u/Late-Wolf-4844

from a really young age i thought “i think im gonna hang myself when im older” now i get this feeling like theres a rope around my neck like i can feel it. I stopped enjoying things and i stay in bed all day. Recently ive noticed ive been talking about suicide more often. for example i’ll tell my family “just so you know if you find my hanging in my room one day don’t be surprised” im scared for what’s after death and i don’t wanna hurt my loved ones but I feel like i have no capability to change and i feel like a awful person. I flunked my 10th grade year and started drinking. i went to the mental hospital and got out and was fine for a month or so but then it got bad again. I can’t take meds because of how med sensitive i am and i often think about what would happen if i was gone. I have a fear i’m doing it for attention but even if i am it’s not right and i should kill myself. I don’t know what this feeling is

so for example i am trying to manifest this guy to ask me to be his girlfriend . And i try applying the law of assumption and i use subliminals but i also have extreme anxiety and ocd so i doubt a lot. I don’t want it to go wrong or anything so is there any tip how to not doubt or make it go wrong. Thank you!

so recently my intuition has been crazy accurate about literally everything and anything and i’ve been practicing it. But since i was 14 ive had this weird feeling I’ll die when im 16. i am now 16 and 4 months away from my 17th birthday. ngl im a little scared. For example every time i talk about graduation or my future my brain goes “you’re not gonna live to see it” and it’s a calm feeling. But idk im just not ready i feel I could do so much in my future. I’m wondering if this is actually intuition or not

so recently my intuition has been crazy accurate about literally everything and anything and i’ve been practicing it. But since i was 14 ive had this weird feeling I’ll die when im 16. i am now 16 and 4 months away from my 17th birthday. ngl im a little scared. For example every time i talk about graduation or my future my brain goes “you’re not gonna live to see it” and it’s a calm feeling. But idk im just not ready i feel I could do so much in my future. I’m wondering if this is actually intuition or not

i tried to throw up and failed but i spit and there was a little bit of blood in my spit and then it stopped but now my throat hurts and i don’t know if my nail scratched it or something but im so scared.

i tried to throw up but idk what i did now there is a tiny bit of blood and i’m really scared.

my boyfriend is a hard-core Christian, but I’m a Satanist and I don’t know how to bring it up to him. I’ve told him before that I have a different religion than him and he said just don’t push it onto me. I’m scared of what he might think of me if I tell him that I’m a Satanist. what do I do? Should I slowly hint it to him or should I just tell him straight up and see what he thinks? The only reason why I’m scared is he stopped talking to a girl because she used tarot, but he told me that he didn’t really like her. I told him I also occasionally use tarot and he didn’t mind as long as I didn’t push it onto him.