Integrals are such a struggle for me

So I am behind, I am a bit ashamed of saying it but it's undeniable, something that held me back a lot were my bad precalc knowledge getting into engineering+ procrastinating. But like I gotta take calc 1, or better retake it. I basically wasted a year of uni and I think I just have come to the realization. My issue is that we already did the course for calc 2 and physics 2 which require to have calc 1 knowledges.

I struggle so much with integrals, like derivatives ok it's just rules, but often with integrals I just do not "see it", whenever there is a notable limit or stuff like that it's 10x more obvious. With integrals I end up only being able to solve just the real basic ones. What is the best way to get over my issue?

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 1 day ago

I ruined my first university year and I need to become an adult

Hello, I am a 24 years old guy. I started engineering this year but basically wasted it all, I did no exams, 0 out of 8 for now and I need to bounce back. I still have a few chances to do some, but my bad habits have gotten the best of me. I have an exam in 3 days and I will have to cram for that sadly. If I pass good if I do not I will try again. I need discipline. I need to make a vow to study every day at least 3 or 4 hours for the rest of my university life, because I am getting older and I am seeing my life slipping away and it's destroying me.

How do I do it, how do I make this my life? I struggle so much because my start caused me to get so behind, I would like to be able to graduate in 3 years but I think I gave up on that a while ago considering the situation I'm in right now. My parents are so supportive and I lied to them, in their eyes everything is going well when it is not. I am ashamed of myself and I want to become an engineer.

I know words don't mean much but I am already going to put much more time into it, I just need to do a lot of damage control. Probably I will not pass the next 2 exams and I will have more dates on September, I need to do it, I am tired of not doing what I know I should do.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 3 days ago
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Mi fa schifo vivere e mi sono rovinato tutta la mia adolescenza e i miei anni fino ai 30

Ciao sono uno studente al primo anno di ingegneria meccanica. Ho 24 anni e ho smesso di lavorare per studiare una carriera che mi interessasse. Non sta andando per niente bene, affatto. Già ho dei precedenti di aver abbandonato l'università appena uscito dalle superiori perché indirizzato dai miei genitori ad andarci anche se non sapevo cosa volessi fare. Da quel momento ho lavorato fino al 2025, quando ho poi iniziato ingegneria meccanica.

Il mio problema è che sono un 'idiota, sono indifendibile e un coglione. Ho procrastinato 8 mesi come niente, mi viene male se penso a quanto tempo ho sprecato, per l'ansia non ho dato esami e ora mi ritrovo ad avere tra 3 giorni fisica 1 con molta poca preparazione. Sinceramente devo ammettere che la mia depressione al momento rasenta il suicidio, mi fa schifo fare qualsiasi cosa a meno che non sia una distrazione. Tutti i miei amici sono già laureati o lavorano e io sono qui come un coglione a buttare via la mia vita. Sono un bugiardio ed un ipocrita, ho detto più volte ai miei genitori che stava andando tutto bene con qualche intoppo.

Bugia gigantesca, ho dato 1 esame su 9 fino ad ora e sono a pezzi. Non so cosa cazzo mi succede, sinceramente non mi vedo arrivare ai 30 anni così. Sto guardando ora l'intero blocco di dinamica dell'esame e mi viene da piangere. Ormai è tardi per tutto, l'unica alternativa a questo punto è tornare al primo anno e darmi una regolata. Non mi merito i miei genitori che mi hanno supportato nelle mie scelte, mi faccio schifo e mi fa schifo vivere. Ho fallito in ogni cosa, sono sovrappeso, ormai troppo grande per non lavorare, spento.

Sono un coglione.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 3 days ago

I think I ruined my brain and now it does not work how it should

Hello guys, I am a 24 years old dude that started engineering this year. The issue is I procrastinated a lot, like 8 months, basically wasting the whole year. Right now I am preparing physics 1 but doing it in a week basically because I am an idiot.

I am scared of this tho right now, my brain does not seem to understand and process urgence, like I have this exam in 5 days and I need to do a full module, but my brain is chill, makes no sense. I am not feeling how I should feel and this is probably what caused me to be in this situation in the first place. I am terrified for my future and came back to university because I think I found what I want to do, but I still have bad old habits. I am scared of telling stuff to my parents because they are really supportive and I don't want to disappoint them.

I pay for my college and I live with my parents but I'd say I am not stealing resources, I often fill the gas in the car and buy groceries for the family. Also I feel so old, I know I might graduate at 28 and It's still better than nothing, but I have this idea in my mind that I kind of already "ruined it" by being so late. I did like 1 exam out of 8 this year. preparing one (Probably won't pass and guilt is killing me) that I have tuesday, then I have another one 10 days after. I am trying to pick myself up but feels hopeless. I feel so lonely in my struggles because I am not relatable to people I know, everybody is either graduating or working and I am here being a poser basically, I wasted another year of my life.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 3 days ago

Is it me or AI is nowhere close to what people hype it to be?

Maybe I just cannot use it. I need to cram for an exam, or better, it's a 3 modules physics exam and I miss 1 exam. I fed to the AI ( I got chatgpt pro free trial) around 150 quiz of that section (in the exam quizzes are randomly extracted there) and I make it explain me what I need for it.

It... always.... does.... it..... wrong. Like very often I am correcting it on physics 1, which I got told it does "easily". This AI is not even remembering things, which to me is insane considering it's a database of stuff, like how tf does it forget stuff. I will be trying to do an exercise, notice I have never seen stuff like that, and chatgpt is like "Oh my bad we did not do that, let's add it to the program" and it happened like 10 times per module. Again, after I fed it every possible type of exercise from the database.

I know I shoukd have studied more before, but at the same tine this is so underwhelming. I am basically learning stuff by correcting AI often on stuff I don't even know, like what is this. I swear I just cannot trust this thing .

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 3 days ago

I kind of quit gaming for exams but compensating with screen time

So I am a bit in a dire situation. Basically I finally got back into school at 24 and started engineering, but gaming kinda ruined me. I procrastinated months, like 7 or 8 months, and now I am here trying to catch up. It's not reasonable to catch everything up and I know that but I want to get back on track. My issue is that even if I quit gaming, like 1 week and I did not open a single game, I watch youtube or reddit or instagram. I am kind of relieved by the fact that I know it was not the games that were holding me, honestly I don't know if it's much better tho because I have like 6 hrs of phone a day now.

The issue is I have to study on tablet or on pc because I have everything there, I still try to do schemes on paper to study because I can revise in bed before sleeping. I probably need to study 8-10 hours for the next week but I kind of am not. Sucks to suck I guess.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 5 days ago

Feeling old and regretful

24M, started university this year and it's being a bit rough. I am sad I started late, kind of hampers my motivation. I keep dreaming of waking up 16 again and do it properly, but I can. I know the best day to improve is today because going back is not possible, but oooof, sometimes I feel it in my chest, it's painful to have thrown away 3-4 years.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 5 days ago

Ma è normale che tutti i pensieri negativi mi si presentino soprattutto alla sera?

Mi sono accorto che in generale i momenti peggiori della mia giornata si rivelano essere quelli in cui sono nel letto che aspetto di addormentarmi. Sembra si accumuli tutto, i miei fallimenti, i miei dubbi e in generali i miei problemi sembrano amplificati 10x. Soprattutto lo stress per gli esami, una volta che mi sono svegliato arrivo al totale opposto di "Vabbè se va male non c'è problema e lo rifaccio".

Diciamo che se durante le giornate posso essere ad un 7-8 su 10 a livello di morale, alla sera scende tipo a 4. Non so se ci siano studi a riguardo e se sia normale.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 6 days ago

Mi sento vecchissimo e ridicolo (M24)

Ciao sono uno studente al primo anno di ingegneria. Ho 24(M) anni e mi sento indietro da star male. Questo primo anno è stato terribile perché non ho studiato, vizi che non ho perso dalle superiori, ora nella sessione estiva sto provando a raccogliere i cocci dove posso.

In tutto ciò però mi sento vecchissimo, ho lavorato prima di iniziare l'università eh, ma comunque vedo i 19-20enni a lezione e loro vanno come delle schegge, io invece sono ancora qui, se penso che le superiori le ho finite 5 anni fa mi viene il voltastomaco. 5 anni cazzo e non ho concluso un bel niente. Che disastro, ora sono qui sveglio alle 2 di notte sul cesso devastato perché tra 7 giorni ho un esame e non ho studiato, almeno mi sono deciso ad iniziare ad andare in terapia perché credo di essere un po' un disastro.

Sono paranoico sempre, l'idea che potrei laurearmi vicino ai 30 anni la detesto, già ora mi sembra di averne 40.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 6 days ago

Gonna try

So I am a bit of a failure. I procrastinated 8 months since I started university and around a week ago spiraled further in depression.

I have physucs 1 in 7 days and calc 1 in 18 days. I have close to 0 preparation in both. It's probably stupid to think I can do I but I will try regardless because today I was able to study 5 hours, which may sound dumb but it's decent for someone like me.

I will try, maybe I will update on what happens, I am a 24 years old 1st year engineering student and probably this is the moment when I choose if I repeat the year to try and do it better or I catch up (slowly because I need to do like 6 exams to be on par).

Honestly it's been the worst year of my life, every single day procrastination was eating me and I still ruined it all. I hope I can fix myself.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 6 days ago

It's the worst year of my life

24 years old guy that started engineering this year. I had to do like 9 exams and I did only 1, I procrastinated 8 months, Idk what the hell I am doing with myself. I worked some years after high school and came back to do enginewring, which I really like, it's just that my bad habits stayed.

It's july, I have a physics 1 exam in a week and have 0 preparation, then 10 days later I have calc 1. I am literally heartbroken, I don't know why I cannot do what I should do. I am surely a lazy piece of trash, but at this point I am almost suicidal. I started to prepare physics a week ago and today I tried to do the problems to study, only kinematics part and repeatedly did 2/7 max, then I need to study static and dynamic as well.

I know it's pathetic, I know it's not the end of the world but feels like it for sure. I hate how stupid I have been to think "I will catch up later" and I hate every time coming back from lectures and not studying. Now I am here and it's completely ruined.

I pay the college for myself and my parents have no clue it's going this bad, probably they think everything is fine, and we already had issues in the past over me being forced by them into something I did not want to do. Now I am here and I chose this path, but I can't fking follow it for the life of me.

I guess I will try making this my religion and see how much I can pick up the pieces because I swear most days now are like 10-12hrs of studying and it's taking a huge toll on my mental health. I am thinking of repeating this year but it would destroy the trust my parents have in me and it would kill me inside.

I thought I could be better but now I am failing.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 7 days ago

Don't underestimate how much you can do in a week

I've been more than once in tight situations with exams. The worst I had was a physics 1 exam where I did not touch for even a single minute the material untik 1 week before the exam. I had to learn cinematic, static and dynamic in that time.

Don't give up. If you fail you will have the bases to prepare it much faster for next time, but at least in my case I made it. It was 10-12 hrs a day of just that and it was miserable. I cut out on sleep a bit because I hanged out with friends meanwhile cuz I was going insane. I was lucky to have the material for the exam and I just grinded, went to the store and got like 10 white monster and I did it. After that I stopped doubting myself.

Almost every exam is passable(ofc probably not with striking scores) if you lock in 1 week. It sucks but those can be 70 hours, which trust me if you get the memo can be enough.

I passed phy1 stydying 8 days and I could not even solve an integral. Now I am doing better.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 7 days ago

Ricomincio a 24 anni, com'è frequentare da più grande?

Ciao a tutti, ho deciso quest'anno di ricominciare l'università e sono iscritto ad ingegneria aerospaziale, volevo chiedere come fosse. Ci sono molti altri che iniziano più avanti? Dovrei organizzarmi o il programma "accomoda" un pochino? Al momento dovrei rinfrescare derivate ed integrali.

Ammetto sarà strano inizialmente essere circondato da ragazzi di 18 anni ma vedremo.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 8 days ago

I need a suggestion to study a lot short term

Hello guys, I am an engineering student and I have physics 1 exam in like 10 days. I am almost at zero right now and know I cannot truly hope to get an high score but I gotta try to pass it absolutely. Can you give me some suggestions to do like 10ish+ hours a day of studying? I know it's unhealthy but I need to do it for short time or I am absolutely screwed, please don't suggest me programs or stuff like that because I don't have time to get used to it. It's about cinematic, static and dynamic.

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u/Moloc_Asterion — 8 days ago