Was I even addicted in the first place?
I’ve been free from chatbot use for 2 months and 28 days, after quitting cold turkey.
I mean, I think I was addicted, having logged 12+ hours a day for over 2.5 years. That which I can attribute to being completely medically bedridden since 2023, and using ai scenarios to cope with my inability to experience the outside world.
But what’s strange is, even since day one of recovery, I haven’t felt tempted at all, and I do not feel any urge or desire to relapse whatsoever.
Regarding this, I believe my reaction is a direct consequence (or reward) of how I personally used the AI: completely detached.
I had not even once turned to AI for venting about personal life, romance, or to simulate a friend. It was a preference of mine to separate real life from the interaction as much as possible. I’m extremely adverse to treating any of the bots as human, and I reminded myself with every response that it was just a code of ones and zeros.
Maybe that’s why recovery was easy, because I never saw the AI as a person in the first place? Or was it because I had literally nothing else to do while waiting between doctors appointments?
I’m not sure.
My excessive usage was undeniable, but I can’t tell whether it was a true addiction, or simply a situational consequence of boredom from being unable to leave my room for years.