It could be seem as disrespectful to celebrate Halloween for some people?
Do you still celebrate big Halloween events lately or they are still cancelled?
I'm curious about it!
I have been really sad thinking that I still haven't been able to experience a lovely romance with another man... It makes me feel sad to think that I will not live that experience and that I will just fade into the wind holding onto my insecurities.
I'm in the mood of wanting to listen to music related to this. Do you have someone in mind that has been able to write about things related to this??
Thank uuu in advance! :'D
I would be really grateful! I'm looking for new music, thank u so much in advance!
Feel free to give your recommendations without fear.
Yesterday I had made a post but I deleted it because I felt ashamed and I thought It sounded "too much". However, today I wanted to create a new post because I think it is unfair to fall into censorship.
My typing has been constantly between EII and IEI. However, if you think another type could be possible, you could mention it.
I have a paradoxical way of being and this creates a lot of conflict to me. However I think this tends to be felt more within my inner world where I'm the witness. I tend to receive the impression that others are unaware of my inner tug-of-war related to different things and it leads me to sometimes over explaining myself and other issues ( but more online than face to face, face to face I tend to be more introvert and not as bold as on-line).
I grew up feeling a lot of guilt, fear and shame. Having issues speaking up and being shy, didn't follow my dreams because I thought I wasn't good enough, I lived my dreams in my imagination instead. Bullying and other issues didn't help me to develop confidence and my identity issues got worse. Ruminating, paranoia and negative self talk has been issues I have been dealing with.
While growing up I think I have been having this "compensatory" parts within me that have come forward to repair issues from the past. But... These parts could create some confusion related to who I am. This issue related to who I am reminds me that I was born after the death of my brother so... It feels like I'm a soul trying to fill the void of another soul.
I have been trying to repair this issues related to death and I have discovered a lot of things related to "ancestors" , synchronicities, etc. However... I still have this sensation that I haven't transformed to who I really am yet.
I have my moments when I get fixed about morality, is this correct? Incorrect? But knowing that I'm a paradoxical person makes me feel like a hypocrite and it hurts. If I compare myself with others FI base as EII or ESI I feel that I may not be that consistent as them.
However, there are some stuff when I feel I'm of course more congruent.
I have been mentioned some stuff about FI vs FE but ... Thinking about my background related to trauma I'm like mmmm.
I want to transform and integrate all my colors and finally feel that I can be myself. Also have someone to love me knowing all this and be able to make friends without feeling that I'm worthless and less than them.
Talking about functions in general, I think I'm good with FE, FI, NI and NE. But I have to dive deeper because I'm conscious that there are different schools and different definitions according to different authors. NE sometimes is confusing for example.
I'm not good with TE ( sorry :/). I have conflicts with TE.
I know there's this thing about someone being extrovert in the typing despite being introvert. I think I could see the point but... What about the past?
If someone was introvert most of his life and then has been in a more "open" phase trying to compensate things... Phase that could look like "extroversion" then... How can things get managed? Idk if I'm explaining myself correctly.
Grateful for your feedback! 🙏
This really left me confused! 😭
I guess this could be an issue regarding rude being in the incoming EP(?)
But I am worried that the song got deleted or something. Hopefully everything could be fixed. Idk if it's a global problem or just in some places?
I know some people use astral projection without any clear purpose or just for sheer curiosity. However... Could it be used to gain somehow some insights about the future... Like related to the quantum double or synchronicities or other things?
For example... I have been worried lately about someone being intimidating towards me. I would like that person to be away. Not wish that person harm... Just distance.
Spiritual/esoteric/out of body experiences can really give some sort of active feeling about one being able to be aware of things and have the volition to transform the future... Have you been able to use astral projections to navigate through dark times and transform to a better life path? I would love to hear your stories! :'D
Postscript: English not my first language. My bad if any grammar mistakes.
Sorry if the title sounds exaggerated but I have struggled with bullying and fear/shame related issues my whole life.
I believe my soul has a deep purpose somehow... I have been able to perceive a lot of synchrocities my whole life and intuition through my dreams and meditation.These things have helped me to stay hopeful about staying alive and feel somehow more powerful and active. I was born after the death of my brother and well... Symbolically some of my pets have died exactly in important dates of different ancestors ( including one that died exactly the day my brother died) mysterious... Why do I mention all this?
Because reminding me myself all this makes me feel that I have a purpose and that I can embrace my existence.
Seeing this person from the past in this passive-aggresive context really made my nervous system go to... Despair/paranoia mode and I started spiralling about ... That maybe I shouldn't be alive because I'm too sensitive and I don't want to be my whole life being in this state of feeling attacked by others. I'm a man, in my late 20s but I'm too soft, I tend to feel the pressure of me being more fierce due society expectations...but it is exhausting! I still feel so vulnerable and inexperienced about different things! :/
What if this person will be around my life again? I don't need that. I'm really sad! I want to live my life in a different context but life... It's like being stuck in time..
Could someone give me hope somehow? I really need it right now.
I have been reading a lot of stuff that points that she may not come back and that scares me so much.
I have always admire a lot of great vocalists, I think she definitely is an outstanding vocalist. I'm so sad. :(
Hopefully she can get healthier and release music in the future ( with or without the group).
Hello everyone!!!
If I'm an EII do I have to admire/love the concept of LSE(?) of if I'm an IEI do I have to love the concept of SLE(?) what if I'm conflicted ... Then I can't be any of those types(?)
I am conflicted because due to personal experiences like bullying I have some impressions regarding certain type of people( of course I know that not everyone is unhealthy but I still have an eye open for all the things that could go wrong!).
I'm in a dilemma, I really want to read more but at the same time I feel this contradiction and frustration and it's like... Mmm. I procrastinate reading more.
It doesn't help that there are a lot of Socionics schools!!! 😭
It's fascinating to read about people and personalities, but... It really hurts my roots feeling this sort of veil regarding having to move to who I should love.
It reminds me to how I have been feeling so misunderstood my whole life with expectations of other people. Am I really been seeing? Or am I being the ghost carrying the name of someone else? Because that's a trigger that tends to pop up. All these words and expectations.
"You are this then you will love this".
Will that really be the case(?)
I would like to be romantically with someone who will not be constantly disregarding my way of seeing life because that would be being in a loop of trauma. I need a leap to a new version of me where I could grow being as strong and as soft at the same time. Maybe someone whose past is also related to mine somehow... We could grow together and learn and give some redemption to some open doors from the past that have been tormenting the mind, the body, the heart, the soul, etc. However this sounds too cinematographic and too idealistic. 💔
I would love to be with someone who is wise, strong, caring, fun, with a lot of initiative and energy ( taking into account my boundaries and my wishes/necessities, otherwise ...),helpful, good host and could respect my desire to have alone time at some moments.
Idk...maybe I will encounter healthier people in the future regarding certain types.
I'm still confused though about this whole thing about the dual and getting your right type.
if I can't be EII because i don't necessarily admire LSE or I can't be IEI because I don't necessarily admire SLE then I don't have a type(?)
I don't want to sound like I'm disrespecting people from those types btw.
It's just that I got the impression that the dual is like something that you crave and idolize and... While I admire a lot of people I think I do not necessarily connect with LSE or SLE archetypes... But I think I'm aligned to be either EII or IEI. A dilemma.