Reddit is full of trolls, bots and people who have nothing but time to fuck around and muddy things up for people. YOU GOT NAMED LING LING, im not posting in here anymore. I think of you everyday I always hope you and everyone are good. I love and miss you always.
In your adolescent and teen years
You have had to endure things in life, which I'm not prevy to. I am sorry for those experiences of which I know and the ones I don't. Broken was the catch all word that you used when you were giving me the outline of your youth. Because of that, you have built a fortified wall that I've been on the other side of. I've been out here for 6 years. Being supportive any way, I'm able. I have dropped the proverbial ball, the number of times. It will happen when you're under fire. It's cold out here, you don't have to do it alone. I'm here, all you have to do is let me in.
How do i know or could i know you have read my thoughts in this place???😑💬 Alot of what ive read here feels as if it was you. After everything we have gone through history showes she looses all respect for him and it doesnt return in the context of us. I dont want anything from you out of pitty. I have deep set knowing i perfer it be, you in my life becsuse of everything i see in you and it swings the other way im wondering if i was what you wanted in the first plsce. I have gone crazy in some scenses, my mind running wild with thoughts unanswered, causing simultaneous feelings of being turned off by you in an extream way but also missing you terribly. I hate thinking "i wish we never met & I Would Never Trade You For Anything" in the Universe". This is absolute s***, that Im not your first pick. I fucking hate myself for my actions snd my betrayal of your trust. "I have fought for you, the way you fight with me".. im not "lost" nor have i ever been its just everything has become moot. I do remember what you told me when we first met each other and got together, I also remember saying, in some fashion, I didn't expect perfection and I accept you as you are. You say you're not perfect. I say you are. This is not a post trying to win You back. Just thoughts in my mind is all. Anything to get you back would be futile. Looking back from this point I realized I never stood a chance. I hate missing you, i hate the distenance and most of all my actions from the start, all of them...... my body has been stuck in fight or flight mode since you came back after the pageant. I felt it right away at the airport when you first got back that it was different and I was going to lose you. Idk how to explain this feel ive been feeling... like im bring tortured and maimed, but not physically, like it's my soul. Not by you but of myself. Your last trip out i felt abandon the whole time. I know you had defense mechanisms up on accord of what i've done and I don't blame you at all for that. I mean after all we wouldn't be in this exact spot hadn't been for me and my stupidity.
your gallupiloid
I miss my alibi, my "wing girl" on our drives. Our fast food truck dates. I havent been to our fish & shrimp place in a very long time. god i miss you cuddling back to my chest. I've been thinking about us since i met you 6 years ago. Tbh I didn't see it going this way. It's all my doing I know. This will haunt me to my end. From our first time together I made a vow to myself that I would do everything I could To bring you comfort joy and happiness. I have been working on myself, its difficult at best to making self improvment when the environment isn't conducive to doing so. I feel it often people round me being dicks lnowing im working on myself. Dispite all the obstacles in our relationship better than 3/4 of the time I was never happier. I misspoke one time and it said I wish I'd never met you, That was wrong of me to say. The reality of it is ive never been so disgusted, or let down by myself to this level.
TO THE MEN AND WOMEN OF REDDIT, MY NAME IS MICHAEL PARKS, AND I'M A MORON. I FUCKED UP THE BEST THING THATS EVER HAPPENED TO ME.....
I've never been disappointed with you.
After having actually met you, I realized you are more than enough.
I recognized your strength and resilience in this part of the world we grew up in.
You have the most beautiful love I've ever experienced.
Your dedication to family is runs deep shown threw your loyalty.
You are amazingly beautiful in every way. Every part of you.
I never wanted to change you, but only to show you more.
I think of you every day.
You are amazing, beautifu,l resilient and stronger then I realize.
I hope you're having a wonderful day
Ps: Your smart, you know words, things & such Thats the "Barb" on your hook in me.
"Please dont walk out" Was one of the last thigs you said to me. If I wanted to walk out on you I would have years ago. You are worth it Lindsey. Maybe I'm just digging my hole deeper most times. Im here. Ive been here with dad all this time. I hope you have a good nite and better days if your not. 🫒🧃🫵gn.
Ladies, women, females, and girls of Reddit, you will never be happy or satisfied with whom you are with if you're always comparing your man with others. I know this is true because if I gave in to thoughts of other women, I wasn't exactly happy with my partner at those times. Just a thought. What does anyone think about this statement? I at the time (16-21M) then I at the time (21-22M) I at the time (24-27M)... Does anyone have a story they would like to add?