u/ImNoahTBH

A person I thought was my friend has been spreading false pedophilia allegations against me, and I genuinely don't know what to do. I’ve been through so much trauma in my life, but this hurts way worse than anything I’ve ever experienced. I honestly really want to kill myself, and if I do, I hope they’re happy with what they’ve done.
I don’t understand what I did to deserve this. I’ve been nothing but kind, not just to them, but to all of my friends. I’ve never done anything racist in my life, and I’ve never groomed or abused a child. These false allegations have completely broken my spirit, and I honestly just can’t take it anymore. What did I do? Do people really hate me that much to the point where they feel the need to spread false allegations against me? This hurts so much. I must really be that insufferable to the point where people want to ruin my already awful life.

My OCD is always making me worry that I'm going to do something bad for enjoyment, or just for the sake of it, despite me knowing I will never actually do it. It's really distressing and honestly drains all my energy. I've been through a lot of bullshit in my life, and my OCD makes it so much worse. I do find escapes helpful, but sometimes I don't even have the energy to use them. I kind of just lay down, do nothing, think, and feel like shit. I really hate life.

My OCD is always making me worry that I'm going to do something bad for enjoyment, or just for the sake of it, despite me knowing I will never actually do it. It's really distressing and honestly drains all my energy. I've been through a lot of bullshit in my life, and my OCD makes it so much worse. I do find escapes helpful, but sometimes I don't even have the energy to use them. I kind of just lay down, do nothing, think, and feel like shit. I really hate life.

often feel like a narcissistic piece of shit. It's weird
—despite going through so much in my own life, when others vent to me, I comfort them but often feel nothing. I'm almost indifferent, and I feel really bad about it. It makes me feel like a narcissist who genuinely doesn't care about other people.
It's strange because I will vent to people about my pain, but when they vent about theirs, I often struggle to feel anything. I still comfort them, but the fact that I just don't feel any sort of sadness for their struggles makes me feel really bad. I care about people-at least, I want to believe I do. Why am I such an awful person? I genuinely hate myself!!!!! I've been through so much bullshit in my life that I should be able to feel heavy amounts of sadness for the pain of others, too. I'm such an awful person!!!!!

A few days ago, I sent a song I worked really hard on-ano put genuine emotion and pain into-to my friend. They listened to it and assumed it was a joke, which genuinely hurt me. I've been struggling with my mental health for multiple years and I have severe PTSD. Making art helps me let it all out. When people assume that the pain and suffering I put into my art is just performative, it hurts me.
It doesn't only demotivate me; it heavily depresses me.

A few days ago, I sent a song I worked really hard on—and put genuine emotion and pain into—to my friend. They listened to it and assumed it was a joke, which genuinely hurt me. I've been struggling with my mental health for multiple years and I have severe PTSD. Making art helps me let it all out. When people assume that the pain and suffering I put into my art is just performative, it hurts me. It doesn't only demotivate me; it heavily depresses me.

I'm a 17-year-old musical artist, and I've been making music for a few years now. I wouldn't say I'm great yet, as I'm still working on finding my vocal style and learning how to mix, master, and edit vocals. I am actively working on improving these skills. Please give me some genuine feedback! If you think it needs work, please tell me exactly why and how I can improve. Thanks :3

"I've been dealing with POCD for months now, and it's only gotten worse. At first, I was able to find ways to ignore the thoughts and still feel like myself, but it's gotten bad to the point where the thoughts don't feel ignorable and they haunt me almost all day. I've pretty much resorted to binging anime to get rid of them. I've been watching a lot of JJBA, which gives me a temporary distraction, but the thoughts still end up coming back.
I keep worrying that I will lose my humanity and harm a child, even though I know I won't. I'm currently 17 years old, and I'm worried I'm becoming a pedophile. These thoughts have gotten so bad that they have made me refuse to leave the house. I was on a family trip to London last week, and my POCD was at its absolute worst. I was forced to be out of the house every single day for multiple hours. My OCD convinced me that I had acted on my urges so many times, even though I know I haven't. My POCD got so bad during that trip that I ended up self-harming because the thoughts got way too strong. I'm back home from the trip now and my OCD has calmed down, but it's still really, really bad.
I just want peace, and I want to feel like myself again. Even before I was dealing with POCD, my mental health was only going more and more downhill, but it felt like things would eventually get better. POCD has made the possibility of things getting better feel impossible "In fact, it's made everything feel far worse." It’s made me worry that i actually am a pedophile and that it’s not OCD even tho Ik it’s OCD and that I’m not a Pedophile, Does anyone have any advice for me?

For months now I’ve been dealing with Moral OCD that makes me worry that I’m a racist despite me not being a racist and me being completely against racism, it also doesn't help that my 2 best friends are black so I'll constantly be worrying that I'm gonna do or i did something racist while i was speaking to them when in reality i did nothing racist and i was very kind to them, My OCD will misinterpret things like overly basic conversation and looking at people of color and looking away quickly as me being Racist despite that not being the case, these thoughts along with my POCD thoughts have made me feel like a complete monster and I just want these thoughts to stop, I love everyone equally regardless of their race, I hate these thoughts and rlly want them to go away I constantly have to reassure myself and get reassurance that I'm not racist, ik reassurance only makes OCD alot worse but i can't help it, these thoughts cause me so much distress I just wish i could get rid of them easily.

I made a post last night about my POCD it was bad that night but has gotten significantly worse today I’m not sure what to do I just want it to stop