I actually want to cry. A guy I see in the gym sometimes sees me and my boyfriend go to McDonald’s together and he asked me if my boyfriend was my son. I don’t even eat at McDonald’s I just get a diet soda and he gets a meal etc because it’s something we can do together etc etc. This really hurt me
After upping food DAE get like slighty puffy ankles? I’m wearing ankle socks and when I peeled the top back it left in indent in my skin showing my ankles r slighty swollen
Another big feed today with loads of good stuff I REALLY wanted to eat again but my stupid brain has kept me from eating. Avocado, eggs, mackerel, chicken, peanut butter, cheese. IM GOING TO THE GYM TOMORROW AND EXITED FOR THE ENEGRY ILL HAVE!!
Mods is this ok? I really want this post to stay up I need help!!
Im wanting to up my intake by around four hun but im worried about how much weight I would gain! And if it would stop at any point?? Is this a dumb question? Like would the weight gain stop at any point? I also go to the gym and I am a runner too and really want to recover and get back my old fit and athletic body I had before anorexia 😔😔
So recently my body forced me basically to binge on a bunch of food, probably because my restriction was getting worse. Today, I willingly ate more. a whole big can of mackerel and smoked fish, with some almond butter and some feta cheese! (Weird foods I know but I was just craving them) and I don’t feel guilty this time!!
I hate myself for this so much and I’m so scared of the weight gain. I downd my dinner, cheese, some peanut butter two cans of mackerel, three avocados and on top of that I had multiple protein bars that day too and didn’t go to the gym or my run. I FEEL DISGUSTING 😭😭
Please can people tell me why I should recover… recently I’ve gone back into a kind of relapse. I have more freedom but now I’m going out by myself and rescricting again because I Feel so in control
Today I finally decided to step out of my comfort zone and have a rest day from the gym. I currently am dealing with shin splints too from running and it’s so painful- I am going to feel really lazy today but I know my body is telling me to slow down. It will probably be one day though because I’m nervous about becoming lazy
I really want to wear my new leggings I just bought myself but the waist is so uncomfortable unless I haven’t eaten for ages and my stomach isn’t bloated it’s so annoying and makes me sad and feel ugly and pregnant:(( this is just really a rant btw I hate recovery ❤️🩹
Recently I’ve really been thinking about all in recovery and really wanted to change. Now I keep body checking myself as I noticed or at least what I think my hip bones not as prominent but idk if it’s just my mind telling me that I look fatter now and I want to relapse again BUT LIKE I ALSO DONT I HATE THIS FUCKING ILLNESS 😭😭😭😞😞😞
Please can anyone help me with suggestions for hair growth and health while I’m trying to recover! I’m really nervous of going bald 😞😞 I eat a lot of protein already if that helps at all with hair health ❤️
Does anyone else love baking for other people but not for yourself? I love making sweet treats for my loved ones but id NEVER eat it myself
Idk why this keeps happening but it’s so fustrating because I’m never home to just go and change and it’s recently been happening more than usual?? Do I have leaky gut and how to fix?? Should I be taking some kind of medication to bog myself up? Chia seeds or physillsm husk maybe too?
I fucking hate this so much I can’t trust myself ever when it comes to this sort of thing my stomach hates me and I feel disgusting all the time
Can anyone tell me why my stomach makes these god awful loud as noises whenever I eat or drink?? It’s so embarrassing I hate it so much. It also often leads to diorreah… my mum also keeps making comments about it and how it’s so disgusting to listen to and she hates having a sick daughter.