u/GetLaidOff69

I always avoided right wing subs thinking it is echo chamber.
I am a centric person, 2 decades CPM and twice BJP.

Until I got banned from all left leaning subs because I tried to counter their perspective where they are wrong.

My realization is like this:

Left wingers: always screams Democracy is in Danger, freedom of speech is taken away blah blah.
Which I agree in some points.
BJP somehow do things too quickly and taken away some of the rights that should not be.

But the problem is,
The same left wings, won't let you place your voice or opinion if it slightly differs from them
You need to bash Modi, India, how bad it is.
But the moment you praise BJP/India or make some of their policy look correct.. you will be banned up front permanently.

which becomes irony.
in one hand left wingers cry hard for freedom.
another hand, they silence everyone else who doesn't share the very same perspective.

While right wings/centric subs let you speak, share your bitter opinion.(while arguments maybe there but highly unlike you will get banned)

So I realized. letting those leftist in power = Democracy will be in more danger.

I don't complete more than1 game a year, for 2026 it was Mafia the old country. I was hooked from the very beginning.

Just finished the game 10 mins ago.
Ending felt messed up.

>!Enzo did so many things good, Don could have just handed her daughter t Enzo!<
>!Cesare killed Enzo despite Enzo gave him a chance.!<
>!Playing as Isabella at the end was bad, as I was grieving for Enzo.!<
>!Man!!<
>!What's the point of playing a narrative driven game if it ends up making you feel sad and unsatisfied?!<
>!even before last chapter the game was solid 9/10!<
>!but on 14th chapter it became 1/10!<
>!Dunno, but I feel kinda bad.!<

I have been on Reddit for a long time.

Reddit is known for freedom, freedom of speech, and for letting people raise their hidden voices. especially the progressive/left-leaning crowd (not talking about politicians here).

However I noticed something!

Suppose it is a right-wing sub, and a leftist makes a post or comment with a completely opposite perspective. It is highly unlikely that they will get banned. There may be arguments in the comments, but they still get the chance to be vocal.

On the other hand, some ultra-progressive leftist subs, which are always talking about freedom of speech and questioning the government every now and then for "killing democracy", will ban you upfront without any warning if you don't dance on their DJ.

So it becomes funny when the same people who scream about freedom all day have zero tolerance the moment someone's perspective is slightly different from theirs.
Be it Politics or LGBT or Religion something else!

Irony, is not it?

I am neither a rightist nor a leftist. Perfectly Centric person.

But guess what?

I have been banned by almost all those famous Indian subs where I was commenting to defend the country from foreigners. Reported to admin those racists, Admin banned me instead.

If you don't say India is worst country, and Modi is as worse as Hitler, You will get banned.(I and my family pro CPM for 20 years, and twice to BJP).

রাতে স্ক্রল করতে করতে একটা অদ্ভুত জিনিস মাথায় এলো। আমাদের সমাজ আর রাজনীতিতে আজকাল এক অদ্ভুত Hypocrisy চলছে।

আগে মানুষের মুখ বন্ধ করার চেষ্টা হবে, তারপর আবার যখন নিজেদের ওপর চাপ আসবে, তখন "Freedom of Speech বিপন্ন" বলে কান্নাকাটি শুরু হবে। এটা দেখতে পুরোপুরি একটা স্বৈরতান্ত্রিক বা তালিবানি মাইন্ডসেটের মতো।

মতপ্রকাশের স্বাধীনতা মানে তো শুধু নিজের পছন্দের কথা শোনার অধিকার নয়, যে কথাটা আমার তীব্র অপছন্দের, সেটাকেও বলতে দেওয়ার অধিকার। এটাই আসল গণতন্ত্র, বাকিটা নিছক ভণ্ডামি।

ব্যাপারটা অনেকটা সোশ্যাল মিডিয়ার মতোই। Instagram Reels, TikTok বা YouTube Shorts-এ কেউ নাচের ভিডিও দিলে কেউ বাহবা দেয়, কেউ জাস্ট স্ক্রল করে চলে যায়, আবার কেউ হয়তো সমালোচনা করে।

কিন্তু “আমার এই ড্যান্স স্টেপটা পছন্দ নয়” বলে কেউ তো আর পুলিশের কাছে গিয়ে জরিমানার দাবি তোলে না! মতামতও ঠিক এই ট্রেন্ডি ড্যান্স স্টেপগুলোর মতোই হওয়া উচিত.
নানা রঙের, নানা ছন্দের। সবাইকে জোর করে একই তালে নাচাতে চাওয়ার নাম গণতন্ত্র নয়, ওটা নিয়ন্ত্রণের নেশা।

গণতন্ত্রে মানুষ নিজের সুরে কথা বলবে, নিজের ছন্দে নাচবে। সমস্যাটা তখনই শুরু হয়, যখন সমাজ বা রাজনীতির কিছু মানুষ নিজেকে 'ডিজে' ভেবে সবার প্লেলিস্ট নিয়ন্ত্রণ করতে চায়।

আর সবচেয়ে মজার বিষয় হলো, আমাদের Politician আর Opposition আচরণও ঠিক এক।

যখন যারা বিরোধী দলে থাকে, তখন তাদের মুখে গণতন্ত্র আর ফ্রি স্পিচের খৈ ফোটে। সমালোচনাকে তখন তারা "জনগণের কণ্ঠস্বর" বলে বাহবা দেয়। কিন্তু যেই মাত্র টেবিল ঘোরে আর তারা ক্ষমতার চেয়ারে বসে, অমনি সেই পুরনো ডিজের ভূত তাদের ঘাড়েও চেপে বসে! তখন আবার অন্য কারো সমালোচনা শুনলেই সেটা "ষড়যন্ত্র" বা "আইনশৃঙ্খলার অবনতি" হয়ে যায়।

আসলে সমস্যাটা কোনো নির্দিষ্ট দল বা রঙের নয়, সমস্যাটা ক্ষমতার মনস্তত্ত্বের। শাসক হোক বা বিরোধী দিনশেষে স্ক্রিপ্টটা একই থাকে, শুধু অভিনেতারা বদলে যায়।

Currently sitting idle after 6 years of work for Tencent.
made some hyper casual games SOLO, some of them are on Playstore meantime.

I am trying to get into Indian mythological stories.
Short narrative driven story focus(with combat) 3D platformer games.

Looking for 3D character artists Animator and a few programmers would be fine.
In-exchange I can guide to proper pipeline of Game Development and definitely $$$ if we make any revenue.

Got job in 2020, and a lot of out source works,Suddenly spiritually inclined.fulfilled most of the things I wanted as Teen in life. From 2023 downfall started, wherever I put money I get scammed, by 2025 I lost the last security, which is Job.My domain is getting bad to worse, very hard to land a job, and upcoming days it will be obsolete due to Ai. Not much urge on the same field.currently I am building Applications/Games by my own as only hope if they can land in market.( this is the only thing I can)And not to mention Parents ae every now and then making face for being idle, and forcing me to do study for Govt job and marry. for me it is hard to do study like teen days also no urge to marry.Don't know what to do. absolutely clueless.

I was Copilot user with Sonnet mostly
Then switched to Opencode with ChatGPT plus subscription. it is doing fairly good.

I was wondering how good those ZEN models are compared to Codex 5.5 when it comes to Unity Game Development(nothing fancy, small mobile games).

Worth switching? even if it performs as good as ChatGPT I am fine.

I was Copilot user with Sonnet mostly
Then switched to Opencode with ChatGPT plus subscription. it is doing fairly good.

I was wondering how good those ZEN models are compared to Codex 5.5 when it comes to Unity Game Development(nothing fancy, small mobile games).

Worth switching? even if it performs as good as ChatGPT I am fine.

I am tired of this, been 4 days.
Everytime I ask it to do anything, it brings up this Todo list that is not actually based on current input for most of the times rather much older, and the response gets stuck for eternity.
Totally unusable.
I have no idea how to fix this. I updated OpenCode to latest still same issue.

I am using my ChatGPT plus subscription in it

https://preview.redd.it/opg4cow8x93h1.png?width=1214&format=png&auto=webp&s=895aaa7b33ff39a48a8cb32f34539c6042e5257c

I was never a pro smoker.
used to smoke only when at bar/drinking, which is 4-5 times a year.

until last year when I lost my job.
I started smoking in my room started with 1, then within a month it reached to 5 per day on avg, somedays 8
every time I crossed 5 a day, i fallen ill, either fever or coughing.

I switched to vape thinking it has no harm

God!
This is the most addictive thing currently available in white market to destroy anyone's life slowly and is extremely tough to reverse it.
every 5 mins I keep puffing.
within 15 days I had acute bronchitis, lost 7kg, 12 days of battle.
Switch to 20mg nicotine vape because I got addicted badly.

unconsciously i would raise my hand as if mimicking to take a puff, whenever I forget to puff or try to quit.

I got health issue again, heavy inflammation, thyroid spike, pancreatitis issue.
and finally decided to quit. I was soo ill that I had no time for thinking about vape, been 5 days.
Today I am normal after so many meds and scans.

I noticed after evening(now1:30 am) I started having insane craving for nicotine.
I am constantly diverting my mind in video games, or corn, but every extreme act like when drying in game or winning, or post nutting, I am just raising my hand in my desk to find the vape device and finding nothing remembering I quit it.

How many days does this phase last?
Are there any advice?
I don't want want any form of nicotine or herbal cigarettes or basically anything that mimics the addiction no matter how safe it is, I just want to remove everything if it from my body and mind.
*Generally I don't feel the crave during day time.

I was never a pro smoker.
used to smoke only when in bar/drinking, which is 4-5 times a year.

until last year when I lost my job.
I started smoking in my room started with 1, then within a month it reached to 5 per day on avg, somedays 8
every time I crossed 5 a day, i fallen ill, either fever or coughing.

I switched to vape thinking it has no harm

God!
This is the most addictive thing currently available in white market to destroy anyone's life slowly and is quite tough to reverse it.
every 5 mins I keep puffing.
within 15 days I had acute bronchitis, lost 7kg, 12 days of battle.
Switch to 20mg nicotine vape because I got addicted badly.

unconsciously i would raise my hand as if mimicking to take a puff, whenever I forget to puff or try to quit.

I got health issue again, heavy inflammation, thyroid spike, pancreatitis issue.
and finally decided to quit. I was soo ill that I had no time for thinking about vape, been 5 days.
Today I am normal after so many meds and scans.
I noticed after evening(now1:30 am) I started having insane craving for nicotine.
I am constantly diverting my mind in video games, or corn, but every extreme act like when drying in game or winning, or post nutting, I am just raising my hand in my desk to find the vape device and finding nothing remembering I quit it.

How many days does this phase last?
Are there any advice?
I don't want want any form of nicotine or herbal cigarettes or basically anything that mimics the addiction no matter how safe it is, I just want to remove everything if it from my body and mind.
*Generally I don't feel the crave during day time.

Basically the title.

While No party is saint.
BJP might be 0.01% less evil.
Being North Bengali, who has always been deserted by State govt, we want to see the change, Anyone but TMC.

Only competitor is BJP
Suppose they come in power.
And then all these Tinukakas join BJP, Will Modi/Amit Shah let it happen thinking it will bring more voters or there will be a ban?
If no Ban, then then inherently TMC and its gundaraj will remain in ground reality with the coating of BJP.
in this case Poriborton will be useless.

I am in Kundalini Journey from 6+ years
First 3 years was Upward movement, feminine, energy was flowing until heart, emotional.
Then I had sensory neural hearing loss out off blue, and from that day upward flow stopped, and downward started, hearing came back 80% after 2 weeks, emotion gone, and felt like I got access to quantum state, primal feeling. Energy flowing crown to heart.

After 1.5 years it balanced out.

But ever since of that, I developed insane light and audio sensitivity, tinnitus intensified and trance.

Every time I use display, within 3 hours Migraine starts hitting and by evening it takes over, until I take bath or go to sleep.
I don't have sleeping problem though.

I started taking supplements, like Citicoline, Magnesium , these helped a lil but not much.
I got FL 41 glass, which lessened 50% of migraine.
But over time got tolerant.
Been to 5+ doctors, MRI, Citi Scan,
A lot of beta blockers, anti-depressant, nothing helps at all, the moment i quit taking it comes back.
Weed helps, but chronic uses causes so much problem, and Migraine comes back.
Pain killer doesn't work properly and high on kidney load.

Last week the report came out to be: "Trigeminal sensitization combined with autonomic nervous system stress response"

I am IT guy, If I don't use computer, my future is doomed.
Got laid off last year. working on personal projects, hence using Computer.
I changed display, refresh rate, brightness 25%, nothing really helps.

I am clueless.

The only thing is, from last 12-16 months I have an insanely active crown activity, raw mystical experiences which flips the definition of life/existence, while the Migraine problem is fu*king me up, even now when writing.

What can I really do?
I can't just go to Doc and say HEY I HAVE KUNDALINI