u/Ksiloveslgbt

i just what we’d all die, i hate this shit we call “society” i hate the horrible disgusting pointless system we live in, i hate that we have to “earn a living” as if i had a choice to be here? i didn’t ask for life, nor do i want it, i hate it all, i just wish i would’ve been born an animal so i didn’t have to do all this shit, animals can get depression yes, however i hate how complex my brain is, i question everything, i do not agree with the system, i hate the world, people, society, money, jobs, it’s all fake, all our food is processed and bad for us, we work our lives away just to “ survive” and even that’s impossible these days. this whole job market is made to benefit people who never had to do anything in their lives, i just hate at all, why can’t i have been born in a different time, in a different life? doing something meaningful, instead i was given this pile of absolute shit, and because of it i have to deal with severe depression for my entire life? great. looking forward to it.

i know this is quite a subjective thing, because some things work for people and then that same thing may not for others. i don’t particularly enjoy not working, nor am i proud of it, nor is it what i want to do for the rest of my life. so i hope im not what you’d call a “bum” and i make enough money to get by from a hobby i do day to day(which does help me) but it’s something i love, and i wish i could do that full time, which one day may be possible, but i dont know if waiting around for that is the right thing.

i have worked before, a few years ago when i was 17, went straight out of school into the military, when i was severely undiagnosed and hadn’t even acknowledged my own issues, so as you can guess i didnt make it very far because my mindset was telling me i will fail, and i did. the military was all i wanted to do growing up, but i ruined it, now since then, ive been diagnosed, on meds, went to therapy, and i am doing better. but the thing i struggle with the most is finding work, its not as simple as me not being bothered, because i wish i had the desire to work and get lots of money, but i just do not.

i dont see a point in any of it, i dont agree with it, i hate the whole system we are forced to live in, i just feel like i dont belong, but if i continue on living i have no choice but to belong in a system i hate, how do i do that? why should i do that? i struggle to want to live day to day and nobody around me understands how hard it is no matter how often i explain it to them.

so will a job help me? when i was working before i was still severely depressed, hated everything, wanted to give up, and thats never really gone away. everyone says “getting a job will help” but i dont see it, i feel it would make me worse, i have like no social battery unless im drunk, i hate most people, loud noises annoy me, i hate busy areas, i just wanna be left alone, but i know thats not sustainable nor fulfilling life. if anyone can help id really appreciate it.

are all the stormtrooper bodies the same? if not which one is best in terms of articulation and silhouette? i’m a clone man myself so i’ve never bought any stormtroopers, but wanting to make some custom stormtroopers

to me this makes the most sense, why would they recycle the same seasons again, with the same battle passes?? where’s the fun in that? i played from chapter 1 season 2 onwards, and i think OG is boring, the map is boring, the loot is pretty much exactly the same as it’s been since season 1, i really hope they will recycle chapter two, as looking back on it, chapter two was better. what do you think? will they do chapter two?