u/Friendly_Progress_61

For context I started playing the game 3 months ago and I only started playing ranked last season with about a month left, I hit gold 3, mainly because my mmr was chalked because I just hadn’t played many games. Anyway started off this season in 3.0, placed gold 5, basically got soft reset from my gold 3, and now Ive made my way up to emerald 4 with a 1.0 kd. Do I have good potential for the game and what could I potentially reach with more months/years of practice ?

I’ve had health anxiety for years and usually when I feel like my health is under control, I won’t have panic attacks. However, when I’ve got a health problem (or what I think is one) I’ll start having random panic attacks. I’ve had two in the last two days, one today and one yesterday. Yesterday I was at the gym and after I finished a set I could just feel my heart beating really fast and then I felt kind of off and has this feeling of blurry vision but not completely just like a quick in and out, like a flash. I then sat there for 10 minutes, did another set and it happened again, I thought it was my heart, I always do and bear in mind I’ve had ECGs and my blood pressure is normal so I have been checked but I never fail to think I have a serious issue when this happens. I’m Also only 22 so it makes it even less likely but this doesn’t help. I had another one today in the shop, I went to go buy some chicken and as soon as I get in and start wondering around I get the same blurt vision, feeling like passing out but not really. I got home from the gym yesterday and I was mildly trembling and I could see my muscles spasming in my leg . I also got random numbness in my hands which went away after a little bit. I did try medication but I stopped because it made it worse and I couldn’t handle it. I was okay for a while I hadn’t had this sort of thing happen for months but I think recently the lack of sleep and routine has killed me, I also had a couple drinks of Alcohol last night which probably made it worse.

The amount of times I’ve killed someone because they’ve baited out their location to me with their laser, is unreal. This isn’t call of duty you don’t need to be constantly ADS, then un-ADS, then ADS lol.

Unless there’s some unknown reason idk about, it seems fairly dumb.

I recently got back into competitive gaming and oh my, I love it but I’ve noticed it’s impacting other areas of my life. I’m starting to neglect things like the gym or working on my studies. My sleep has gone to shit too. I’m regularly staying up till 2-3am every night, and I know that might not be late to some people but considering before I got ‘addicted’ I was sleeping around 10-11pm, it’s pretty late for me. My whole focus is spent on ranking up or how I can improve at the game. I’ve subconsciously, and slowly turned the game into my life. I’ve probably spent more than 200$ on skins, battle-passes and random other bullshit. At first it was, I just wanted to be the best in my friend group, and now it’s turned into ‘i must be the highest rank’, even though I know it’s not achievable. I’ve also had terrible eating habits and constantly ordering food. I’ve put on around 10 pounds in 2 months. It sucks and I need things to change.

Does anyone relate to this ? And how did you get out of it ?

I’m not entirely sure if this is the right place to post this, but I have to get this off my chest.

The title pretty much sums it up but for context; I’m 22, I study full time meaning I’m not employed right now, which isn’t that unusual to any other uni student my age.

However my friends treat me, and always make jokes, like I’m just some unemployed loser who does nothing with their day. It’s always stuff like ‘wait you still don’t have a job?’ or ‘that’s easy for you to say, you do nothing all day’. It’s the one thing that really gets under my skin because I know how hard it is to do a degree, and the amount of time it takes. I just don’t get why they do it. It’s not even like any of them are particularly doing well either, they mostly have dead end jobs themselves, with not much education. And that’s not to be a dick, but I’ve got to call a spade a spade if that’s the way they treat my situation. I work really hard everyday, and it’s so frustrating for someone to basically undermine all my effort.

I also get don’t know why they care what someone else is doing to the point of constantly trying to belittle them about it. If I’m in a position to study full time and not work then what does it have to do with you?

I usually wouldn’t post something like this but I had to get it off my chest, and I’m sure there’s people that can relate and have had similar situations.

(Console) if that makes a difference.

Is one necessarily better?

I copied my settings to the T; vert, horizontal, ads everything. For some reason it’s faster on my other account, like it also does this thing where it’s slow and then randomly speeds up. Why is that ?

I’m currently platinum 4 with a .8 kd so yeah not the greatest, but for me I care a lot more about helping my team and playing the game in a way that makes it easier for us to win the round. If someone asked me would I rather go 10-0 and lose or 1-7 and win, I’d choose the 1-7 any day. Although my KD is bad, I have a 70% win rate after 74 matches, and I purely put that down to the fact I’m such an objective heavy player, and someone that would rather help my team than frag myself. Plus pretty much everyone in platinum/emerald is former champ at their peak so my games are really tough and I try not to look into my KD much because of that. I think the moment you start caring about KD and stats is the moment u start overthinking and playing scared as soon as you have 1 death. In this game KD really does not matter that much, it matters a bit of course but if you’re a teammate who gets the bomb down every round but also dies every round, I’d much rather have you than someone who just cares for their own kills and does nothing to help the team plant.

Not to glaze or anything, but as a high gold/low plat player, watching champs play this game is fucking unreal how good they are. The skill gap between a plat and a champ is insane. It’s really amazing how good you have to be at this game to get to the highest level, the game sense, the aim and movement mechanics are incredible.

So for example if u bottom frag and go 0-5 every game, but you win all your placements, do you get a high rank or does KD matter?

How can anyone say death match helps with your aim unless you’re already good? I’m a peak low plat and get absolutely shit on. No one’s positive other than the top 3, everyone cheeses ops, you’re constantly fighting 3 people at once, getting shot in the back and spawning on top of each other. The game literally spawned me and one dude on the exact same spawn point but I was a-bit ahead and he got a free kill. Every time I play it’s just such a shit unenjoyable experience. Clear house is way better for practicing aim because you actually have the time to think, and you need that before something becomes muscle memory.

I’m sure I’m not the only one, but does any1 else feel their health anxiety gets so bad or persistent that it stops you doing normal things, like working a job for example?

When I get into my health anxiety spirals I can’t focus on anything else and for that reason I’ve struggled to work and have been living off what I saved from my previous job. I used to keep taking days off to go to a doctor or just straight up be sad. I hate health anxiety and I feel so guilty/selfish too because there are people who actually have the problems we fear. I think the worst part is that I’m in my 20s and that’s statistically supposed to be the healthiest part of life. This year it’s been problem after problem, two that I keep switching between, I went to a doctor in February, got told I was fine and I had a separate scan recently which was also fine, but yet here I am waiting for the next thing to come along. I’m kinda out of shape rn too, I feel like one thing that helped a few years ago was just to get into the healthiest shape I could and I felt like because my body looked healthy I was healthy. Not sure if that’s actually a thing but there must be some psychology behind it.

I hate hidden mmr, I didn’t like it in COD ranked and I don’t like it in siege. It’s not that I think it’s a bad idea, but I think the way it’s implemented is really bad. The algorithm seems very inconsistent. I’m kind of new to the game, I actually got the game in 2017 but I barely played, maybe the occasional custom game with my friends who were into it, but I had well under 50 hours maybe.

I recently got into the game again around 2 months ago and started playing ranked two weeks ago. I managed to get to gold 3 but I’m basically stuck now. I’m playing with my two friends who have both been plat/emerald before so we’re in emerald lobbies, and I’m actually holding my own, I’m positive in most games and I contribute a lot to help the team with setups and support etc. they’re also in gold rn but they get like 80rp and I’m getting 30. It makes no sense because we’re playing the same people and I’m even over-fragging them sometimes. And we’ve even had ‘emeralds’ on our team going 0-4. I just feel like the way the game works out your rank is really stupid.

I’m guessing my hidden mmr is lower from when I used to play when I was like 13 and just dog around. It seems like the game is really reluctant to get people out of hardstuck even if they’re winning games.

I’m not too sure how the new ‘removal of hidden mmr’ will work if anyone has an idea lmk please. I’m guessing after placement matches everyone gets the same mmr for a win/loss depending on how many games they’ve played. It makes sense because naturally the good players will filter up and the newer players won’t get out of lower ranks.

I think the game should just be null and void because how is it fair for a 3 vs 5. Even 1 player leaving affects the game massively. Black ops 6 had a system where if 1 player leaves your rank is protected. No idea why tf r6 does not have this.

So everyone told me deathmatch is such a great way to improve aim. I feel like my aims worse now than what it was when I started deathmatch. I just get fucked left, right and centre. I’m always in about 3-4 peoples crossfires and get spawned right in front of someone. I just played probably my last ever game of deathmatch, I was 4-20 and just left. It’s filled with so much cheese too, smg12 dok and ash RC. I just don’t see it as practice tbh because I can’t practice anything. I’m on console if that makes a difference but idk. I just really don’t like deathmatch, it’s fun but i feel like it’s doing more harm than good since the gunfights aren’t anything like what u get in a real game.

For starters unless u know the majority of maps pretty well, you’re already fucked. U can’t really focus on mechanics because you’re getting shot from every direction or by someone who’s just spawned right next to you. And it just plays nothing like the actual game. I used to always play it and never noticed an improvement but as soon as I started playing clear house and shooting range, my aim improved a lot. But it’s obviously a very split opinion, I’ve seen champs say they use it and I’ve seen some champs say that don’t use it. It’s not like I hate it but I just don’t think it’s necessarily optimal, but what u think?