u/Flubbypubby

Metaphorically adjacent to Newtons third law of motion I guess

I love my paddle board aka “standup paddle board” or “SUP” (Just venting, I don’t really need suggestions) I’ve been desperate to find something to get me off the literal floor from depression and out of the gross hot camper I live in. While brainstorming, I remembered around five years ago I got to use someone’s board, and I had a blast! So I started obsessing over getting a paddle board. I really wanted a hard shell because I thought it would make me feel more secure or something as a beginner. The one I got was used and only $100. It felt like a miracle. I couldn’t find anything for less money. I’ve taken it out once. Then realized due to my health issues, I can’t get it back on the car without a real struggle when I’m done. Honestly even getting it off the car and down to the water is a lot. 11 feet long and roughly 50 pounds. I am capable of doing it on a good day. But due to my health issues, good days are few and far between. I’m not going to sell it. I really love it, and couldn’t afford a new inflatable one anyway. Money is so annoying. I’ll get out there at least once more before it gets cold. I’ve been sitting on the floor for hours in a sad episode and needed to vent about something so here I am. My apologies haha
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Hi it's late, I'm a little sleepy. Anyone good with puppy girls? Kind of a brat beware! Just looking for some comfort, maybe a little structure. Send age and location in your message!

Hi this is just a journal entry I wanted to share about having an online crush! No advice needed.

I do not know why I am putting in the effort to talk to him. He really gives me nothing back to work with. He never hits me up first. The only time I ever got a message first was a selfie of him at 5 AM with the caption “too early” or something. He has never even once asked me a question. Sometimes he’ll add “you?” at the end of his response, when I ask him what he’s doing. I don’t know why I am even typing this all out. Maybe I am trying to convince myself to stop projecting a future that isn’t tangible. Is the future ever tangible? It’s not limerence, thank god. This is just a dumb crush. I know enough to keep my day dreams reasonable. I keep telling him I’m lonely, hoping he will get the hint and maybe suggest we hang out. That’s pretty pathetic. Maybe he is not looking to have someone in his life. I could ask, but I’ll get emotional and make things tense. One time I posted a picture of the drippy fucked up bathroom ceiling, and then he sent me a pic of his fancy ceiling. Like ouch, maybe the emotional or basic intelligence is just not there. I wish I could just unadd him. He’s easily the cutest guy I’ve seen in a long time. When will another one that cute come around? He always responds to me, no matter how goofy my message or picture is. Why am I trying to weave a blanket with just a few threads? Maybe I’m out of luck for the rest of my life. Honestly it is that deep. The cute faces and kind eyes always get me. The crinkle in the corner of his eyes from smiling when he sends me selfies, cannot be for nothing right? I always project my kindness and authenticity upon people with similar facial features and facial harmony as me. I am glad I no longer project my intelligence upon others. That was a rough lesson to learn. The depth in which I perceive interactions may be a curse. When I reread our conversations, I find myself smiling at my own responses, I am the life of my own party.  He hands me pebbles and I smile at them like they’re gems.

I’m having trouble finding an SSI lawyer because every single lawyer I Google says SSDI. I’m way too overwhelmed to do this myself. I’m trying to find an advocate or something, but I keep getting really unhelpful comments from people on Reddit. Where else besides Reddit should I even look for help or advice on this?

Hi, I think I applied for SSDI (ik this isnt that sub im just here for opinions from other disabled people) last year, but I meant to apply for SSI but I actually can’t even figure out what I applied for. I need help finding a lawyer or something, but I can’t stop crying and shutting down from anxiety every single time I try to look this stuff up. Every single time. This has been going on for like two years. I’m surprised I even got my application in. I haven’t gotten any sort of email saying I’m not approved but the website just says I don’t qualify for benefits at this time. I need someone to help me figure this out cause I literally can’t do any more research by myself. I got sent all my medical records in the mail last year and I was gonna turn them in, but I never did because it was just a confusing stack of papers that was gonna end up going nowhere. I really don’t know what to do. I cannot do this myself. How the heck do I get help with this? Who would even help me with this? Don’t say get a social worker cause that’s even weirder and scarier than I am capable of doing. My living situation is quickly becoming unlivable and I am gonna start sleeping in my car to get away from the mold and I really just am just at a breaking point.

Edit: since people arent getting it, im having trouble even googling lawyers, this is how deep the problem is right now. I need help finding someone that can help with that

I’m never going to have a safe healthy place to live. I grew up in a hoarder house with abusive parents. I finally got out when someone took me in after I ran through the woods from the cops. My parents sent them for me again and again for reacting to their abuse. The house I moved into flooded and bloomed with so much mold that I got sicker than I thought was even physically possible. Horror movie level mold. I emergency moved into a room in a house that turned out to be a drug lab with fighting dogs. Married men hitting on me in my pjs while I tourniquet their dog. A “friend” offered me a place to move into, even painted my room the color I picked out. She had me come make sure I liked it, then told me I couldn’t move in 5 days before my move out date from the drug lab. Then homelessness for a few months. It got too cold to live in my car anymore so I moved into an old RV someone has. A dozen floods and burst pipes in the camper later, and Im waking up gagging from the mold. I can’t be anywhere. I’m tired of this Grandpa. (Well that’s too damn bad!)

Hi i’m a puppy girl looking for attention!!! Woof woof! Anyone good with dealing with brats? I have serious attitude problems so beware. You must be intelligent and educated. Mostly looking for older than me.

Edit: include age and location in message

Just a little bit about me if you haven’t seen me here before, hi I’m 25F and have been sober/clean for 4 years and 11 months and have been doing it all myself this whole time. I’ve debated going to meetings for years every time I have a crisis, but never had the courage or motivation. Life has been so rough for so long that it’s worn out my motivation to be who I am and not who I was. I knew being home tonight would be dangerous for me so I finally just said the hell with this anxiety and mental wall, i’ll just go because I need to. And it was totally fine! I probably looked a little crazy with how fidgety I was while somehow zoning out but damn it I was there 😂

I’ve been contemplating going to AA for a few years now (I’m 4 years and 11 months clean/sober) because I don’t wanna do this alone anymore, but I’ve always chickened out and this morning I woke up upsetti spaghetti and decided it’s now or never so I found one on zoom in a town near me just to get my foot in the door you know. Hopefully I can work my way up to actually going to an in person one. I know attending a zoom call isn’t a huge thing but it kind of is for me. I’m happy that I did it.

Basically, what the title says. What subreddits allow screen recordings? R/ Creepy DM’s and r/ nice guys don’t allow it.

Basically what the title says. I’m 25F and have been sober from drugs/alcohol for almost 5 years. A big event caused me to get it together 5 years ago and I have been without guidance this whole time. My therapist is not good with sobriety talk (not explaining don't ask) but I do have a therapist. My reason for getting sober has sort of faded and there’s not much left to lose so I’m just wondering if hitting a meeting would be good for maintenance? Should I be in the NA subreddit? am I too young for meetings? dumb question yeah but is the crowd even relatable? who knows unless you go I guess. ive been sitting on the floor for hours im just not okay. reaching out to reddit usually bites me in the ass but oh well

Hi I bought an 11 foot long beast of a paddle board and kind of would like some tips or encouragement about how to get it on my roof rack. I’m a pretty strong person but lifting that over my head myself is not going to happen. Maybe I have to slide it up there? I have arthritis in my lower back (im 25 lol) so I just want to make this as pain free as possible. Thank you!

Hi I bought an 11 foot long beast of a paddle board and kind of would like some tips or encouragement about how to get it on my roof rack. I’m a pretty strong person but lifting that over my head myself is not going to happen. Maybe I have to slide it up there? I have arthritis in my lower back (im 25 lol) so I just want to make this as pain free as possible. Thank you!

hiii like the title says I’m 25F and I’m looking to maybe find a fwb. Ideally I want to find someone who is nearby (im in the northwest corner of CT) and I want to be able to hang out and maybe run errands together too. I have posted this like 500 times it's getting old but idk where else to look!! some requirements are, have a big dick lol, I’m a size queen, and you have to be okay with protection or have a vasectomy. dad bods to the front of the line! lol Other stuff, im kinky af! super into pet play and love a ddlg structure. I'm a puppy! woof! treat me like one! lol kind of a huge brat. I don’t do hookups and will get to know you before anything physical. dont hmu from outside the country or if you're located legitimately in nyc lol. INCLUDE your age and location in your message.

hiii like the title says I’m 25F and I’m looking to maybe find a fwb. Ideally I want to find someone who is nearby (im in the northwest corner of CT) and I want to be able to hang out and maybe run errands together too. Some requirements are, have a big dick lol, I’m a size queen, and you have to be okay with protection or have a vasectomy. dad bods to the front of the line! lol Other stuff, im kinky af! super into pet play and love a ddlg structure. I'm a puppy! woof! treat me like one! lol kind of a huge brat. I don’t do hookups and will get to know you before anything physical. INCLUDE your age and location in your message.