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I have been in andra since 6 months and the moment I think I have gotten a hold of it.... someone will say something n i will go completely blank. I mean whyy???

Plz don't hate me for what I am going to write next but I wish there was a uniform language in India...and it should not have been english, should not be english...bcz it's not our language....and since hindi is the dialect of majority I wish everyone knew hindi. I mean in north and North East or central and West India , people have their our regional language and also know hindi..so all have something in common..but it's so difficult here. And I feel it's difficult for the south areas as well, i feel...bcz people from kerela or TN or Karnataka donot know telugu or people from TN donot know malyalam, kannada or Tamil.

To have a curiosity and learn is something else but in official setting or to fit in...it's very difficult.

PS- please if someone can tell me how can I learn and catchup telugu quick plz do tell..and donot tell movies or chatting over here..bcz it doesn't help and i don't get time actually.

Also for all writing telugu in my post - try figuring out this- Mitheyki myar gadhwali ma bhi chyun lagandu aandu cha paar mi baki log dagad ni lagand chuyin myaar bhasha ma kileki mi oon logon ki bhavnao dhey smajhdun chon...ta jab mi bher desh jan dilli ya bangal ya gujrat jandu chon na ta mi wunka daggad hindi ma chyu lagandu chow ..kileki unthey myar bhasa ni aanth ar mithey ki angrez ni bannad.... angrezi ma chyuin kairiki....

Ardham aaiyinda?

Also - Happy Independence to you all.

Like idk what's wrong and where to fix . I am in this 9 to 9 job ( studying) with Sunday working too till 12. Monotonous fucking life. No salary is being given. I had a bf 2 years back now I am at this place like so so far away from my home , i don't know the language..it sucks here. I had some fling. And now I am just hating everything. I don't feel like doing anything...like watching something on Netflix or ott but take hours to decide what to do. Procrastinating so much that my room has not been cleaned since a week. Got the courage to wash my utensils last night. Was thinking of taking myself out for a movie...but then I feel that my one Sunday will also go like that and I drop the thought and it's the same cycle again. Nothing is exciting me anymore. I have always been a lazy one i know but i used to be excited. Here I don't know what to do. Time is just passing.6 months are already over in this place. I have learned a little bit of language and maybe made acquaintance ( won't call friends) haven't talked to my friends from months..don't feel like talking. Just lying in my bed in that it.

All are welcome to comment esp those who can relate with me or are like me. Plz donot ask me much questions. I seriously can't answer. Just suggestions or anything good that will cheer me up maybe.

Came from a week holiday from home again back to the place where I am just counting days. I know people keep saying try to see this as a opportunity, learn don't crib but it's hard . It's really hard to move to a place where u don't know language so finding friends is difficult, you want to be friends but something doesn't fit. 3 years I have to be here more. I don't get time and i have to find time to study as well. 9 to 9 , didn't even get my stipend yet. All the patience I am holding I only know. Relationship traumas, a void to fill, a feeling of not being able to do things I want to do in my adult prime. I know i will gather myself up and fight and just enter into the process but i just wanted to vent out. I hope it all works out at the end.

Hi guys , it's been 3 months now since joining. It's been a bit difficult I think but better than the first month I guess. Somewhat better oriented to the place. Still learning language and ofcc the subject.

I want to make some time for my studies bcz i literally haven't touched anything yet.Just bought the books this month itself. My duty gets over by 8 or 8:30 at night, after that i literally don't get any time or have the energy to open something and read.

It's just been 3 months and it's a long long time till 3 years.

Seniors or fellow mates suggestions, rant all welcome.

How is it going on for u guys?

I don't know what I am feeling. I mean everything is fine, sab kuch sahi hai fir b kuch kami hai, idk. Like if I saw sab kuch sahi to hai...noble profession, where I wanted to be i got selected but fir b kyu sahi nhi lgta sab ? Age ho rahi hai kisi se man nhi krta milne ka , man nhi krta naye connection bnane ka, ghar se dur hu , roz ghar pe vdo call krti hu but khalipan lgta hai ek. Instagrame page b khola productive krne ki puri koshish krti hu, novel padh rahi hu. Khush nhi hu for b. Phle thi ? Shyd thi but tab bhi complain krti thi but us time bhot roti thi ,is time bhi chize smjh nhi aati thi but khush thi, beech beech me khush rehti thi but ab ? Ab ajeeb si monotonous si ho gyi hai life. Kisi se baat krne ka man nhi krta, esa nhi ki hasti nhi hu mai, par wo jo crazy wali mai thi na wo nhi hai ab .. dhere dhere mummy shadi k liye bolegi but kisse...man hi nhi krta ab. I don't feel that i will find someone one and arrange marriage nhi Krna chahti mai. Carrier wise b wese to sahi hu..but aage jab khud se krungi tab kya? 3 saal Ghar se dur rehna hai and abhi bas 3 mahine hi hue hai. Smjh nhi aata. Time fisal raha hai bas sand ki tarah and pakad nhi paa rahi. Bhot kuch krte hue b kuch kar nhi paa rahi.