u/Far_Guava_5632
me when my doctor tells me to stop abusing laxatives and just eat more fiber
like dude i fucking tried that already
lotta watermelon
melon melon melon soup egg peas egg cucumber melon melon yoghurt melon
some of my gorgeous things
1 sweet potato soup + egg & mushrooms
2 broccoli rice tuna bullshit bowl
3 cannellini beans and tuna
4 boiled haricot verts in homemade broth
finally gonna give recovering from my bulimia a try. sweet potato soup w soft boiled egg & seasoned mushrooms & glass of blueberry juice
getting caught exercise purging while in the hospital
what if they turn me away at the door cause i’m too fat
how it feels to try to drink my calorie supplement drinks right after listening to my mom lecture my dad about how liquid calories are the worst and will clog our arteries
antipsychotics aren’t working very well. sugar cookies
my therapist wants me hospitalized and im terrified. chickpea curry with rice and lime
my mental state has never been lower and my heart is close to giving out because of my self destructive behaviors. cheesecake
having to dig out puke filled snot out of my nose before bed so i don’t choke on it in my sleep
i made chocolate cake in the michael wave yes it’s salted
i’m so tired
i hate walking i hate eating i hate forced treatment i hate that nobody is noticing my walking obsession and they’re just seeing the weight changes as symptoms that’s all they see they weigh me so often but refuse to let me tell them my actual weight they weigh me with clothes and water in me it’s hell it’s hell i hate seeing the wrong number on the scale they think i’m so huge
trying my best
relapsed yesterday, but getting back on track today by starting out my day with a long walk and my safest protein shake (barely ever triggers binge urges)
we got this gang
new milestone, 5 days
five days binge free today, and i feel so much clearer than usual!!! i have not gone more than circa 36 hours without binging for over a year, so this is pretty huge for me