u/IDreamOfAbsolvement

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TW: MENTION OF 🍇 and SELF H

I’m about to fuck up my final exams again despite redoing this year of school because i was too much of a pussy to push through my shitty home situation.

a year ago my mother found out i’m gay and reacted terribly to it, she cried in front of me, told me i would be 🍇’d for it and that she would never accept me for it. after that she sent me videos about how my homosexuality could be caused by trauma and how it is treated.

i have no friends and no family support. all i have is a school counselor who is convinced that i should “trust the process” and that my parents will come around eventually

in the same couple weeks as when i was supposed to study, my sister started a conversation with me and tried to explain why my mother is actually a great mother, a smart woman and that the 🍇 thing wasn’t an indirect threat, but an accurate statistic, and that she believes my sexuality originates from trauma aswell

i fucking hate these disgusting gargoyles with my entire being. They completely destroyed my mental health and led me to 🔪 while they act like victims.

there are no safe support groups in my area and i have some pretty bad anxiety about meeting new people. Going to school was incredibly difficult and studying felt impossible (even though i know it wasn’t)

i’m 17 years old and my life is already going down the drain. noone will listen to me and i’ve destroyed my only connections because i myself am an unstable fuck

i hate my life so incredibly much

TW: MENTION OF 🍇 and SH

I’m about to fuck up my final exams again despite redoing this year of school because i was too much of a pussy to push through my shitty home situation.

a year ago my mother found out i’m gay and reacted terribly to it, she cried in front of me, told me i would be 🍇’d for it and that she would never accept me for it. after that she sent me videos about how my homosexuality could be caused by trauma and how it is treated.

i have no friends and no family support. all i have is a school counselor who is convinced that i should “trust the process” and that my parents will come around eventually

in the same couple weeks as when i was supposed to study, my sister started a conversation with me and tried to explain why my mother is actually a great mother, a smart woman and that the 🍇 thing wasn’t an indirect threat, but an accurate statistic, and that she believes my sexuality originates from trauma aswell

i fucking hate these disgusting gargoyles with my entire being. They completely destroyed my mental health and led me to cutting myself while they act like victims.

there are no safe support groups in my area and i have some pretty bad anxiety about meeting new people. Going to school was incredibly difficult and studying felt impossible (even though i know it wasn’t)

i’m 17 years old and my life is already going down the drain. noone will listen to me and i’ve destroyed my only connections because i myself am an abusive fuck

TW: MENTION OF 🍇 and SH

I’m about to fuck up my final exams again despite redoing this year of school because i was too much of a pussy to push through my shitty home situation.

a year ago my mother found out i’m gay and reacted terribly to it, she cried in front of me, told me i would be 🍇’d for it and that she would never accept me for it. after that she sent me videos about how my homosexuality could be caused by trauma and how it is treated.

i have no friends and no family support. all i have is a school counselor who is convinced that i should “trust the process” and that my parents will come around eventually

in the same couple weeks as when i was supposed to study, my sister started a conversation with me and tried to explain why my mother is actually a great mother, a smart woman and that the 🍇 thing wasn’t an indirect threat, but an accurate statistic, and that she believes my sexuality originates from trauma aswell

i fucking hate these disgusting gargoyles with my entire being. They completely destroyed my mental health and led me to cutting myself while they act like victims.

there are no safe support groups in my area and i have some pretty bad anxiety about meeting new people. Going to school was incredibly difficult and studying felt impossible (even though i know it wasn’t)

i’m 17 years old and my life is already going down the drain. noone will listen to me and i’ve destroyed my only connections because i myself am an abusive fuck

it doesn’t even help anymore. i just feel numb now and cutting isn’t doing much to alleviate shit

it feels pretty good though, but i also feel kind of bad because i can’t go very deep…not trying to get instructed here but ykwim

how am i really proving i’m in pain if i can’t go down to styro?