u/Glum_Dream7157

I don't know if I will even make it to Tommorow mrng.

I feel like to k*ll myself. Don't have anyone to talk or discuss. Please help me

I 20 F is feeling suicidal and I'm feeling very heavy on me. I can't focus on anything and I don't have anyone to talk and I'm screaming at everyone for a simple thing. I don't even know if I can make it it all feels too heavy for me. I can't stop overthinking if I try to distract myself it always takes me back there! I'm done with this life.

I feel like whenever my boyfriend mentions his family in our conversation like even a simple thing there is a feeling like oh he is really good with his family and he is not loving me less but I feel like jealous type or insecure type when he mentions his family like bro why do I feel jealous of his sister who has done nothing but was a part of our conversation for simple thing. I don't know what to do. I have been alone my whole life like my parents never listened to me and used to lock me in a room from morning to evening because I was little. I don't know what to do I feel like a shit Right now and I can't help it out. Please if I want to take a professional help? to get over these things or should I just be like this and pretend it's ok.