It's aliveee

It's aliveee

My post yesterday had me really down about it but I put it in rice this morning until an hour ago and it came back on.

I realized I like this thing more than I realized especially on my bike ride today having no downloaded podcasts to listen to.

u/Iwanttolive87 — 2 days ago

It's washed... Literally

I put it in a pocket I don't normally put it in and washed my clothes. It's gone lol. Surprisingly it was working for a few mins after but I checked just now and it's gone.

I didn't enjoy this thing all that much but im not happy that it's gone. I backed the ap30 on Kickstarter but I'll need something to hold me over or just use my phone which is not preferable.

Truly a sad day

u/Iwanttolive87 — 3 days ago

Engine oil light coming on and off

2008 5 speed manual 118k miles fwd base model.

Was driving yesterday and randomly I get a ding then the red oil light comes on. I start to pull over then it goes off, I park where I'm going then it's back on. When I was going home it didn't come home all the way until I was backing into my garage then it comes on and off a bunch of times. I'm gonna check the oil level today but I have a feeling that that's not the cause.

Edit I did try to scan it but no codes came up at all so I can't even just diagnose it.

Edit I'm at the shop now we shall see what's what.

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 5 days ago

There's gotta be a better way to buy

I'm looking at many Scion TCs, Corolla, Honda (all manual) and the Acura Ilx, (for some reason they all are around the same price) but FBM is genuinely so God awful.

"Runs good" full description. Text for more info "call me" no bro why would I call you. "Can I see the vin or have anymore than the single picture?" Gone like a fart in the wind.

Is there nothing better? I'm not trying to use a dealership for what I feel are obvious reasons + I don't want a payment. But what else can I do. If it is not zero info it's a dealer in FB, and if it's not that is some 3k civic shell rusted out, or some moron who is selling his "no long has VTEC" Integra because "I know how to fix it but if it doesn't work I'll obsess over is, also the car is up in Kansas"

Genuinely what is happening.

Not sure if I'm allowed to rant.

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 13 days ago

Change CD behavior

SOLVED

So recently I bought the 4% CS CD. Only 1000$ just to try it out, I set it to auto rebuy I believe at the end of maturity which is coming soon. I don't want it to auto buy now though. Is there any way to stop it after the maturity date? Will it ask to confirm the rebuy? I'd rather put that 1k into my emergency hysa as my car is seeming to give out in me.

I'm not sure how to go about making sure I can pull the money once it's matured.

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 15 days ago

The bargaining is here already

3 days in (not my first time around) but I've already hit the first bargaining stage. "What if I just watch once a day" "who am I actually doing this for, I'm allowed to have pleasure" "what if i limit it to 10 mins no more" "just today it's just one day"

But I can't give in. Giving into a bargain is like tripping while doing parkour on a skyscraper. You don't just scrape your knee and get back up you plummet right back down.

Honestly this is always the worst part of this all. The strong desire with the bargaining.

On top of all that, my casual relationship thing with this girl just ended so that's great lol.

Boredom, desire, and bargaining the 3 Bs.

But I got this.

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 28 days ago

I'm back after a long while

Not sure if anyone remembers but I was here a long time ago with this absolutely bone dry custy machine that my dad gave me. Only recently I took it to a shop to get it serviced. They said it was extremely dry and they cleaned it up nicely and lined it.

I just crappily repaired the hole in my pillow case. I'm glad to be here.

u/Iwanttolive87 — 28 days ago
▲ 4 r/SSRIs

Went cold turkey and withdrawal symptoms are waning

So about a month ago now I went cold turkey off my Zoloft. Well 50mg to 25 to 0. So bit really cold turkey ig. Anyways the withdrawals were hellish for the first 2 weeks but I've come down to just infrequent brain zaps, minimal nausea. But the most alarming thing that I've only recognized recently is that I've lost my ability to see 3d in my head. You know the apple test to see how far you can visualize and manipulate an apple in your head. I used to be able to rotate it and see the color but I can't now.

In multiple cases Ive needed visual explanations on how something would move in 3d space when I used to be able to picture things vividly.

It's kinda disappointing but I don't think I can get it back so not much I can do. I wouldn't recommend going cold turkey especially without consulting your psychiatrist. I didn't and still haven't gotten back in touch with mine just because I don't want to. I'd advise that you do if you're thinking about getting off any meds.

Goodnight folks

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 29 days ago

Does anyone know what's going to be done with the ToysRUs

Edit* apparently the Boynton mall owners are looking to develop a mixed used zone which is pretty cool if it happens. Probably will be extremely pricey but hey anything is better than a parking lot the size of the avengers helicarrier

The TRU near the Boynton mall has been closed for well over a decade now if I recall correctly and nothing is being done with it. I'm not sure who owns it if not just the city. I honestly expected it to be bought already and turned into literally anything. I'd love to buy it myself lol. But are there any plans with it, or is it just in forever limbo like the mall that is "closing down" for 15 years now lol.

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 1 month ago

not feeling the benefits yet

So one of the main points i see for floor sitting is the strengthening of your back and decreasing pain. It's been 3 years... my shit still aching. I've tried many positions, bare floor, floor chair, backless cushion on floor. I didn't start because of the benefits, i just like being on the floor but it def would be nice to get the benefits. Anyone else still just aching?

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 1 month ago

Econobox manuals

So I drive 2008 jeep patriot manual. its an suv so i should not care as much as i do but gawd damn does it shift like a stiff pool noodle. and the pedal position is abysmal the clutch and brake are at normal resonable levels but the gas... its like an olympic long jump away. it makes it way more complicated to heel toe. Im fighting myself to just leave it alone and not try and change anything about the car because its an econobox and the most financially responsible thing for me, but i want to extend the pedal, no parts exist to do that, i want to have a short throw shifter, obviously no parts. and all of the thing i want are much more complex than i have the skills for.

So for now i just try to enjoy it the best i can until it dies and I'm forced to get something else.

Anyone else drive any econobox manuals? Most of the people i see in this sub are in moderately sporty cars (ie not an suv with 170hp def more like 140 50 now)

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 1 month ago

Updated reddit recanced and have adds again

Not sure what happened but my reddit was bugging out to where I couldn't even touch my screen when in a comment section without it saying "had some trouble getting to reddit". So I updated and now I have ads again.. also revanced seems to hate bundles so it literally won't install anything that is a bundle. I have a splitter but that just installs the bundle and lets me open the app but it doesn't let me patch. Not sure what to do

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 1 month ago

Couple weeks from cold turkey

So not too long ago I quit my setraline medication cold turkey and I updated talking about the symptoms of withdrawal. Good news they are mostly gone. I only have slight nausea very occasionally and fewer brain zaps. I can still hear my eyeballs moving which is weird and if i move them too fast in any direction it causes a brain zap (feels like a tug on my optic nerves causing a zap lol).

I feel... Like I remember why I was on meds but still feel better than when I first needed them. I still have goals and I have more friends and plans for the future. Obviously I'm still susceptible to falling back into MDD (considering I don't think it's gone if it even can be). I haven't gotten back in contact with my psychiatrist... Which I know I said I would but I've been busy and will be even more if I get this internship in my desired field.

So I'm not dead nor dying. Traffic definitely is a bit harder to deal with again though lol, maybe I'll start biking to work again when the temperature comes down a bit.

Thank you everyone

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 1 month ago

CD confusion

So I just took a look at Fidelity's CDs. They gave a CS CD at 4% that is only a month long. Maturity at 8/7/26.

  1. I thought CDs were at least 3 months
  2. How is that possible? Is it paying 4% a month or is it still 4% a year but you don't have to commit to a whole year.

Say I put 5k in. There is no way I'm getting 200$ a month right. I'm assuming it's 4% a year and you're just getting that pay out monthly so you'd really be getting about 16.67 a month.

Please correct me if I'm wrong becauses there is no way that there is just essentially gold sitting in front of me.

Edit So that was solved quickly. I'm assuming that this probably isn't the best way to earn and a regular investment would probably be better than huh.

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 1 month ago
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"I don't owe anybody anything"

This is one of the most sad sap, garbage, cop out mentalities to have and I see it all too much especially in my generation (Gen Z). It's always "I don't owe anyone anything" or "I don't fuck with nobody like that" or some other socially isolated rigamarole. It's so frustrating to see because then you'll hear about the multiple loneliness epidemics that are plauging us. And most of these people are either talking out of their ass so much you'd think they are doing a handstand, or they are preemptively isolating themselves to avoid the basic foundations of social interaction. That foundation is putting other before yourself. It's fucking annoying sometimes and that's the cost of community. Take it from a genuine introvert who grew up with an introvert to the point I have to force myself to leave the house and feel the soul being sucked out of me once I am around people too long. YOU OWE EVERYONE EVERYTHING (within reason). And everyone owes everything because it's the foundations of being human and I wish people would stop running from that.

Don't get me wrong I'm very aware that the problem runs deeper into topics that aren't allowed to be discussed here but you can still address them without getting into the weeds of politics and whatnot.

Honestly what's even more frustrating is that I hear that shit all the time "I don't owe anyone anything" and the same person says it over and over and over because they keep doing the same BS and going right back to socializing. Yes it's gonna suck sometimes, honestly it can suck oftentimes but that's the price. And part of the problem is there is no middle ground for people. It's either you think you're people pleasing and going above and beyond and you are doing the most for everyone around you or you shouldn't do anything for anyone and you should say fuck everyone and do whatever. Neither of these are productive nor are they sustainable and oftentimes nobody is actually fully committed to either of them.

There is a natural pull to socialize that it seems we as a population are trying to escape and it's going to kill us because it's like trying to pull the beating heart from a person. That is us, we suck, we are awesome, we are selfish and selfless, fucking accept it and cherish it and take a break when you need. Good lord.

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 2 months ago

Great Northern beans and shredded tofu

The photo was definitely an afterthought as evident by the bitten wrap.

So we have Great Northern beans and some shredded tofu I got from an Asian market. Spinach and a fiber wrap from Aldi. I kinda make the beans and tofu wet by adding the bean juice and some veggie broth and it makes it more like a fun think it eat by tearing off the wrap and eating it by hand. And the wrap it toasted with some garlic powder, dill, and lemon pepper and roasted red tomato oil.

Very filling and hearty

u/Iwanttolive87 — 2 months ago

4 days and I'm in hell

I stopped taking setraline 25mg. I was one 50 and 100 at different points but overall Ive been on them since this January and I finished on Thursday last week. The nausea started in day 2 and now it's in full swing. I don't want to go back to them and restart the process of coming off them. I didn't consult my psychiatrist about this and maybe that's proof that I should still be on them but I want to be me unaided. I'm scared now though after reading others experiences with withdrawal and seeing that it could take week months or not even end. I thought it would pass within the week but 5-6 months medicated it can't possibly end within a week. My brain feels like it's drowning in a pool with exposed wires in it.

I'm going to get through this no matter what.

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 2 months ago

I getting off Zoloft against the wishes of my psychiatrist

So a while back I told my psychiatrist I don't want to be on any more medication and she advised against it. I agreed for a while and even had to up my dose towards the end of last semester but I went back down to the normal 50mg. At some point due to taking two 50mgs I ran out faster than I meant to and went 3 days without any and was so nauseous. Eventually I picked up the prescription and decided half of it I would take he full 50 and once I get through half I'd drop to 25 then I'd be done once it's done. It's done and this is day one. I'm not going back on. I didn't communicate this to my psychiatrist but I don't want to be on them anymore. Call it pride I guess but I want to do it on my own I know I won't end it because I have things to do and things I want to do now. Wish me luck. I guess. I'll probably get back in contact with her eventually if things go wrong but I doubt they will.

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 2 months ago

Edamame avocado toast

We have a nearly daily breakfast of mine. Edamame avocado spread on crusty toast with some fruit. It's quick filling and delicious especially with the sweet habanero hot sauce.

Rough recipe of you wanna make it: 100g frozen shelled edamame 50g of avocado (or whatever half is for your size) A clove of garlic (or more if you'd like, it's all I had left today) Some lemon juice or lime (up to you) Nutritional yeast 5g A pepper of sorts (I used canned jalapenos as I forgot to get any peppers at the store) Oil if you'd like I didn't since I'm on a cut rn (still very good) Salt, paprika (smoked if you can), black pepper, (whatever other seasoning you'd like)

You'll need to thaw the edamame so I boil some water and pour it in whatever I have the frozen edamame in then butter some bread while that thaws.

Throw everything in then start pan toasting your bread

Then emersion blend, food processor, or mash with fork, might work with a mortar and pesel (idk how to spell that).

Then spread it on the toast and top with whatever, I used to put sesame seeds on when I had them could do some herbs or whatever, hot sauce or Sriracha works great.

I don't really do recipes and the only reason why I have measurements for some stuff is because I track my calories for the gym so sorry for the lack of details on whatever I post.

u/Iwanttolive87 — 2 months ago

I genuinely wish physical spam mail was outlawed

This may be a bad take simply because it give less chance to small business to thrive but the amount of spam mail we all get is egregious. A Bibles worth of spam every month or so straight to the trash because it's spam. Banks do it, business do it, random mortgage companies do it, pressure washing, car washing, tree trimmers OML. What's worse is often it's not even your's. "To person who hasn't lived here for 6 years". Why do they get to just waste paper and plastic because of course it can't just be paper, to send us crap we have no interest in. It's never useful stuff and it adds to the risk of missing important mail. Why is this allowed??

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u/Iwanttolive87 — 2 months ago