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sooooo it’s currently nearly 7am and i haven’t slept at all last night. i have bipolar 2, bpd and adhd and let’s just say the last two months have been insane. i take 150mg lamotrigine and i do love it but i feel it’s a smidge too low for me.

in may i went through a messy breakup of 2.5 years, we lived together and it was rough. I then rebounded into a guy who ended up giving me herpes and he’s now fucked off. I am trying to accept all that’s happened but i got super ill from it mentally and physically.

I had to move back home with my mum who’s emotionally abusive i’m and insults me 24/7 it’s hell.

I am so in a mixed state right now . feel sooo low and shit about myself and want to relapse (haven’t in 2 years), can’t eat, can’t sleep, wired but so tired, taken out another loan of like £4k and i have seen two mental health nurses, one doctor and they ‘urgently referred me’ to my psychiatrist to review my meds and the next appointment is in fucking SEPTEMBER!!

SOMEONE pls give me some advice to get myself back on a steady mood aPlease

This has been the case for like 1.5 weeks. i thought i fixed my sleep by taking quite a few tramadol and dihydrocodeine together but it just made me feel numb and im worried I’ll get addicted to that now too.

sooooo it’s currently nearly 7am and i haven’t slept at all last night. i have bipolar 2, bpd and adhd and let’s just say the last two months have been insane. i take 150mg lamotrigine and i do love it but i feel it’s a smidge too low for me.

in may i went through a messy breakup of 2.5 years, we lived together and it was rough. I then rebounded into a guy who ended up giving me herpes and he’s now fucked off. I am trying to accept all that’s happened but i got super ill from it mentally and physically.

I had to move back home with my mum who’s emotionally abusive i’m and insults me 24/7 it’s hell.

I am so in a mixed state right now . feel sooo low and shit about myself and want to relapse (haven’t in 2 years), can’t eat, can’t sleep, wired but so tired, taken out another loan of like £4k and i have seen two mental health nurses, one doctor and they ‘urgently referred me’ to my psychiatrist to review my meds and the next appointment is in fucking SEPTEMBER!!

SOMEONE pls give me some advice to get myself back on a steady mood aPlease

This has been the case for like 1.5 weeks. i thought i fixed my sleep by taking quite a few tramadol and dihydrocodeine together but it just made me feel numb and im worried I’ll get addicted to that now too.

for context i have bpd, bipolar and adhd

last week was extremely humiliating and i need to rant.

for context, my ex boyfriend ( FP) of 3 years broke up with me around two months ago. it was rough because we lived together in his flat. he was turning quite nasty towards the end of the relationship and did show some abusive behaviours however i kept thinking if i did more for him then he would be nicer but clearly not. looking back he was defo an avoidant and just grew to resent me. i was so attached i didn’t realise how bad things got. he even brought a girl back drunk to his flat the day before he dumped me thinking i wasn’t there and then said i was overreacting to the situation.

anyway, we have had no contact since the breakup until the other night when i was really struggling and worried i would hurt myself. i texted him at 2am and he replied straight away because he was working a night shift and we texted for an hour. he was quite nice and said he was glad i reached out because he’s been worried about me and said perhaps we could be friends in the future. the conversation ended naturally and i felt better.

last sunday however, i had another bad spell and was worried i would harm myself and desperately wanted to see and speak to him. i stupidly went to his flat and knocked on his door. he didn’t answer and texted me asking why i was there and that i needed to leave. I then broke down and had a panic attack on the floor because i thought he would at least open the door and speak to me. i’m stupid for thinking that and he kept texting me saying i needed to leave or he will phone the police. i was so upset and desperate to see him i couldn’t move i was so hysterically crying. we texted for about 30 mins the whole time i was on the floor outside his door sobbing and was just spiralling. he said i was being manipulative and he couldn’t trust me. i was begging for even a minute of seeing him and even suggested for him to keep the chain on the door sobbing so i could see him briefly. he kept saying no and said he would phone an ambulance because i was a mess. he ended up phoning me and said i had to go and he was scared of me so i crawled away sobbing.

i managed to get outside but ended up throwing up on the street and was having another panic attack. i could see he was watching me from the window. my friends then came and picked me up and took me away safely but i am so so humiliated and embarrassed about what happened. he then blocked me on everything and i realise i was stupid and desperate but i was just wanting some comfort from him. it all backfired and made me realise how awful he is and cold.

how am i meant to get over this hurt and pain? i was doing so well the past few weeks but it’s all come crashing down and i feel i’m back to square one.

sorry for the long story just needed to rant

for context i have bpd alongside bipolar and adhd

last sunday was extremely humiliating and i need to rant.

for context, my ex boyfriend ( FP) of 3 years broke up with me around two months ago. it was rough because we lived together in his flat. he was turning quite nasty towards the end of the relationship and did show some abusive behaviours however i kept thinking if i did more for him then he would be nicer but clearly not. looking back he was defo an avoidant and just grew to resent me. i was so attached i didn’t realise how bad things got. he even brought a girl back drunk to his flat the day before he dumped me thinking i wasn’t there and then said i was overreacting to the situation.

anyway, we have had no contact since the breakup until the other night when i was really struggling and worried i would hurt myself. i texted him at 2am and he replied straight away because he was working a night shift and we texted for an hour. he was quite nice and said he was glad i reached out because he’s been worried about me and said perhaps we could be friends in the future. the conversation ended naturally and i felt better.

last sunday however, i had another bad spell and was worried i would harm myself and desperately wanted to see and speak to him. i stupidly went to his flat and knocked on his door. he didn’t answer and texted me asking why i was there and that i needed to leave. I then broke down and had a panic attack on the floor because i thought he would at least open the door and speak to me. i’m stupid for thinking that and he kept texting me saying i needed to leave or he will phone the police. i was so upset and desperate to see him i couldn’t move i was so hysterically crying. we texted for about 30 mins the whole time i was on the floor outside his door sobbing and was just spiralling. he said i was being manipulative and he couldn’t trust me. i was begging for even a minute of seeing him and even suggested for him to keep the chain on the door sobbing so i could see him briefly. he kept saying no and said he would phone an ambulance because i was a mess. he ended up phoning me and said i had to go and he was scared of me so i crawled away sobbing.

i managed to get outside but ended up throwing up on the street and was having another panic attack. i could see he was watching me from the window. my friends then came and picked me up and took me away safely but i am so so humiliated and embarrassed about what happened. he then blocked me on everything and i realise i was stupid and desperate but i was just wanting some comfort from him. it all backfired and made me realise how awful he is and cold.

how am i meant to get over this hurt and pain? i was doing so well the past few weeks but it’s all come crashing down and i feel i’m back to square one.

sorry for the long story just needed to rant

tonight was extremely humiliating and i need to rant.

for context, my ex boyfriend ( FP) of 3 years broke up with me around two months ago. it was rough because we lived together in his flat. he was turning quite nasty towards the end of the relationship and did show some abusive behaviours however i kept thinking if i did more for him then he would be nicer but clearly not. looking back he was defo an avoidant and just grew to resent me. i was so attached i didn’t realise how bad things got. he even brought a girl back drunk to his flat the day before he dumped me thinking i wasn’t there and then said i was overreacting to the situation.

anyway, we have had no contact since the breakup until the other night when i was really struggling and worried i would hurt myself. i texted him at 2am and he replied straight away because he was working a night shift and we texted for an hour. he was quite nice and said he was glad i reached out because he’s been worried about me and said perhaps we could be friends in the future. the conversation ended naturally and i felt better.

tonight however, i had another bad spell and was worried i would harm myself and desperately wanted to see and speak to him. i stupidly went to his flat and knocked on his door. he didn’t answer and texted me asking why i was there and that i needed to leave. I then broke down and had a panic attack on the floor because i thought he would at least open the door and speak to me. i’m stupid for thinking that and he kept texting me saying i needed to leave or he will phone the police. i was so upset and desperate to see him i couldn’t move i was so hysterically crying. we texted for about 30 mins the whole time i was on the floor outside his door sobbing and was just spiralling. he said i was being manipulative and he couldn’t trust me. i was begging for even a minute of seeing him and even suggested for him to keep the chain on the door sobbing so i could see him briefly. he kept saying no and said he would phone an ambulance because i was a mess. he ended up phoning me and said i had to go and he was scared of me so i crawled away sobbing.

i managed to get outside but ended up throwing up on the street and was having another panic attack. i could see he was watching me from the window. my friends then came and picked me up and took me away safely but i am so so humiliated and embarrassed about what happened. he then blocked me on everything and i realise i was stupid and desperate but i was just wanting some comfort from him. it all backfired and made me realise how awful he is and cold.

how am i meant to get over this hurt and pain? i was doing so well the past few weeks but it’s all come crashing down and i feel i’m back to square one.

sorry for the long story just needed to rant

tonight was extremely humiliating and i need to rant.

for context, my ex boyfriend ( FP) of 3 years broke up with me around two months ago. it was rough because we lived together in his flat. he was turning quite nasty towards the end of the relationship and did show some abusive behaviours however i kept thinking if i did more for him then he would be nicer but clearly not. looking back he was defo an avoidant and just grew to resent me. i was so attached i didn’t realise how bad things got. he even brought a girl back drunk to his flat the day before he dumped me thinking i wasn’t there and then said i was overreacting to the situation.

anyway, we have had no contact since the breakup until the other night when i was really struggling and worried i would hurt myself. i texted him at 2am and he replied straight away because he was working a night shift and we texted for an hour. he was quite nice and said he was glad i reached out because he’s been worried about me and said perhaps we could be friends in the future. the conversation ended naturally and i felt better.

tonight however, i had another bad spell and was worried i would harm myself and desperately wanted to see and speak to him. i stupidly went to his flat and knocked on his door. he didn’t answer and texted me asking why i was there and that i needed to leave. I then broke down and had a panic attack on the floor because i thought he would at least open the door and speak to me. i’m stupid for thinking that and he kept texting me saying i needed to leave or he will phone the police. i was so upset and desperate to see him i couldn’t move i was so hysterically crying. we texted for about 30 mins the whole time i was on the floor outside his door sobbing and was just spiralling. he said i was being manipulative and he couldn’t trust me. i was begging for even a minute of seeing him and even suggested for him to keep the chain on the door sobbing so i could see him briefly. he kept saying no and said he would phone an ambulance because i was a mess. he ended up phoning me and said i had to go and he was scared of me so i crawled away sobbing.

i managed to get outside but ended up throwing up on the street and was having another panic attack. i could see he was watching me from the window. my friends then came and picked me up and took me away safely but i am so so humiliated and embarrassed about what happened. he then blocked me on everything and i realise i was stupid and desperate but i was just wanting some comfort from him. it all backfired and made me realise how awful he is and cold.

how am i meant to get over this hurt and pain? i was doing so well the past few weeks but it’s all come crashing down and i feel i’m back to square one.

sorry for the long story just needed to rant

this is very random but i recently went to a clinic and the doctor was chatting to me about ariana as i was wearing a merch top for her sweetener tour. we got talking about how dangerously thin she is and how we were worried about her especially touring on top of it .

she told me that her brother worked as a caterer on the wicked set and that she would request very strange items to eat. her go to was apparently a few almonds “, cucumber slices and sheets of seaweed… that is all she would have and black coffee and lots of gum

tonight was extremely humiliating and i need to rant.

for context, my ex boyfriend ( FP) of 3 years broke up with me around two months ago. it was rough because we lived together in his flat. he was turning quite nasty towards the end of the relationship and did show some abusive behaviours however i kept thinking if i did more for him then he would be nicer but clearly not. looking back he was defo an avoidant and just grew to resent me. i was so attached i didn’t realise how bad things got. he even brought a girl back drunk to his flat the day before he dumped me thinking i wasn’t there and then said i was overreacting to the situation.

anyway, we have had no contact since the breakup until the other night when i was really struggling and worried i would hurt myself. i texted him at 2am and he replied straight away because he was working a night shift and we texted for an hour. he was quite nice and said he was glad i reached out because he’s been worried about me and said perhaps we could be friends in the future. the conversation ended naturally and i felt better.

tonight however, i had another bad spell and was worried i would harm myself and desperately wanted to see and speak to him. i stupidly went to his flat and knocked on his door. he didn’t answer and texted me asking why i was there and that i needed to leave. I then broke down and had a panic attack on the floor because i thought he would at least open the door and speak to me. i’m stupid for thinking that and he kept texting me saying i needed to leave or he will phone the police. i was so upset and desperate to see him i couldn’t move i was so hysterically crying. we texted for about 30 mins the whole time i was on the floor outside his door sobbing and was just spiralling. he said i was being manipulative and he couldn’t trust me. i was begging for even a minute of seeing him and even suggested for him to keep the chain on the door sobbing so i could see him briefly. he kept saying no and said he would phone an ambulance because i was a mess. he ended up phoning me and said i had to go and he was scared of me so i crawled away sobbing.

i managed to get outside but ended up throwing up on the street and was having another panic attack. i could see he was watching me from the window. my friends then came and picked me up and took me away safely but i am so so humiliated and embarrassed about what happened. he then blocked me on everything and i realise i was stupid and desperate but i was just wanting some comfort from him. it all backfired and made me realise how awful he is and cold.

how am i meant to get over this hurt and pain? i was doing so well the past few weeks but it’s all come crashing down and i feel i’m back to square one.

sorry for the long story just needed to rant

Hi,

i’m F27 and just got results back from a sexual health clinic and i’ve tested positive for HSV1 on my genitals. I had active sores and a bad flu for the past two weeks. They did a swab test on me. the doctor said it must have been given to me through oral sex. Last week, I spoke with the guy i’ve been seeing the last 6 weeks and he’s been acting odd ever since i told him i was really sick two weeks ago. he’s claiming he went to his GP and had a blood test and that he had the results back same day and that it was negative but couldn’t show me written results - he said it was given to him verbally? sounds weird

anyway, so today i texted him that i tested positive and he showed me a picture of a home test kit for herpes that had his blood on it but no result shown - he said it was negative. When i asked him for further details he got angry and said that I couldn’t have got it from him as he’s never had any symptoms.

He tried to blame it on my ex (of 2.5 years) who I split with a few months ago but he never gave me oral sex so it doesn’t make sense for it to be him?

i’m just looking for advice because this new guy is acting so defensive and being off with me which makes me feel like he’s guilty or knew he had it before? idk someone help me 😭

Hey so about 7 weeks ago, my long term boyfriend broke up with me and it was rough emotionally. We both never had any symptoms of any cold sores or any STDs the whole time we were together (2.5 years) and we both tested regularly.

After two weeks of the breakup, I met a new guy and we started seeing each other very quickly and it was all a bit of a whirlwind looking back. We had protected sex twice middle of May and then unprotected sex three times late may/early June . I suddenly then got really sick and was bed bound. Had flu like symptoms and noticed I had sores on my vagina and mouth. I went to a clinic and they said it looks like herpes but they swabbed my mouth, vagina, bum and did blood tests to test me for everything. I confronted the guy and he was surprisingly calm. He said he has never had any symptoms of herpes.

the next day, he said he went and had a blood test at his gp to test for herpes and 30 mins later, they told him it was negative. I was a bit suspicious because my results were going to take at least a week or two so how could he get his so fast? He was adamant that he was negative and I asked to see evidence but he said the doctor told him verbally?? Sounds like bs to me.

He also then added that a year ago, he had flu like symptoms and when he peed, it burned. He said he did a full STD screening and it came back negative and he didn’t question anything else. So i’m curious to think whether that could have been him contracting herpes then? i’m not sure.

I’m convinced i got it from this guy and he’s lying. He’s acting too shady. He’s also been blanking me ever since I told him I was sick when before, he was facetiming me for hours and texting non stop all day.