Preferably in Delhi but please let me know if you know where to get a job with that education level cuz I'm getting rejected everywhere
I don't know what to do, my life turned upside down and I went from having more than a dozen of supportive people to having no one by my side, lost my job, had to leave the place I was staying in. I'm currently with my transphobic mother and I feel sick when she says some things, she's not evil but she just doesn't know what she's doing when she says certain things. I feel sick, I attempted an unalivement and my boss fired me soon after, my boss who treated me like his daughter, took me to trips, fed me all the time, let me stay in his house when I needed shelter and now? He rejected my call, fired me after I confirmed my 2 week leave, he made it a permanent one, my boyfriend who was very supportive and even intimate with me now said that we can be good friends and nothing more, I lost everything and everyone I had, I'm desperately searching for jobs that are inclusive of trans people and in a place like India, it's pretty difficult. I may have to join one of the transgender groups here, I don't want to beg for money or do sex work but that's what they do, that's probably what they can offer me as well. Mom took me to a psychiatrist and she said that people will only use me and play with my heart so I should just enjoy it for what it is, that it's not possible for me to have a lifelong partner because I can't have kids. I only have a little bit of money and my parents will never help me continue my hrt, I can only provide myself with it for some time. I have no one, I can't get help from anyone and there's nothing I can do anymore. Maybe I need to just get it over with, but I don't know how to do that, my attempts fail and everytime they fail, everything gets worse. There's just nothing I can do and no one I can go to.
So I like my hair when it doesn't look so dry all the time so I started using hair oil but everytime I comb my hair, so much hair comes out and it doesn't happen when I don't use hair oil but my hair stays dry. Any solutions?
I listened to their album "Awakening from Abyss" and that's all I've been listening to these days, absolutely love the song "Scream for me" and "Liar" is a really beautiful one. They're just so good but I'm so surprised that I've never heard of them before I stumbled upon through Spotify. What are your opinions on them? Are there songs you would wanna share?
A few guys who came to our office yesterday were waiting since their work was in progress but the whole time they were looking at me and talking amongst themselves and laughing, one of the guys took a picture while being "sneaky" (it's literally so obvious and we have cctv cameras there too) and slowed it to his friends who laughed along again. Tbh this doesn't bother me much now and it didn't hurt as much back then either since everyone in my office, especially my best friend and boss are very supportive, they looked really dumb doing all that, I should've said something but I didn't and I told my best friend (also coworker) later and he said that he would've said something if I told him back then, later on he told my boss at our closing time and my boss told me that I should've said something and created a scene right there, he wasn't surprised when my friend told him about the picture cuz he saw how they behaved on cctv. I'm really happy that I have a boss who treats me like his daughter and I definitely will take his advice and speak up next time this happens.
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I repeat, I'm not sad or affected in a bad way by this experience, I just wanna share it cuz I think it's worth sharing!
I don't know why, but I don't crave music like I used to, it's still playing in my ears cuz I always have headphones on whenever I'm outside, it's playing when I'm in the shower and getting ready for work, but it's the same stuff that I always listened and feels like it doesn't give me the rush I used to get from it, I still practice but I skip days in between which I didn't do before and I just want to get it over with so I can relax. I have a job so I'm not free all the time, but when I am free in the evening, I don't crave guitar or music. Whenever people ask if I play guitar, I just say sort of cuz feel like I'd be lying if I did say I play.
Calculator says 30C UK but the local brands I've looked at have size charts that don't match at all.
Loose underbust: 29.5 inches
Snug underbust: 29 inches
Tight underbust: 28.5 inches
Standing bust: 32
Leaning bust: 32.5
Lying bust: 32
I'm not sure what size to get and I'm like 4 months into hrt so they'll grow more over time I'm sure. The first few bralettes I got feel really tight on the band and the cup. Help.
I found quite a few amount of single string shredding among the artists I love so I've been practicing that, but with a pattern like 3213 or 3123 (as in scale degrees), ascending seems pretty natural but descending is very difficult cuz my pinky feels a bit weird when doing that. All of it is done on high e, do you guys ever use these two patterns to descend? If so, let me know if you found it harder at first too.
My senior has been pretty rude to me since 1-2 months, it's really affecting my mental health. I live alone so after I go home from office, it's just me and my thoughts, it just feels very suffocating. I don't know why he is so rude to me, everyone makes mistakes and even when I'm not making a mistake, I'm still being talked to harshly, it's only just that one person, no one else there has a problem with me, I really don't understand it since I'm supposed to work closely with that person. He says he wants me to talk openly and speak clearly but he makes my anxiety worse by being so rude to me, I can barely get my voice out after being talked to like that, I cry frequently and even more after going home, I don't know what to do.