u/Jane-Alone-8732

Whenever I'm thrust into a new environment I just feel how the atmosphere around me gets dragged down and before even exchanging a word with someone, I can already tell that this will go nowhere.

It's not just im my mind, I always try to be upbeat and open to new people but they always treat me like I've just spat on their pet dog or something.

I don't get it. Is it due to social ineptitude? not being pretty enough? having dead eyes? probably a combination of all those things.

I swear it's like I have a brand on my forehead that says "do not interact" ffs

I knew that it was only a matter of time before I got the great privilege to experience it, but it finally happened.

It's my birthday today and absolutely nobody wished me a happy birthday.

I've been alone for the majority of my life but atleast I used to get wishes from my family, classmates or coworkers.

Canon event for loners ig..

I feel like one of the biggest factors contributing to my stress is the fact that I'm sometimes physically incapable of talking.

Anyone else having similar issues?

Due to me barely talking in general, my voice tends to be either very quiet and mumbly, or I get stressed and talk way too fast and barely breathe between sentences.

It's like my vocal cords are actively decaying, screw atrophy.

Like seriously, Irl it's basically impossible if you value your safety and the online space is just filled with minors and malicious dudes who prey on you and said minors.

I cannot fathom how you can meet other fb's which sucks especially hard since I don't have any friends or family who would be ok with this topic.

For as far back as I remember, I've always just been there to fill the scene in any given group setting.

I was the friend you've had in the first week of school before finding your people, the one that has to walk behind the others once the side walk gets narrow, or the one you've never bothered to hang out with one on one.

It's no shocker that once you stop being the first one to reach out, the friendship quickly fades.

I just really REALLY wanna know what it's like to feel needed, to have your friends meet up and one of them going "You know, it doesn't feel right without x we should totally invite them"

I'm so cooked

Hey, I'm German and want to come out of my bubble a bit. Feel free to tell me about your interests and goals, some of mine include drawing, urban exploration, traveling, lego, music and martial arts.

Please only message me if you're mature enough not to ghost after 3 messages. If the convo is boring you then be open about it..

Hi, komme aus Berlin und wollte bisschen meine Sozialen Kenntnisse stärken.

Erzählt mal gerne über eure Interessen oder Ziele, ich selbst mag es zu Reisen, urban exploration, Konzerte, Kunst und Kampfsport.