u/Firm_Reindeer_6381

Like most of you guys can probably relate to, you spent a lot of years or more explaining to people, doctors how your condition work you probably heard responses like positive thinking, or don't make excuses, have u tried x or y, or religious or spiritual people recommending nonsense nothing reveals how shallow people's compassion is like a chronic illness, no one knows how to hold it. They all think u can just pull yourself out of it if u have the right perspective lol.

I'm done.

I'm done explaining to someone how my condition works, im done explaining why I can do some things and why I can't do other things you either get it or you don't you think im not trying hard enough? Ok that's your opinion

You don't understand my condition? Okay

I don't even care about diagnosis anymore bro

Sometimes I feel like im in a world full of inconsiderate people that just lack emotional intelligence i accepted that I may never get a diagnosis that people may never understand what im experiencing. I'm accepting it all so that I can stop giving a fuck. I accepted that i may get worse and my health could get so bad , I don't know but I accepted everything and I made peace with it.

I'm just enjoying the ride atp.

I absolutely cannot cold turkey i have FND which is a nervous system disorder and my symptoms get extremely bad each time I cold turkey but I want to eventually quit completely so im curious what my options are. I thought about switching to maybe hot chocolate or decaf coffee. Or something with barely any caffeine.

Just needing a boost to help me get on my feet a bit my skills are that i am willing to learn anything, fast learner, studied astrology, love to write.. i struggle with a condition called FND that causes seizures, speech issued at times, and has made it hard to afford anything

My life has been very difficult since my diagnosis I haven't gotten approved for disability yet so I'm just looking for some side income to help make ends meet please

I don't have any impressive skills right now but I am willing to help out with most things or even give out readings if anyone interested in that or a job that involves typing etc I am determined and flexible..

Hi i sorta scared to ask for help cus i seen the comments to some posts on here and been brutal but i do rlly need help, my health has been really bad for years because of FND stands for functional neurological disorder, I been going to a free Christian therapist, do physical therapy exercises etc done all i can to try to get better but this is one of those conditions that have no certain care yet they say speech and physical therapy helps most people but it's not bulletproof cure and not everyone responds the same, i have food stamps, so my food needs taken care of but haven't gotten approved for disability yet and just not sure what to do i haven't been able to afford anything other than food, and there is a lot of things i do need especially as someone disabled I'm not saying anyone here has to give me a handout even just advice on how I could make money online until disability comes through would be helpful too.

ideally something I can do even with brain fog because some days my FND makes it very hard to function and think properly because it affects your neurological/cognitive skills too. But I'm willing to try, I definitely not a lazy person i even tried working at a pet resort job months ago and had a seizure on first day, i have seizures a lot even during my christian therappy appointments but my counselor is actually use to it at this point and they couldn't keep me due to liability reasons but I don't think it was realistic for me to keep working there anyways especially for my safety.

I also have proof I'm disabled, I have the seizure medicines i take, it's technically for epilepsy but it works for FND seizures too.

But remote job ideas, resources would be nice

Also, I been learning about astrology for awhile and write poetry and willing to do that for funds aswell if anyone interested.

If you're like me you drink caffeine for the warmth etc but its getting hotter outside just step outside and the best part its natural energy and good for you! Take advantage of how the sun gonna be out for next few months because the sun is so good for you, I've noticed since I started stepping outside more that I have more energy which is a miracle cus i struggle with chronic fatigue.

The cool thing about rock bottom is that its only up from here once u experienced what its like to be forgotten by evryone, treated as if ur dead, and u become chronically ill and u see ur looks fall apart hair falling out, teeth damaging from dental work u cant get due to how severe ur seizures are...it really breaks down ur ego. And u reach a point where theres like nothing left to defend. U felt all the horrible emotions and realities most human beings try to run from.

And since u felt it so many times and for so long now u sorta feel free....because ur no longer scared of failure or being loser etc because u are already that by society standards. Sure being a loser is subjective but, when ur treated as if i treated ignored when reaching out to friends, forgotten for months when u dont post on social media anymore, not checked on, people judge u as homeless because u cant afford to even get a haircut cus u been unable to work and have trouble qualifying for disability....lol its rough but its sorta nice Ina way because u feel free from it all. U no longer feel the need to avoid feeling like a loser, or feeling like a failure you lived in the pain of that reality for so long now it no longer hurts.

24m I quit for 10 days but recently relapsed because its been a lot happening toxic family drama, health flare ups, extreme fatigue, nerve pain, movement issues etc that's been very difficult and impacting sleep. Life has been rough, so many things I need to do like call housing programs, social workers etc. I stopped for 10 days so I believe i can stop, I think the problem is when I stop I am non functional, for 10 those 10 days I could barely move or do anything not just because of caffeine withdrawal but because of my health symptoms and chronic fatigue syndrome I have. So I wondering fi there's a option for something that has mild form of caffeine and then I do every other day and then go completely off I feel like cold turkey may not be what I need because of how intense my neurological health symptoms are (its intense) haha.

Feels like I ned something that keeps me functionable enough to wake up calls and get a few things done each day.

24m, idk if i can do this anymore dealing with a chronic neurological illness, and chronic family stress/toxicity that's been happening since like my childhood idk it all feels like too much for one person sometimes things get so stressful here at home and because of my disability that I start literally talking to myself and saying random things that dont make sense. Like everything I going through is taking such a mental toll on me it feels like too much for one person. I asking is there hope for me cus my life has never felt darker, lost all friends. Nothing makes sense anymore. It feels like the there's no hope for me because every doctor i see dismisses me they dont want to actually help me they just seem to look for reason to gaslight or send me off to the next doctor, and therapists that I try to see doesn't seem to understand the depth of how much I am hurting and losing it. The coping tools they offer is so surface level for what I experiencing. Idk What's wrong with me and why I deserve all of this suffering

24m I think this relates to taoism idea on nonresistance. as a male my whole life i tried to run from the feeling of being seen as a failure , someone who couldn't be productive enough, being known as the guy who wasted his life, who didn't try hard enough, that didnt power his way up the worldly status, a joke. I didnt grow up with much acceptance and love as a kid so I felt like i had to prove something my whole life, lately because of my disability I feel like the opposite of every thing that makes a man valuable, his productivity etc lately each night i have spirals about feeling like i failed I'm a nobody etc but a thought came to tonight of what if I embraced it? What if I embraced feeling like a loser, what if fully faced and felt the idea of being everything I'm afraid of being so that im free from it? It's like a sacred rebellion "like yeah im a loser" yup that's true and what? Even if I achieved the things that would make me feel less like loser I would still be a prisoner to the fear of being a nobody if I never embraced it. The thing is it's easier said than done to accept it as if it's true and to let it pass through u. I felt like this related to Taoism because Taoism isn't really about buying into the egos games, it's about just flowing with things. Nonresistance not resisting what we fear being like a failure.

24m, looking back at my life thus far feel like my life would've made so much more damn sense if i was a woman the person I am on the inside doesn't seem to match the person I am on outside... have a very feminine personality, hate facial hair, I hate looking manly in general, I thought wa just a kink thing at first and thought for sure I couldn't be trans but starting to wonder if I been oblivious to the signs...today I felt this random grief of like who I could've been or how much I wouldve made sense as a person If I was female. I always related to females a lot, been times subconsciously that I used a woman image next to my poems when I would make them on canva or woman character in game and didnt even realize I was doing it.

Do I sound trans? Tbh. I dont even know if I want to know i struggled so much with fitting in as who is am now so I feel like being Trans would just complicate things even further idk if I have the luxury to be myself feel like it would open me up to even more misunderstanding than I deal with now as someone autistic...looking back i feel like most of my life's suffering came from trying to live as male and I feel like it's caused like a lotnof stress. I suspect it even may be contributing to my msyery chronic illness maybe. Thoughts?

24m I have FND, and multiple chronic illnesses, a year and half ago I had to come back home to my family who was mentally abusive to me growing up, cus I was sorta cornered because I lost the homeless program I was apart of due to my disability and had nowhere else to go I'm like the black sheep of family so I didn't have much other family connections or the ones I do have their not able to help, but anyways I bene going through a LOT lately around night time I notice I would talk to myself and say the most random or strange things but I'm aware, i got assement by a mental hospital a month or so ago they didn't see a reason to keep me but they did think I was stressed out, basically my mom often says things like I'm agitating her from every small little thing I do she starts a lot of pointless arguments about food or just accuses me of things like today she accused me of trying to listen in on her phone call because she was on the call in kitchen and I was putting dishes in dish water to help keep things clean. And my mom has like a yelling problem, even my dad once told her why u always yelling today I snapped back at her and noticed as I was arguing back to her I felt electric sensations in my heart area. And then I went into my room I felt so dizzy then had a seizure.

What I going through is just so much. And I feel like my mom isn't being very considerate about my physical and mental health. She seen me have mental breakdowns where I would cry hard and tell her that I love really struggling, after arguments and it's like she doesn't care about how much the back and forth arguments is impacting my mental and physical I'm at a point where I considering being homeless rather than staying cus I feel like I going crazy man and I'm concerned for my well being if I keep trying to endure this.

I see my therapist tomorrow so I plan on bringing this up to her.

Not sure if i trippin or not but things I thought I was addicted to, or the bad habits I had was all being fueled by caffeine it's like off the caffeine how I act is like 70% different if that makes sense.

So made it pass the part where i craving actual coffee because of coffee now what tempts me is just the sleepiness and fatigue that doesn't seem to be going away haha

24m its gonna be so much harder cus I have a chronic illness that forces me to be at home a lot and I can't do a lot of my old hobbies but I not giving up, I want to change and become someone better for God and for my future so hype me up and encourage me please guys!! Lez gooo 💪🏾❤️‍🔥🙏