u/Ill_Engineering_5434

I feel like most wonders spiritually keep the same general ability or at least the vibe of one between games. Terracotta Army usually gives you military units, Colosseum gives you Happiness/Amenities, even more abstract wonders like Colossus are always about trade.

I know it must be hard designating an ability to a wonder that doesn’t have a very distinctive ability on paper but I’m curious as to what the rationale is between each iteration.

Civ 5: Gold on Quarries and from Expending Great People.
This makes sense to my limited knowledge. The great person thing I’m assuming is because it represents those individuals passing, and the gold I assume represents the opulence afforded to their internment. As for the quarry I assume that just builds on that idea.

Civ 6: +1 Charge on Great Engineers and increased yields on coastal tiles.
Pretty big change. I know it’s one of the wonders of the world but I don’t know what designates this as the wonder representative of engineering. I’m assuming given that since it’s where we get the term mausoleum it was truly an engineering marvel. As for the coastal yields I’m assuming that’s because the ruins fell into the ocean? Feels weird though that a wonder would be defined by its fall.

Civ 7: Defeated cavalry units return to the capital once.
Yet another switch up. I’m assuming the tomb was built for someone known for their military feats? This one beats me.

Apologies for all the blogpost spam, I really don’t have anyone in my life I care to know any of this because I’m worried they’ll try to convince me without understanding or that I’ll realize how crazy I was and regret having told anyone once I’m better.

Today I went in for an appointment at planned parenthood and within a couple of hours I was prescribed T Blockers and Estradiol and I feel like I don’t even want to take them now that I have them. I still picked up the prescription because I will always have doubts and I think if I do come to that conclusion it would be nice to have them on standby but at the moment I’m not convinced I need them.

I don’t have a history of gender dysphoria in my 22 years of life. I think I combined my fear of hair loss, feminine tendencies, self loathing, need for community, alongside other things I pumped into one cause that I could fight.

I sympathize with trans people, I think that’s why I convinced myself I am one. I have felt I have had to mask myself awkwardness to be accepted and have the same general desire to present for others in a way physically and performatively desirable.

If I were truly trans I’d have downed these pills by now or at least wanted to despite hesitancy. I feel fine if not dead at the moment and I will acknowledge that that might just be complacency with the present but I don’t know. What I worry about is regretting not starting asap because part of me understands there might be truth to all this but the part of me that is more fearful wants to wait until we gather more information but that pretty much means wait for dysphoria to become more ugly and omnipresent instead of just a voice that could be OCD telling me I might be trans without good reason.

Like I don't feel like any of my dysphoria is anything beyond narcisism so if my options are hate myself for rotting away as a man or embrace the femininity people already associate me with why not pick the latter If i'll hate myself for an entirely new set of reasons. It's genuinely a damned if I do damned if I don't situation so anyone wanna help weigh in on this coin toss

All these thoughts feel like a very recent development and I feel like even despite being a slightly feminine/quirky kid growing up there's nothing that screams "TRANS" to look back on and I certainly never thought of myself as a girl. There's a solid chance I got dealt a series of thought patterns that when comined look like dysphoria.

Like I have

• Effeminate manneurisms/speech patterns
• A potential ED
• Female Socialization
• Some degree of sex repulsion
• And a severe hairloss phobia

And what sucks is that both paths could be true but both are equally permanent in their consequences. I booked an appointment for HRT and it's kind of just a safety net because while I can't gaurentee i'll take it i'd rather pop a pill during a manic episode than maybe doing something less productive. Like part of me thinks I can stick with just being an effeminate guy but I still wan't to retain some of that external femininity I might lose with age but honestly speaking breasts sound like a bridge too far at times. I honestly just want someone to tell me I am or i'm not at this point so I can either shut up or go all in

I can get how building walls everywhere kind of defeats the purpose but I feel like you sometimes end up with these really snakey or donut shaped cities. Is their any real life precedent for cities being build around gold mines or vineyards and having them incorporated into the city proper instead of the countryside? The across bodies of water one I also feel makes sense. Maybe make it so you need a bridge or a ferry station to link the two sides or something.

So recently the devs have experimented with making buildings more unique by giving the Observatory an adjacency for mountains. Thematically this makes a lot of sense and adds more diversity to city planning, shame is that gameplay wise it makes 0 sense.

Building an urban district is a very calculated move in this game because you can only build so many and once placed they can never be removed to build wonders or to return to a rural tile. And given you only get 2 (maybe 3) of each building type per age if you either need to forgo building a culture or happiness building in a settlement to get the adjacency for this building or build the obsevatory in a new tile which you likely wont be able to make a good quarter with and risk leaving another quarter incomplete.

I propose two additions. Let players demolish buildings. It should take a couple of turns to do to still insentivize getting things right the first time and then reward part of the production to the next building. Alongside that give players a couple of building choices. Exploration already has 3 gold buildings and Modern already had 3 happiness buildings so why not give us 3-4 buildings of each type per era. There are already ample trade offs for building urban districts so why not give players options to further urbanize with a selection of buildings with varrying adjacencies or secondary bonuses.

I'm split on wether I prefer Historical or Random because on one hand I like it when civs tend to pick more historical options but I hate how set in stone thet choices are with Augustus always getting Rome for example. I especially dislike it when leaders will always pick Time Tested civs. I'd prefer it if that was a possibility but not a gaurentee. Like Simon Bolivar would tend to pick Rome but might pick Spain or even less likely pick Mexico

I (AMAB) do not have a history that alligns with the very common trans background. I have no history of dysphoria that I can recall and while i've never particularly alligned with masculainity i've never really presented or been interested in feminine things. Several months ago something kind of clicked and I cried an abnormal ammount for a good week or two, in the car, at work, at night whenever really regarding the topic of gender. As cliche as it was it after watching I Saw the TV Glow and while I can't pin down if it was about age or gender identity that was the root of all my tears.

Everyone in my life has assumed i'm gay because while I don't feel I present feminine appearabce wise that's how I'm percieved. The way I talk, use my hands, walk, act, the fact I've shaved all my body hair for as long as I started having it all that. Everyone, regardless of how long or little they've known me has come to the conclusion that I'm gay or if not gay that I am trans; Friends, Aquaintances, the family of my friends, other gay people, my own family. Truthfully with very minimal exception I like exclusively women and I can say that with certainty.

One of the biggest reasons outside of my presentation is the fact I have a habit of pushing myself away from romantic partners especially in regards to intimacy to the point I wondered if I was Ace. But I know that's not true because I have attraction I just can't bring myself to engage with partners because something feels wrong, it feels degrading and makes me feel like I'm doing something I shouldn't. The last person I was with I had met on Hinge and I had put that I was gender questioning and I'll be honest it just felt wrong hearing them they/them me because it felt like they were walking on eggshells even though I never expected them to call me that.

I'm fine with a lot of cases being refered to in masc ways with some exceptions. I don't mind dressesing in pants and a t-shirt but I can't bring myself to wear things that bulk up my figure or that I feel are more inherently masc, whatever that means. Maybe it's a peter pan syndrome thing but I don't like being called a man. I don't mind dude or guy or heck even sir but man I can't stand.

I feel split down the middle on whether I want this for myself or not. I have a lot of picture saved where I ran myself through a gender swapped filter and I can't lie I feel a good deal of joy when I look at them. I feel a lot of pride when I get compared to women whether that be do to some of my grooming habits or my body. Both of these I feel come down to a need to feel attractive and a deep admiration for women and a need to feel different or special. A lot of my hesitancy comes from external factors; being objectified, a fear of being disliked/confrontation, fear of never being taken seriously, fear of weight gain, fear of losing access to hrt, etc etc. But alongside that whenever I resonate with a male person I feel like that shoots down some of my thoughts that usually fight the more positive points.

On one hand I know I should wait until I get more info but at the same time I feel the more I wait the more time i'll lose. I have a therapist who's very supportive and friends are mostly all straight adn my therapist isn't very well versed on this stuff despite having trans patients. I tried going to a support group at school and I found it too awkward to attend another, I have no clue how to work this out given my tendancy for self doubt.

TLDR: Had a crisis. Everyone in my life thinks I'm gay or maybe trans. Not uber feminine but not really uber masculine either. I like that people in my life acknowledge that i'm fem despite being masc. How do I figure this out?

I had the one that gave you a relic every time you converted a distant land settlement for the first time and it just stopped working. I don't know if it's because I picked the all faiths must be accepted option during the religious crisis but it kind of sucks because I don't recall it doing that before

The fanbase is so creative I love finding all the little things people end up making. For example I remember these really cute Apollo 18 sneakers someone made that I was never able to snag

Like my gaming laptop straight up overheats till it crashes now trying to run the game post update

It's such a great song but it's so eclectic I can't pin down what genre it even is. The original artist specializes in Musique Concrete but that's more ambience than traditional music. That being said I don't think i'm listening to it solely for that fatboy slim feature so there's something about this blend of contrasting sounds that interests me.

If it helps i'm a huge They Might Be Giants fan so i'm willing to listen to anything considered out there so long as it doesn't feel like they're trying to be zany, it's gotta come off naturally

I'm (AMAB) and i'll be honest while i've been considering my gender identity I truly think eventually come to the conclusion that i'm not trans. That being said this one idea has popped into my head that i'm curious if anyone else has thought of. Like I feel I was dealt the perfect hand to transition (for the most part). I'm not too tall, I have a slim figure, fuller lips. I do have other features which would make things harder like a more square face which I don't know how that would translate over. And while I think i'm pretty comfortable being male the fact some of these thoughts linger makes me feel like i'm throwing away a good opportunity.

I'm one of those people that gets spoiled for choice easy and tries to see all potential futures for something so I think this is just one of those exercises but i'm curious as for other people who might've had these thoughts where did this line of thinking lead?