
I wish I had never found out the truth about God.
I used to have a perfect formula for dealing with pressure. My mindset was always to put in the hard work and trust God to handle the rest. It was the ultimate safety net. (Kadavul Irukan da)
But recently I realized there is nobody out there. That safety net is completely gone. Now I am looking at my future and realizing all the weight is on my shoulders.
Every success and failure is entirely on me. There is no divine plan and no cosmic backup. Instead of feeling liberated, I just feel paralyzed. I am completely unable to cope with the anxiety of it all right now.