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I tried the sample for House of Suns through audible and I hated it so I didn’t buy it. It was recommended to me, so when I said I didn’t listen to it I decided to read it. Somehow reading it myself change the book completely for me and it turns out I love the book. I tried to listen to dungeon crawler Carl after already reading the third book but I couldn’t get into it either. I plan on listening to all the books again from the beginning. Maybe it’s because I started listening on the third book and not the first.

Anyone else have this issue?

This year like every 6-8 weeks I cry.
This time it’s over a lost friendship.

I work in a very toxic environment. The staff are always talking bad to each other and they make racist jokes towards each other. I’ve only been there two years while they’ve all worked together 5-8 years.

I dislike most of them and only speak to 3 ppl. For some reason one of the girls is mad and has been treating my badly and getting an attitude with me. Not sure why but I don’t really care either way. But what’s bothering me is that I’ve been there for her when she didn’t even have money to get to work. I have let her borrow money and I always try to be nice as possible.

What’s bothering me is that even if she doesn’t want to talk to me I don’t deserve to be spoke to with an attitude. Since 2024 I’ve chosen to stay away from fake people. I don’t know if this is a Sagittarius thing where people just use us and then treat as badly or as an after thought.

I’m tired of being a good person for people to just take advantage of me. Every day humanity disappoints me. People treat others so badly. I even avoid the news because all there is news about people killing each other. I don’t know how much more I can take. I want to see hope in people. But every day I’m seeing even children getting worse. Treating teachers badly, calling them names, being straight up disrespectful.

Someone give me hope that things will get better and that there is a future without suffering, starvation, wars.

I swear every 6 weeks it’s always a problem. Today was the first day of school and my 11 yr old girl was dropped off at the wrong location. 20-30 minutes walking distance. Thank god my friend who lives a few streets over took the day off and she was able to go pick her up. Otherwise she would have been standing there alone and scared for much longer since I was at work. She’s crying and I want to cry because that’s so scary. I just wish for once I had no stress 😭

I keep seeing posts about how this will be Sagittarius’s year and I’m not seeing it. Please tell me I’m not alone.

This year has been one shot after another. I’m to the point I want no one to know me. I wan to disappear and live a lonely and peaceful life. Is that too much to ask for!

I’m rewatching Wano, I’m at the part where they just start fighting. And they’re making fun of Luffy for wanting to be king of the pirates. But he’s so much younger than them. His goal since day 1 has been to be king. Kaido and Big mom have minimum 50 years on Luffy. So how come they haven’t done it yet? Why haven’t they found the treasure? I think it’s because ultimately they didn’t have that goal in mind. Also crazy to think how close Luffy is and he’s just starting out.

I’m tired of being on this rock we all call home.

I’m not sure why but this year I can’t cope with stress. Is this what enlightenment is? It’s like I opened a book and all the words are coming off the page and attacking me and I can’t keep up with the words. I’m left frustrated with humanity. I can’t be around people anymore. I’m only happy when I’m at home alone away from people.

I’ve always had issues feeling everyone emotions. I’ve learned to stop feeling others emotions but this entire year I still feel completely drained. I work in the medical field unfortunately and I’m constantly dealing with elderly difficult, rude and sometimes prejudice patients, needy doctors and toxic co workers.

I’m miserable everyday at work. When I was in my early 20s I was able to take the stress and deal with the bs. Mind you I have not changed the type of job I have. I’ve always been in the healthcare field since I graduated high school. I remember being enthusiastic and nice and smile at random ppl on the street. I was what I thought a ray of sunshine compared to now.

Now I avoid people, I don’t go out of my way to help anyone. People just take and take until there’s nothing left. As I’m writing this I’ve completely lost what the point of this post was. I’m tired of humanity I guess is my final thought. There’s no way that seeing the world for what it is, is making me this miserable. Every few months I have a breakdown and I have to isolate