Father to son 23 , communication issues
My son lives in another town It's been a rough ride for him. His mother was physically and emotionally ab*sive .She was 15 years older than me, I was 23 when he was born. I tried to be a good dad and stuck around but basically got terrorized by her. To cope I took dr*g's, so I couldn't provide a stable alternative until when he was 10 I went to rehab and got healthy. He lived with me for three years but went back to his mothers. She is older now so is less volatile and seemingly less of a threat.
He's been through a lot, he moved out for a while with mate but back with his mum. I text him most days but he never responds. He will call once every two weeks . His manner is very shallow and seems fake. He is in insurance and says life is good and living with his mother is ok, but at other times he has said he struggles and isolates and has thoughts of childhood stuff coming up.
He also talks about his friends or puts focus on me and never reveals what's really going on underneath. I try and redirect him to get him to talk about what he wants and needs instead of what is expected of him.ive always tried to help him be his authentic self. The problem is if I push a little bit (for example ask whether he still has plans to move to another city ( which has been his plan) he gets defensive. When he talks about his childhood thoughts keeping him up at night, if I suggest a counsellor he gets defensive. He says he wants to start playing music onstage, if I ask too many questions about that he shuts down.
But if I say nothing and go along with it, we have a chat and it's all very robotic and feels inauthentic and I feel like that's not the way to parent. My dad died when I was 8 so I love him and want to do what's best for him but I don't know whether I need to be really soft and keep the communication happening or challenge him where I feel necessary ( and then risk him shutting me off completely). I just worry about him and don't know which approach take. Thanks