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99 24 valve had it about 3 months and it just started this a week or so ago
I can be accelerating down the road and suddenly my rpms jump from 1400 to say 2000 or so. Not even gassing on it or anything just cruising down the road or gaining a little speed. I hope its not the vp44 going out, truck is otherwise basically stock (to my knowledge) with an automatic transmission that has been rebuilt previously
This only happens at random and very fast. It only stutters and revs for a second or so, then back to normal. This can happen two or three times in a row
Whats going on?

My boyfriend and i have been together for one year now, and i have known about his addiction since the literal first month of our relationship. We have lived together for almost the entire time weve been together (fast, i know). I have given him countless chances to try again and to try to stop because he knows i hate that he watches porn. Every time i think he got better, i either ended up finding something on his phone or straight up asking him if he had watched porn recently. He always beats around the bush before he tells the truth.
I know he does it when im not home, hides in the bathroom and does it, has done it at his friends house, has done it anywhere he thinks i wont know about it. The problem is im not stupid. Am i stupid for staying and trying to work it out though?

I love him so much and we are practically the same person. I have just simply lost trust in him. And then i looked at his emails. And i found some emails from a popular porn vpn. So that immediately threw me into a fit of disbelief and disappointment. It hasnt even been a week since i last talked to him about his addiction and i find this. Granted, the emails could be from a prior “subscription” or some kind of spam, just maybe not from after our most recent conversation. But the times and dates on the emails are what really set me off. Im just not even sure what to believe anymore

He knows it deeply distresses me and upsets me yet im afraid he will simply go back to doing it.
I know he loves me and i know hes attracted to me, but i guess not enough to try harder to earn my trust back. I have no confidence in my body anymore because why the hell should i?

I know its not my fault, this addiction was way before me, but the shit he watches looks nothing like me. I mean fuck i throw myself at him every chance i get in bed but he just doesnt take it except for once every few weeks. Guess hed rather give himself a handjob.

Months earlier, i asked him nicely to delete the social media apps that he used to get hard. And he did. I think.
Do i look for his bank statements to see if there is a recent subscription charge for a vpn? Can i check internet history from my wifi router? Should i just fucking give up? I need to ease my mind, and i want him to ease my mind but i know hes just going to sneak around again. I hate to come to reddit to get “relationship advice” because i dont think i need that, i dont even know what i need to be honest
Idgaf if he sees this post i hope he knows its about him