u/HistoPasta

I constantly have flare ups in my stomach and anus 24/7. And its exacerbated by my social anxiety and it smells horrible. People constantly say they smell poop or that very strong undigested food smell that is worse than poop and its leaking out of me somehow but I cant smell or see it. But other people walk by me and get physically ill and comment on how bad it reeks of poop or sulfer. This has been going on for years. I constantly have urges and pain inside of my rectum. And people can smell me from like 20 feet away im not even kidding. Today i was at a public park and i moved spots and this boy walked up to me and was saying how it smelt like poop where i was standing originally. And also today I walked into a hotel and the lady literally got choked up and her eyes started tearing up and she was covering her nose. Im scheduling a proctologist appointment to check for fistulas and stuff like that. And im scheduling an appointment with a gastrologist to see if I have chrons which im 99.9% sure I do. I just need some sort of emotional support because I feel so alone and like I said I've developed ptsd from offending other people with my god awful smell. If I do have fistulas and chrons im going to try and apply for disability because this has extremely effected my social ife. I've been completely anti social for years because of this. And i don't see myself working with constant flare ups and urges.

I've been homeless for two weeks because my family kicked me out and now and im starting to like being homeless due to the extreme social isolation. I have PTSD from offending other people with my smell. I just don't know how I can get my life back when its become my entire identity for the past 10 years or so. I fell into a extreme social aversion trap where its impossible for me to be around anyone anymore. And that makes me extremely scared because I just cant ask for help anymore. It feels like my life is just over and there's nobody to get me out of this place. I tried being around people but my anxiety attacks are so bad around anyone that the smell clears out rooms. I just cant mentally cope with that anymore. But i know I cant keep living like this. Do I just move to a remote island or what.

This is a very taboo subject and 99% of people won't understand because they can at least socialize somewhat. Here it goes.

I've struggled with an extreme phobia of losing control of my bowels for around 10 years now. Every year has gotten progressively worse where I started to avoid all people entirely. Because of this my family finally had enough of me not contributing and kicked me out to the streets. Here's the biggest issue. People are my trigger. And when I say people I don't just mean crows or strangers or anything. I mean any individual person I have to talk to or be in close proximity with I instantly start to fear that im losing control of my bowels and that they can smell me. I even have bodily sensations in my stomach comfirms that its really happening. And people have physical reactions of a bad smell. This has made me completely avoidant of all humans including my family for YEARS. The reason I have this fear is because of a childhood accident when I was a boy that led the entire classroom to smelling me and being repulsed by the smell.

Acceptance? If i actually do have some sort of leakage and offend everyone that i talk to with my smell how am i supposed to just accept something like that? Accept that everyone wants to just get away from me and avoid me or not sleep in the same home with me? This is the loop that ive been stuck in for 10 years now.

Now this makes it impossible for me to get any

help or get off of the streets because im so afraid of being around people. I literally CANT interact with people. Not a single person without this intense fear.

Now that you guys understand my situation. I'm so lost and I don't know what to do. I only have 50$ left and Instead of working I've just accepted being homeless and have given up on my life. I've never been diagnosed with anything and I don't know if I can qualify for disability or what. But everyone online is giving me advice like "go to shelters, go to public libraries, go to the gym, get into joborps."

But how am I supposed to do that if I cant even interact with people. I just feel like I don't have much of a choice anymore and I don't know if im going to keep continuing because something like this is just IMPOSSIBLE to recover from. It's given me PTSD, helplessness, EXTREME social isolation, i truly don't think something like this can be fixed. And i swear nobody really understands what I am even going through. I think it might be time to throw in the towel because im broken and society doesn't care for broken.

I’ve struggled with social anxiety since I was a little kid. When I’m alone, I’m the most comfortable and happiest version of myself. I can do anything on my own. The hard part is to survive I have to be around other people. I’m completely serious when I say this, if I could be alone forever, I don’t think I’d ever feel anxiety again. I truly mean that. Being alone feels like heaven to me.

It has to be a very fibrous diet with lots of vegetables and fruits. For example, I could eat 20 grams of fiber and poop. But if I eat 20 grams of fiber with one singular piece of meat I instantly get constipated. My theory is that I lack magnesium inside of my stomach. Because I tried magnesium citrate in the past and what I’ve noticed is that I can feel the water inside of my stool and it feels very easy to pass. But without supplements my insides literally feel extremely dry. Like there’s no internal lubrication inside of my stomach. If that makes sense, I’m not really a doctor so I don’t understand what’s going on.

Hello everyone im a 24/M with a healthy BMI and in good shape. I work out daily, lift weights, and do cardio. For some reason at night I stop breathing even though I have no blocked airways. It’s often always with nightmares and I wake up with extremely high blood pressure and a very very fast heart rate. This happens a lot especially when I have poor sleep hygiene. It’s pretty concerning because I’m fairly young and healthy. I’ve never seen a doctor about it and I’m not sure if I should. Any suggestions or advice would be appreciated.

For example, take the movie Obsession. I watched it, and it wasn't that good. It baffles me how it made $290 million worldwide. Even the critics rated it highly, largely because of its TikTok success. How come almost everything that trends on the internet these days originates on TikTok?
Don't get me started on the cancel culture there. You can breathe wrong in a video and millions of people will start hating on you, turning hatred or someone dying into the next big meme. It's almost always the most left leaning views driving it too. It genuinely pisses me off that the most brain rotted unfunny app on the planet creates the biggest cultural trends. And I truly mean that. The comments and posts are so so immature and somehow so popular.

I was diagnosed with IBS as a child so any sort of psychological stress makes me extremely gassy and unable to hold it in. Even the slightest stimuli triggers gas. Because of this I became very avoidant. Growing up I was made fun of for smelling bad even though I have really good hygiene. I was bullied really bad because of it and it caused me a lot of trauma. My cousin used to literally beat me up because of it. The only time I feel physically okay is when I’m alone in a dark room with no stimuli. This is essentially why I’ve become agoraphobic and haven’t left my room in years. Why would I want to bother anyone with my smelly gas? It’s almost funny but it’s not because I’m extremely depressed about it. There’s no real cure, and IBS feels so generic and untreatable. Most days, I feel like there’s only one way out of this. I just don’t know if I want to keep going like this.

I recently got the inspire 3 from best buy. I get the prompt to enter the 4 digit code, i enter that and then my fitbit just says "try again" ive restarted both devices and tried numerous times and nothing is working.

TikTok comment sections have become so extremely toxic that they're fueling harmful trends. People pile on someone so viciously that it spills over into real life harassing them in public, influencing laws, or even ruining lives.
A small example is the Erika Kirk trend. It got so bad that now, everywhere she goes, people make fun of her over her husband's death.
That's just one example. I've also seen massive hate directed at people simply for the way they look. Or the way some celebrated Luigi Mangione just because he's attractive.
This is exactly why I hate TikTok. It's a breeding ground for toxic herd mentality.
Every comment is so similar and I see massive outrage over small problems like someone making a simple statement that the majority of people disagree with.
Something needs to change TikTok.

My entire stepdad’s family, including him and his mother, are all big bullies. And I mean big ones. My stepdad’s nephew used to beat me growing up. My stepdad is an amazing provider, but he’s a very, very bad verbal bully and extremely passive-aggressive. You can always hear the anger in his voice. He’s always so angry and just radiates it. He’s spent my entire life telling me what I’m doing wrong, but he never sits down to talk with me or tries to understand why I’m struggling. I’ve learned not to engage anymore and just walk away when he starts belittling me.
And my mom, she only cares about the man in her life. She lets anything he says slide and always takes his side over her kids because she simply cares about him more. It’s just frustrating to me how a family can be so naive and not choose to be nicer. I have a son, and I could never be mean to him or belittle him. It’s not in my DNA. I’m not a bully. I love him to death but on a serious note he’s just a passive aggressive bully.

I haven’t gone out into public due to my social anxiety in years. I have not seen anyone other than family. I have no friends or relationships. It’s gotten so bad that now I cannot sleep if my family is here and I have to leave because I physically sweat and have panic attacks with people around me. If I hear my family cough or make any noise, I have extreme paranoia and anxiety. I’m so scared of being perceived by anyone. I really don’t know if this is social anxiety or something more serious. The only time I truly feel safe or comfortable to sleep is if I am alone. I’m allergic to socializing. I mean, this is so severe, it’s not just “anti social.” I mean I physically cannot be around anyone anymore. I’m tired of living like this and living in constant fear. I feel like I’m in hell.​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​

My parents named me Thunder when I was born in 2001. I was often teased because of it. Do you guys think it’s a weird name? Lately, I’ve been considering changing it because it’s very easy to remember. I always worry that if i do poorly at a job or meet someone that does not like me, it could be harder to get hired again at the same company since people might easily remember me. What do y'all think?