u/Happy_Sherbet2078

So this is my placement. I searched the internet trying to gain some understanding but there's not much information. I would be glad if someone can tell me what this placement results in.

what I have seen from my own life is that,

I do feel like I need a partnership to actually enjoy life. can't tolerate childish people, I have only ever been interested in people who appears to be mature and caring. and I can't get into any relationships.

I also read that ppl with 1 lord in 7, cares much about what other ppl think of them but that's the opposite for me i don't care what others think.

also saturn is in ashlesha, I read that ashlesha is an intense nakshatra I'm curious to know how the ashlesha energy works in saturn.

so all of this started like 4 years ago also I was a teenager I was new to all of this. I'm going to be totally honest here. I don't know what exactly triggered this I developed a habit of m*st*rbating and was also going trough depression and I started having this strong realization/consciousness that there is no me. exactly that. I started having these moments of awareness that I doesn't exist. that there is no self. it was super clear to me that there in no self.I keep having those moments. I was curious to what was happening to me then I also discovered meditation and breathing techniques. And I'm pretty sure I messed up there. I was trying to do normal anapanasati bhavana but now I realized without any guidance I was playing a risky game. I was doing it wrong.

I wasn't just observing my breath I was also trying to control it, I got into this practice where I go into the end of the breath and even seeing exhaling and inhaling consiously. I'm not sure how to explain it but I started getting these weird sensations in meditation like my whole body starts to shake and a white light starts to appear between my eyes and tingling senstaion in forehead and on top of the head almost like I was trying to levitate. I goes into this state where everything is clear also being aware that the concept of self doesn't exist. this was all so new I obviously tried to explore more of this but the thing being I also started getting weird things happening in my body. I developed this feeling that there's not enough breath in my lungs doesn't matter how much I tried to breath in it doesn't feel like enough and my breathing pattern was so messed up it almost felt like my body had forgotten how to breath. but that's wasn't only it I could feel my heartbeat in my fingers. whenever I touch my fingers I can feel my heart beating. and I started getting random twitched all over my body. I was super afraid by this I quit my meditation practices immediately and started treatment for depression.

it has been some times now I don't use medication anymore and my depression has also gotten lot better. the trouble I had with breathing is also mostly gone. but I still have those random twiches in my body. then I decided to get back into meditation, to take it easy and doing simple meditation practices and immediately after I starts feeling those weird sensations again. this time it wasn't mostly trouble with breathing. but I can feel my heartbeat trough my body and there's always this sensation of heaviness on top of my head and my forehead. I did a simple breathing meditation yesterday and since that I feel this heavy energy all over my body and the twiches in my body has also gotten worse. it's super uncomfortable. also the heaviness in head like having brain fog. I don't know who to ask of this. I don't have a teacher or guider but I need to get out of this. I have no idea what I'm experiencing or how to handle it.

so all of this started like 4 years ago also I was a teenager I was new to all of this. I'm going to be totally honest here. I don't know what exactly triggered this I developed a habit of m*st*rbating and was also going trough depression and I started having this strong realization/consciousness that there is no me. exactly that. I started having these moments of awareness that I doesn't exist. that there is no self. it was super clear to me that there in no self.I keep having those moments. I was curious to what was happening to me then I also discovered meditation and breathing techniques. And I'm pretty sure I messed up there. I was trying to do normal anapanasati bhavana but now I realized without any guidance I was playing a risky game. I was doing it wrong.

I wasn't just observing my breath I was also trying to control it, I got into this practice where I go into the end of the breath and even seeing exhaling and inhaling consiously. I'm not sure how to explain it but I started getting these weird sensations in meditation like my whole body starts to shake and a white light starts to appear between my eyes and tingling senstaion in forehead and on top of the head almost like I was trying to levitate. I goes into this state where everything is clear also being aware that the concept of self doesn't exist. this was all so new I obviously tried to explore more of this but the thing being I also started getting weird things happening in my body. I developed this feeling that there's not enough breath in my lungs doesn't matter how much I tried to breath in it doesn't feel like enough and my breathing pattern was so messed up it almost felt like my body had forgotten how to breath. but that's wasn't only it I could feel my heartbeat in my fingers. whenever I touch my fingers I can feel my heart beating. and I started getting random twitched all over my body. I was super afraid by this I quit my meditation practices immediately and started treatment for depression.

it has been some times now I don't use medication anymore and my depression has also gotten lot better. the trouble I had with breathing is also mostly gone. but I still have those random twiches in my body. then I decided to get back into meditation, to take it easy and doing simple meditation practices and immediately after I starts feeling those weird sensations again. this time it wasn't mostly trouble with breathing. but I can feel my heartbeat trough my body and there's always this sensation of heaviness on top of my head and my forehead. I did a simple breathing meditation yesterday and since that I feel this heavy energy all over my body and the twiches in my body has also gotten worse. it's super uncomfortable. also the heaviness in head like having brain fog. I don't know who to ask of this. I don't have a teacher or guider but I need to get out of this. I have no idea what I'm experiencing or how to handle it.

I have yet to try any real witch craft practices, but I have been doing simple clensing rituals whenever I need to remove negative energies, but they only work for the moment. I feel like I have been collecting energies from my previous s*xual activities and I have been getting brain fog and random twitches in my body and feel like my nervous system is all over the place. any witchy practices to help with this?

I have yet to try any real witch craft practices, but I have been doing simple clensing rituals whenever I need to remove negative energies, but they only work for the moment. I feel like I have been collecting energies from my previous s*xual activities and I have been getting brain fog and random twitches in my body and feel like my nervous system is all over the place. any witchy practices to help with this?

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Is this a classical late bloomer placement? my sibling who has this was born a week later the due date and was super late to get her period from everyone else and is behind in everything else compared to her peers, = does this placement make life extra hard for a person?

u/Glad_Bumblebee_8764 wait your account says banned again 😕

the kind you make from the leftover coconut milk after extracting the oil? my grandma used to make this, and idk the recipe, the videos i found on yt aren't right

u/Immediate_Ant766

if in D1 7th lord is moon in exaltation but in d9 7th lord saturn in 6h in sagittarius, should I be worried?

I sleep for like 9 hours a day without any problem but is still sleepy after waking up, constantly have pain in muscles have no energy to move, get irritated so easily. I have been getting random muscle twitching all over my body it started like 2 years ago and I still get them like 5 times a day in random places in my body , in fingers ,arms, legs, even my eyebrows suddenly move by it self. my brain doesn't feel like working most of the time. I have trouble concentrating. I also get random headaches. I had depression 3 years ago I took fluoxetine for like 1 and half year and then stopped. I am not depressed anymore but these problems are still here. I eat enough food haven't lost any appetite and rest enough. could it be I'm lacking any vitamins or is my brain damaged from the depressed episode I went through? idk what's wrong with me,

venus conj jupiter in 8h Aquarius in d9, saturn retro and mars aspects 8h. how does aspects from malefics give results in here?

saturn retro in 6h, mars 2h cancer ascendant, cap ascendant in D1

venus conj jupiter in 8h Aquarius in d9, saturn retro and mars aspects 8h. how does aspects from malefics give results in here?

saturn retro in 6h, mars 2h cancer ascendant, cap ascendant in D1

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god I can't help it I was in love with all the previous doctors too, when the 12th doctor left it took me like 8 months to recover and return to watching the show again but now 13th doctor feels like my soulmate. This show has a huge emotional impact on me idk I start to feel like they are my actual friends. I remember when amy and rory was gone I had a mental breakdown, I'm talking about actual grief.

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