u/Lucky_Outside_2009

So I'm doing mech eng and will graduate soon enough ani ahile samma I had the mindset ki bidesh nai janu parxa after this tara nowadays a part of me just wants to stay here. But maile sune anusar unless you're a civil eng doing corruption or comp eng doing remote jobs, the pay seems miserable no? Is it really impossible for a normal nepali engineer working jobs to eventually reach say 3 lpm + figure? I'm not talking about being ceo or anything but euta normal senior position huda once you rack up experience.

I don't mind starting work with 10k or 15k but there has to be a light at the end of the tunnel after like 15-20 years of grinding.

The 17 does seem better than 16 in quite a lot of ways however based on what I've read all the way from launch of 13 Pro series to even today, being very active in tech communities, is that Apple's pro motion implementation actually sucks and is very aggressive which results in a more jittery and inconsistent experience than the iPhones which are simply capped at 60hz. Has anyone else who has switched directly from 16 to 17 faced this??

I know you get a better ultrawide and selfie camera but the main lens is same from 15->17 so for me the deciding factor has become just how consistent the usage experience will be. Maybe going to a store and testing might be ideal huh, but I'd appreciate some real world input!

I only started listening after I came across the RL performance due to how crazy the views number was and I was not disappointed, checked out some of his most popular work and recent album and even added some songs to my playlist. I'm not really too deep into this genre but have been really into Carti for a few years so my knowledge of Nine came from that sub and people don't really seem to fw him. I do know he involves himself in 'beefs' and all and got some allegations but Carti fans really can not claim any moral victory over him, plus even music wise I only have seen them trashing him over there. Emotions was legit a better listen than MUSIC, at least there wasn't AI, forced features for Grammys (only to not even be nominated) or throwaways from other artists.

Got 6 backs in 1st year and will likely have 2 more in the 3rd sem, pass bhayeko subjects pani testo ramro chai bhayeko xaina. Mero mind nai bahira jane tira thiyo till now so I had completely ignored engineering tara now I have the will to continue here, ali mehenat garna thale bhane how much can I recover?? Will it be enough to have an overall good profile by the end?

Stuck between these 2

I (20M) am 7 months out of my first ever relationship that lasted for 1.5 years and only now has it finally set on me what kind of a person I had been towards her. The guilt and shame I have has crippled me for the past few days completely despite having a very important exam soon which I am not sure how I can even give. I can't even fault anything about her here which is what is killing me, everything happened because of me. How do I even move on from such?

TLDR: 7 months after separating realize I put 0 effort in relationship, realized all the "problems" were caused due to it and wouldn't have existed with simple loving gestures, no place remains to even blame her.

Long form:

Basically what happened in our relationship was that I used to put in minimal effort towards her, not even in just things like gifting and stuff but simple things like expressing love to her, making her feel loved, assured. And even when she used to do so many things to her, shower me with so much love my response used to be so underwhelming. I have been an extremely undersocialized person my entire life not even having anyone I can call a friend so I'm not sure if that played a role but that is definitely not an excuse I can make when I had her break down so many times on how she doesn't feel loved by me, her friends personally came and talked to me and console often times about how it is important to make her feel loved and put some fucking effort towards her but I just did not. Neither did I feel it was important nor did I value what she used to do for me.

By the time we broke up, she had already gotten very frustrated with the relationship and the last couple of months we spent together were rough to say the least. She used to get frustrated and became super mean and in my eyes she was a burden to have as that continued. Because of that, initially I really had 0 overly negative feelings about the loss. She even called me again in like first few days of Feb like 4 months after last contact saying she was going abroad soon (which was apparently a lie..) and thought we should meet but i was still the same guy so the call which lasted for like 6+ hrs just ended sour and she was done with me again, part of that was because i genuinely didnt want to get back with her tbh because for me she was still this easily frustrated mean girl.

I was going through my FB account for the first time in a long time and I saw our chats still existed. Being curious I went through it and that was the beginning of my destruction. It made me realize what a shitty man I had been. How absolutely loveless everything felt from my side, even when she needed me and expressed her love and passion towards me the responses from me were so bad and lacking of interest I actually felt nauseous. And that's only the surface like I mentioned in above paragraph.

This basically made me enter a deep hole where I went through our old stuff together, chats, our pictures and videos that still existed in some places, story archives everything and in every single one of these I recognized how I have been the problem as mentioned above. How lack of love all of my actions seemed looking back at it. This 'mean and easily frustrated' side of her also wasn't anything that had i been just a little loving, just a little considerate of her, put in some god damn effort wouldn't have been solved.

The last time we ever talked to each other she expressed how she is convinced I never even loved her in the first place and I couldn't even bring myself to say that I did because I had nothing no action or behavior of it to refer to. What even is love? I thought I loved her but maybe I didn't after all. But the guilt and a feeling of what could have been still remain.

So I've never really been a big 2 wheeler guy however frustrations with the quality of public transport le garda i mostly use pathao haru, driven from that ani euta thought that owning a vehicle would be a great form of freedom to have, I have been learning riding ani will be buying one in coming months.

Practically herne ho bhane chai I really don't need anything more than euta basic scooter. 8 km one way college jana lagxa like 18 minutes in bike route ani ghumne or commute ni valley bhitra nai hune ho, or has been till now at least. However testo big bike fan na bhaye ni paile dekhi I have been looking at certain style of bike, ani ahile pani what I want sochera bato ma herda man parne bhaneko ki ta Triumph, RE or Ronin matra hunxa, this is where the confusion comes in.

Triumph haru ta will probably too much for someone who isn't even testo passionate nor has any use but how are bikes like Hunter 350 or Ronin for someone like me? Initial price is not that bad either tara teslai palna lagne hassle ani cost worth it hola ta just for the good feeling ki I own a bike I like? Bonus point huna sakne bhaneko chai this is the only 2 wheeler we will have so euta flexibility huna sakla if I want more in future. Or should I just suck it up ani get some scooter and be stress free which will do everything I need but never really feel "proud" of it?

TLDR: Classic practicality vs good feeling dilemma