u/GodsHalfElegant

Yo yo. Looking for elden ring friends. All my friends moved on and I just started all over again bc I lost my account. Someone join me please. Im very bored

Theyre Zotac - Mini PCs. I have 3 of them but when I turn it on it loads a quick menu then says that no device is connected.

If I press f8 real quick while its booting I can get to a menu but ill be honest, I have no idea what im doing.

Can I even use these? Or do they get decommissioned when my job got rid of them?

If anyone would point me in the right direction id be forever grateful!!!

Hello

This September I bought myself a ticket to go to riot fest this year. Currently only have a Saturday ticket but contemplating buying the other two days. Tool is coming to Chicago again and I need friends.

I live in the NW suburbs and dont have any friends anymore. I got sober and didnt have a good friend group to start with.

Ill be honest im kind of anxious to go. I dont really have a problem going out and doing shit solo. But its kind of where my life has gone. This will be my first sober fest and im excited.

But.. how do you meet people? Without the booze crutch I fear that ill tighten up and not fully enjoy kmyself. I used to go with a decent group of friends but life can hit hard you know?

People who go to these things solo. What's do you do? Just live it up and enjoy the fucking thing? Go out and meet people while there? Idek man

My life has changed drastically. And I NEEDED something to look forward to. I feel like im widdling away. Just pieces of me flying off. Feel empty. Felt this way for far too long. So yeah, when I saw it was coming around again I bought a Saturday ticket. The best band jn the world, TOOL is headlining on Saturday. They always put in such a good show. But typically I get to enjoy it with fellow tool fans

Ive already built this up in my head pretty much and im trying to lower my expectations because life sometimes like to kick you while you're down. But Im not going to let that happen! Im going to have the time of my life. Im gona dance like an idiot, sing the wrong lyrics and jump in a pit. But would prefer to do it with people.

Is there like a place to meet people going to the same shows outside of just showing up? I mean fucking Angine De Poitrine is going to be there. Im pumped but dont want the inevitable crushing lonely bug to find it.

Do I just go and meet peoole there? Or buy a ticket and try and convince someone to go with it,?

If anyone is interested in meeting some random 36yo white male lmk. Desperate times ppl

So im thinking it would be fun to run all unique and only use these items. But im allowed to upgrade them using the cube recipe to make them into exceptional and elite versions of the gear. Added bonus is any unique item found can be used

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But starting gear is

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Rixot keen

Pelta Luna

Biggins bonnet

Grey form

Dual Nagel rings

Hot spurs - l

Lenymo - belt

Hand of broc - gloves

Nokozon - amulet

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Problem is idk what character to run. Thinking ss druid, zeal pally or some sort of holy fire, shock or holy freeze, or barb

Hello

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Im currently in sober living for the first time and am having a really good day. I majorly stepped up for myself and am now on a board of sober people. Also going to my sober party tonight. Its hosted by sober people so this is new and exciting. I feel like im 15 again having my mom drop me off at a party lmao

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Hope everyone is doing well!

Tia

Looking for sp challenge run ideas.

Maybe naked p8 hc sp warlock? Only pots?

Maybe just a character specifically?

Idfk. Looking for ideas

So I just moved into sober living about a month ago and I absolutely love it. Got a job, good group of guys, no complaints. That's until my roommate moved in. He sounded good when we interviewed him on the phone and all that but something is off.

He sits in his bed or in the family room listening to edm music so loud on his headphones you can hear the constant "boots and pants" shit.

He is out of breath literally ALL the time. Its like hes constantly out of breath gasping and strained. Its like hes extremely stressed out. Like he can't get oxygen to his brain or something. Its literally heavy breath in and out all the fucking time.

While hes listening to whatever he is in his head phones hes real jittery. Moving his feel so much that the bed shakes.

I mean this guys gotta be fucking high. He barely sleeps. Just started a new job a week ago and he came home super early last night, which is a red flag to me. He claims a machine was out so he couldnt work. He said he volunteered to leave first since it was down. We all have to pay rent here weekly. He was super stressed about money but now hes going home early? Nah bro. He barely slept because he kept moving around so much it kept me awake

To put the cherry on top, he was asking all sorts of questions about our houses random drug testing. He said he had his own test too. (Which idk why he has it. Claims it's for online AA meetings?. Its gotta be a dummy test so he can pass, right?)

Hes stressing me the fuck out. We had our weekly meeting and during so his whole asking about test behavior got addressed and he made all the excuses blah blah blah. It pretty much got left at. "You make us nervous when you ask avout that stuff constantly". We didnt even test him. I didnt want to be a dick and tell everyone we should but idk.

This dudes twacked. And I dont know what to do about it. Im proudly 436 days clean and im not just going to sit around and risk my own sobriety because someone else can't.

What should I do people? I honestly need help

Hello everyone, just saw this sub in perfect timing. Im in need of some serious advice for getting my life back together.

The setup: so I'm and addict and alcoholic. Got into drinking and drugging young and never made a point to stop. Here's a quick over view. First time drunk was 11 and never stopped. Always kept drinking and really hit the bottle at the end of high-school/early 20s and it just got progressively worse. First time I got high was 12 yo on weed and that got progressively worse. Started smoking weed seriously in high-school where I met cocaine. By my senior year I was smoking Crack. I always dated low life women that only exacerbated my habit. Until 2017 I met the most wonderful woman I've met. I was sneaking drugs behind her back. After 3 and a half years of dating I got into meth around 2019. I wasn't doing bad until I got hooked on the stuff. Originally I was just drinking when we were living together but my old friend got released from prison for being a non violent criminal during the covid outbreak. When he got out he made contact with a major meth dealer. At this point I was working in the dental lab industry where I was an up and coming CAD CAM manager. A very respectable job for someone who went to school for automotive. When my buddy got released I ignored him because I knew he was up to no good. One fight with the girlfriend led me going to visit said old friend at his parents house and I got introduced to meth. It took hold of me because I am an addict who was ignoring mental health problems. Due to my addiction I lost my job which caused my relationship with my girlfriend fall apart. I was living at said meth head friends parents house with him when he passed away from a motor cycle accident. I was on the outs with my sisters at the time (still am) and on the outside with my parents. When I tried to come back home they said I wasn't able to move back home due to my addiction. This caused me to very stupidly break the glass on their front door causing my arrest and abandonment from my family.

At this point im jobless, gfless, family less, friendless. Living on the street going from mental hospital to hospital. I got into rehab just to get into a housing program for the homeless. At this point I had no intention of staying sober. I was living in a suburb outside the major city in the state im located in and life really went to shit. Hanging out with cookers, Crack heads, meth heads, dope heads, ex on-the-run nazi roommates kind of life style. I was low. I didnt care avout anything besides getting a fix.

At the time I had a job managing a dollar store where I was fired because my addiction got in the way. I didnt have the money to support tlmy habit so my dealer offered me a job selling drugs for him to supply my habit. Im 5'10 and I was 120lbs at the time. Shooting meth in the mornings, smoking crack alllllll day for days and towards the 5th day of staying awake I would wash it down with fent to sleep. Rinse and repeat. Shoot, smoke smoke smoke smoke smoke, fent, sleep for couple days and right back to it. Started to catch a record, local law enforcement had arrested me a hand full of times now for possession. Never caught any dealing charges but enough trouble to land me in county jail for 3 months. They caught me because I stopped paying rent and when they came to evict me I had a few warrants for skipping probation and skipping court for various charges.

When I went into jail I decided that I was going in clean and coming out clean. Im proud to say im over 400 days sober at the moment. Jail gave me time to nurse my mental health somewhat back to health and take care of my type 1 diabetes. When I got out I was in the city and bounced around from mental health care facility to different hospital visits to homeless shelters and all over. My mental health was absolutely demolished. I had been speaking to my folks again but they still didnt seem to want much to do with me. Completely understandable. I wish I could take back all I had and have put them through. They've given me more slack than I have ever deserved. They still have my back and I dont know if I would do the same. To be clear, I have never stole from them, I have never robbed a soul in my life, its just my addiction destroys my mental health which furthers me down the road of addiction.

At one point I called my mom crying telling her I wasn't going to make it. I was in another mental health hospital waiting to be released just to starve on the street risking relapse. Graciously my parents helped me get into a hospital out in the suburbs nearish them and into a nursing home.

Going into the nursing home I was 6 months sober. My mental health was better but im still falling around at the time. I lost the love of my life, rightfully so, my parents trust, rightfully so, my 3 sisters trust, my job, my will power and my sanity. Rightfully so rightfully so rightfully so. I dont blame anyone for the way they treat me. I understand actions have consequences. Im more hurt that everyone abandoned me when I needed them the most. Were taught that addiction is a disease and its something that we cannot help. We're sick and we need help. That being said im on the fence about that notion. Yes I believe addiction is a disease but.. at the same time YOU are in charge of YOU. No one else is making you do anything.

Long story short I forgave my family a long time ago because I can't walk around this world mad at them for abandoning me when I needed them.

While in the nursing home I made it to a year sober and I got antsy. I want/ed my life back. I want to know what its like to be happy again but everything just keeps getting worse. So I had 3 options. 1) stay in the nursing home 2) sign up for SSI/SSDI and declare myself not fit for a normal life and transition into an assisted living situation where I would not be able to grow or 3) move into an Oxford house.

Oxford house is a sober living house where men or women live with other recovering addicts for a period of time. You're responsible for getting a job within 2 weeks, go to 5 meetings of AA a week, chores around the house, living with roommates who also are doing the same thing.

I chose Oxford house. I took a major risk. Either risk getting out there and making something of my life or rot in an old folks home where I would never grow as a human.

Here's the problem. I HATE my fucking job. I honestly dont know if im mentally capable of working anymore. Its only been 3 days of this new job and I already want to quit. My new roommate is a POS but not enough to warrant saying anything about it. Hes doing everything hes supposed to but he is making my life hell. Talks to himself real loud while sleeping waking ke up, he has a sharp smokers cough he does every couple hours even while sleeping that wakes me up, he cut the light on at 4 am the other night to roll a cigarette and when confronted I had to explain to him twice that he was being inconsiderate for doing so. GO FUCKING DOWNSTAIRS AND ROLL THE FUCKING CIGARETTE. CUT THE FUCKING LIGHT OFF ASSHOLE.

My mental health is toast. I haven't had a good day in so long I just dont want to be here anymore. Yes im talking about not wanting to be in this house anymore but im talking planet earth. I just dont see myself with any sort of future where im even remotely happy.

I cry all the time. Im depressed. I just want to disappear. I still have no friends, my sister's probably never talk to me again, ill never get to see/meet my nephews, im just done. And I dont know if I have the energy to do anything avout it. My parents are helping me financially which is a blessing byt im now in debt to the point where idk how long ill be able to pay them back. If I wasnt talking with my parents I wouldn't be here. My mother lost her brother ti suicide and it absolutely destroyed her. Now I have to have rough conversations with her about how I dont want to be here anymore and I see the look on her face and my heart just breaks. I know im causing so many problems that I just want to go away so they dont have to deal with this anymore but i know it'll kill them.

I honestly felt better on drugs. Numb to the point where nothing mattered. Now I have to face all my demons head on and sober. I keep being told that things will get better but so far every day feels worse than the last. Im 36. No friends. No family besides them. I want to get married but I doubt that will ever happen. One thing I always wanted in life was to be a dad myself. Due to my drug/alcohol addiction its destroyed my body. My dick doesn't work very often due to nerve damage from my diabetes. So family seems to be out of reach. Im too old to start having kids IF I was able to anyway.

I hope i find some advice because I don't know where to turn. I pray and pray for better days but im so all over the place I just dont think they're ever going to come. I dont know what to do.

So please, strangers if reddit. What should I do. Because im running out of time and options. I dont want to be here but I dknt want to ruin my parents. All they've done is try and understand and love me to the best of their ability and all I do is disappoint the few people left in my life.

Go ahead and report me for suicidal ideation if you want, but believe me. Its not going to change my mind by getting me suspended or whatever.

Please for the love of god someone out there help me. Idk what to do. Im at a loss. Im reaching out to strangers on a website that are notoriously ignorant and cruel when it comes to these things. I know if anyone reads this far that ill get comments shit talking me. If that's you you can go fuck yourself. Im a broken man and a broken soul.

Im just looking for peace. That's all I want. I just want to stop crying all the time. I just want ti have a day where I don't think about killing myself. I just want to get back something and idk what that is. I know I won't hear from my sisters anymore. I know I won't have children. So seriously. What's the point besides not breaking my parents hearts

Hello! I lost my ps4 awhile ago and got a replacement some months back after not having a system for a couple years. Too poor for a ps5 but I dont need it really.

In the process I lost my games and need some new friends to play with

I only own d2r and poe. Im currently playing bb but unfortunately im doing so through the psn. Ill probably have to downgrade back to the normal package but im looking for people interested in d2r poe.

Any takers? Or does anyone know of a good lfg reddit for ps?

I love bb! This game made me change my ways. Used to do lots of drugs and alcohol > lost job > gf kicked me out > family disowned me > homeless > addicted to the big Crack, meth and heroin > started selling drugs > went to jail > got clean > got back to speaking to parents > got into sober living > going to meetings > GOT A FUCKING JOB > now im sitting here setting up my first bb character after years of pain

Im looking for players PVP and PVE. I had an old account with 2100 hours on the game with 10 builds dripped in the finest of gems. Im looking to get back to that level and play with the community again

When I first bought tbis game I played it for 2 hours. Didn't make it past the first court yard and quick for a couple of years until I gave it another go. Slowly became my favorite game

So dear community, please play with me, invade my dream, help me through the bosses again. Let's fucking go!!!!!!!!!!

Add me GodsHalfBro2. If you want to play just add me, I like to shoot the shit on the mic but if you're not comfortable with that I get it

If you're trying to get sober: stick with it man/gal. Its okay and everything will be alright if you persevere. If you need to talk about sobriety and you dont play this game add me and ill talk to you too

Happy hoonting everyone. Feels so fucking nice to be back

Was at a decent enough nursing home to going to Oxford house > not liking Oxford houses rules > ????

I just moved into this halfway home and I can't do this. I have been away from society for over a year now and now I think im going to juggle sobriety, a full time job, going back into society?

Ive been crying massively off and on silencly ever since I got to this place and idk what to

Idk what to do