u/HistrionicSlut

Hello all!

I've been feeling really pulled to create a charity that helps women.

Let me start in the beginning I am autistic, ADHD and disabled. I've been struggling with working on any of my hobbies because I don't want to use any of the stuff because it feels like a waste, for example baking, because I can't eat any of the stuff I'm baking. Someone suggested that I give it to any of my neighbors, or maybe the homeless population around and that really connected with me, because I've been homeless twice myself. And I've wanted to create care packages for the homeless women around here for a while and I just haven't been able to because of personal stuff going on in my own life, but now it feels like the universe is really pushing me towards doing that. Telling me to work on my hobby and send my baked goods out with these care packages for women, but I realize that getting random baked goods may not be safe, so having it come from a charity legitimizes it so that they know they're not just getting it from a random person who could have put something in it to possibly hurt them does that make sense?

And I feel really compelled to do this in a way that empowers women so at first I wanted to name it Daughters of Lilith, because I am a follower of Lilith and I actually changed my name to incorporate Lilith in some way. But I found out that in my area that name was actually taken, so I was sitting around thinking "what's the most feminist thing I can think of?" I thought of portlandia and that bookstore 'women & women first' and I know I can't use that name exactly. So I thought about naming it 'Women for Women First' because that's sort of exactly what it's about. Women putting women first, so the organization would be aiding women first unabashedly, putting women ahead and not in a TERF way either. It just seems like men have always been assisted, so we're going to put women first with no shame, and plus I think we could make some funny skits riffing off the idea for social media.

Another one of the ideas I have is that we would never film ourselves giving away the care packages! Only making them, alao that men can show up and help build the packages and give them out but they're not welcome to give input in the meetings. Basically they can sit there and look pretty. And if they don't like that they can look back to the last 2,000 years.

When I told this to my partner he said he wasn't sure if a charity could be discriminatory in that way. I said then I don't know how churches work at all 😁

What does everyone think am I totally crazy and just dreaming because I'm high all the time LOL or is the universe really pushing me towards this for a reason?

The first initiative that I would do would be to pack bags for women filled with: socks, pads, tampons, moisturizer, sunscreen, and whatever baked goods I can make. Along with a card just saying the organization name and information, also with information about what's in the baked good in case anyone has allergies.

I would be funding this all myself at first so does anyone have any ideas? I'm someone who's on disability so I would be just using my disability check so if anyone knows of any ways I could get any of these items reduced or free or anything that would be helpful!

I do also have a business so I could look at wholesale places! I'm just not sure where because I'm new haha

Any and all advice is welcome!

For those that have been following my saga I'm the person with the awful knees that was told I couldn't have a knee replacement because I was too young and given opiates, then told I couldn't have a knee replacement because I was on opiates 🙃.

Well...I argued and got sent to another doctor in the same group and he said he would do it with no problem. He won't he make me step down! He said there was no point, that he had most people quit the meds after the replacement and that would be between me and pain management, that he was confident I wasn't coming to him because I want to be on pain meds lol.

He was scheduling 3 months out and I still need to get my insurance to say it's ok. But after those say it's good...I'm getting new knees!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've even started a list of things I want to do once my knees have settled in, I've heard a lot of the pain goes away almost instantly 😱.

I can't imagine even being less than a 7 most days. That's been my pain goal to live at a 7 every day, and this could change everything 😭😭😭😭

Because of opiate use.

At 40. The opiates THEY GAVE ME. To deal with the pain they wouldn't give me the surgery I wanted to fix it.

Because they would have to redo it later and that would be hard.

I'm so pissed I don't have words. Honestly I can't fucking win with these doctors and I want to give up. I've lost almost 100lbs WHILE IN A WHEELCHAIR something they told me to do, which sounds impossible right?

My life is fucking HELL. I don't eat anything fun. I only go out to go to the doctor or PT. I HURT all the time. I sit in bed alone all day and night. Losing weight has also caused my partner recently to tell me how they aren't attracted to me anymore so there's that bonus too.

I'm just done.

I worked so hard after these surgeries and I thought I would be going somewhere but it just feels like I'm starting over. I'm still not out of my wheelchair and I'm still not working. I feel like I just take from my family and never help them.

It could be another 3 years before I feel anywhere close to better.

I'm not sure I'm up for that fight. I want to give up. I want to just cry all day in bed. I'm just so done with all of this, and they still haven't processed my SSDI or anything. So I'm still paying out of pocket for my insurance and stuff.

I'm just so frustrated.