, because I feel I'm connected to them. Last time I checked, stars were still interconnected, so I'm supposed to break it up? Fractures never repair the same, so I have to choose ethereality. Hopefully better.

I need your love way more than yowu know