u/HopefulProdigy

***Personal schpee***l: I've noticed there are mostly conceptions of 8s being high energy persons with abrasive personalities, one that most would say I'm unlike, and I think there has always been an insecurity that I am weak which later on developed into an interest in bodybuilding and embracing more macho and masculine qualities that I hated due to gender dysphoria (mtf) social anxiety and generally a dislike for sports early on in my younger years - relating a lot more to the nerdy characters in media. This has only somewhat changed and I'm still generally seen as nerdy just with interests in bodybuilding and being rather open to people. This doesn't mean I'm an e8 of course, but I have become curious since. It's more likely I'm a so1 or at least some social subtype, but still.

Yes you're an e8 but everyone is different even a little bit. E8s aren't given a good deal being compared to horrible characters but I've met plenty e8s that are chill, how do you compare?

Personal schpeel: I've noticed there are mostly conceptions of 8s being high energy persons with abrasive personalities, one that most would say I'm unlike, and I think there has always been an insecurity that I am weak which later on developed into an interest in bodybuilding and embracing more macho and masculine qualities that I hated due to gender dysphoria (mtf) social anxiety and generally a dislike for sports early on in my younger years - relating a lot more to the nerdy characters in media. This has only somewhat changed and I'm still generally seen as nerdy just with interests in bodybuilding and being rather open to people. This doesn't mean I'm an e8 of course, but I have become curious since. It's more likely I'm a so1 or at least some social subtype, but still.

I'm completely new to calorie deficit. When I first lost weight about 2 years back I was 190 and it changed to 160 by just eating hardly anything but oranges and drinking coffee all the time. (Don't recommend)

I'm Male, 19, roughly 200 lbs, 5'7, and since trying to lose have been doing daily walks that went from 20 minutes to around an hour or at least 58 minutes.

I first tried to maintain 1500 but realized it's harder if my physical activity demands more from me, so then I took it up a notch to 1800 but I kept fucking that up because I'm so hungry all the time. I count my calories of course but that doesn't mean it stops me from going over that deficit. I usually try to get protein in as well as other people advise, but usually with breakfast foods - oatmeal and eggs mostly. Wtf am I supposed to do?

Asking as someone who wants to understand so1s on a more personal level.

I'm the type of friend that is known for having stronger values than other people, being very centered on being morally righteous, and failing to understand pessimistic mindsets. Now due to my sense of patience, humility, and other traits I identified with so9 a lot, but also the reason for being oriented with moral righteousness as a whole also makes me feel as if I could be a so1. I definitely think I'm a so type and I'd definitely say I'm a gut type more than a head or heart type which is why I ask more about so1.

From what I read, so1s are more self-righteous and imposing whereas I'd consider myself trying to be more socially cohesive. But sometimes I find myself understanding and even being compared to characters who happen to be so1. So I ask the questions.

Asking as someone who wants to understand so1s on a more personal level.

I'm the type of friend that is known for having stronger values than other people, being very centered on being morally righteous, and failing to understand pessimistic mindsets. Now due to my sense of patience, humility, and other traits I identified with so9 a lot, but also the reason for being oriented with moral righteousness as a whole also makes me feel as if I could be a so1. I definitely think I'm a so type and I'd definitely say I'm a gut type more than a head or heart type which is why I ask more about so1.

From what I read, so1s are more self-righteous and imposing whereas I'd consider myself trying to be more socially cohesive. But sometimes I find myself understanding and even being compared to characters who happen to be so1. So I ask the questions.

I am a social instinct as far as I am aware, if not a sexual instinct as I doubt I am a self-preservation. I find that I have moments in my life where I am a 9 (non-confrontational, social anxiety, not wanting to be a bother) and also a 1 (highly critical eldest sibling - most especially in my youth, unapologetic values which I've calmed down about in recent time, and a consistent drive to be a good person)

I believe the last example I've given to what I view as a 1 trait particularly a so1 trait is that I find most people are concerned with everything else but the betterment of their own person. It can become a great disdain towards people and leave me with a sense of alienation and has caused me panic attacks and crisis over my own moral identity because I feared that if everyone around me was never going to seek the good that I would never be able to understand what was good. I still fear this sometimes. However, despite that, I still think I am not necessarily a "perfectionist" and would say that despite many moments on the contrary that I'm an overall non-abrasive and agreeable person.

My friend has broken up with a bad boyfriend - at least that is certainly what I'd call a man who never takes her partner's side and uses her for sex. I want to develop better right speech, but I don't want to be dismissive of what she's had to face with him and also seem as if I'm defensive or even indifferent of the situation. She's hurt and that wound should be tended to, but I can't treat what has scarred her like it was nothing. How can I better this?

I would consider myself something of a post-theist and very much an admirer of the Christian faith, but I find that I'm coming to terms with problems I have with the faith that are foundational.

edit: In the sense that what do the terms above actually imply for you and what do they mean for you as a Christian because I know not every Christian is one-to-one. Especially since this is radical Christianity.

I asked this because I find that Jesus taught most of his moral lessons on his belief of the close coming of God's Kingdom - 2000s years later and nothing has happened. So again, what's your perspective?

As a marxist, I'm a materialist and religion is another form of oppression by the bourgeois. (modern theocracies, nationalism, you get the idea) I don't believe in reform and I think in a global socialist utopia, religion would be obsolete if not secularized to such an extent it'd be unrecognizable.

But I've been raised Baptist my whole life and been surrounded by protestant aesthetics as well as having gone to OCIA as I was interested in Catholicism in the last year. I'd always been a communist despite this and left due to the ridiculous nature of sexual sin. In a lot of ways I easily became at odds with Christian narratives and what (in the context of the US) many Republicans want now is to remove contraceptives because the veil of the family unit is a front for the protection of private property.

I could go on, but you get the point. I still find myself desiring religion as a whole even though I'm not exactly sure what I desire in specifics. I believe it's the community it provided me with, the (almost unhealthy) optimism, and more. It exists in conflict in me and I'm unaware of how to traverse it.

I'm curious if people have similar experiences, how "unorthodox" they are, and if there's any advice I could be offered?