I'll try to be vague about what I'm referring to... and I'm pretty sure I already know the answer.
Is it a sin in this religion to explore your body and stuff? I know that in Mormonism it's considered immoral and sinful (I'm an ex-Mormon) but I thought it wasn't here. I've been called gross by other satanists for doing it. Idk why.
Is it wrong? I always feel guilty for doing it :/
For context, (if it helps) I do have some form of neurodivergency, we're just not sure what it is yet! We are PRETTY sure it's ADHD, though.
So I really enjoy writing. I constantly have ideas in my head, and I'm constantly writing in classes and stuff in between assignments. Or even during them.
However, I've noticed lately that it's harder for me to type than to handwrite. Not that it's HARD to type, just that it's difficult for me to come up with what to write. I've written so much in a week that I ran a brand new pen out of ink in like 7-8 days.
Is this just a normal little "author quirk" or is it something to do with ADHD?
For context, (if it helps) I do have some form of neurodivergency, we're just not sure what it is yet!
So I really enjoy writing. I constantly have ideas in my head and I'm constantly writing in classes and stuff in between assignments. Or even during them.
However, I've noticed lately that its harder for me to type stuff than it is for me to hand write stuff. Not that its HARD to type, just that it's difficult for me to come up with what to write. I've written so much in a week that I ran a brand new pen out of ink in like 7-8 days.
Is it normal for writers? Or is this a part of neurodivergency?
So when I visited the dentist like a year ago, he mentioned that I should get a consultation about braces. He said, "Right now, it's simply a cosmetic issue since your teeth are pretty crooked and you have an overbite. But it could evolve to something worse if you don't get braces."
I mentioned it to my dad, and he said "No, you aren't getting braces if you dont absolutely need them." Mind you, he is FIFTY THREE FUCKING YEARS OLD. And he had to get braces because he didnt take care of his own teeth!
Well guess what? Last dentist appointment the dentist said "Hey, at this point it's evolved to a worse issue and you need braces. Go into an orthadontist and get a consultation." Mentioned it to my mom, she was fully onboard. But when we went to my dad again, he said no. I said "If its a financial issue, I'll wait until we have the money to get them." AND THAT BITCH HAD THE AUDACITY TO SAY,
"You say it as if its YOUR choice!" ITS MY MOUTH.
My adult teeth are feeling loose, my mouth feels crowded, I KNOW its because I need braces. But he doesn't give two shits. Please help me...
I hate my own father.
I vent about this, and all I get is "At least you have a dad!"
But to be honest, I'd rather have a dead father than a father like him.
He's ab*sed me mentally, emotionally, and physically, he's bodyshamed me, he makes fun of me, he doesn't let me express myself, he's a misogynist, he's HORRIBLE. He's abused my mom and screamed at her to divorce him and leave, but when she tries, he always drags her back. I'm sick and tired of my life here. I am not 18 yet and can't legally leave.
I want to end it all. I can't handle this pressure anymore. I'm sick and tired of having a father like him. I'm sick of seeing other people's fathers or fictional men who are very sweet/ ACTUALLY DECENT and thinking "huh, I wish they were my parent..."
I just needed to vent. Thanks.
So my mom had a miscarriage before she had my older sister and me. But she was absolutely crushed by it. Because she carried that baby to birth, only for it to be dead.
My dad told me that at her burial, his VERY Mormon friend came up to them and said, "Isn't it just SO wonderful to have a daughter in the celestial kingdom? It's like a blessing from god!"
I'm sorry, but why the fuck would anyone ever say that to someone?! ESPECIALLY someone whose greiving from a miscarriage?
Anyone had anything similar happen?
I HATE the "not like other girls" trend. Because it puts a lot of girls in a little box.
And I personally hate relating to the preferences of some of the girls who do the trend.
No, I don't like makeup. But the difference is, I don't like to wear it myself. Simply because it irritates my skin. I LOVE to see other girls feeling confident when they wear makeup. EVERYONE is beautiful! Makeup or not!
No, I don't like to work out at the gym. Because I just don't really feel like it! But when I see others working out at the gym, I feel happy for them! They're not lazy like me (not all girls who dont go to the gym are lazy obvi. I am tho.)
No, I don't like super girly clothes. Because that's just not my style. But idc what clothes the girl in class next to me is wearing! Girly clothes look pretty on the girls who like to wear them. I just look better in the unisex style.
No, I don't like pop music very much. But that's just because I prefer other music. It's just that. No girl is wrong for the music they listen to. Pop music is great! It's just not for me.
No, I don't enjoy certain processed foods. But that's because a lot of them have odd tastes or textures. I prefer home cooking because SHIT my mom's cooking is fire. But if you want processed foods, GO AHEAD! Some of it tastes great! GO AHEAD AND EAT WHATEVER THE HELL YOU WANT.
I don't like drama sometimes. (SOMETIMES I DO.) But if you like it, GO AHEAD! It's entertaining sometimes!
Sure, I dont dye my hair blonde sometimes. Because I don't think I would look great with blonde hair. I look better with darker hair. But I think if you want blonde hair, that's GREAT! GO AHEAD!
I don't wear/do things because I seek validation from others. I do it because it's what I enjoy. But if you want validation from someone, do what you want! It's not my life, and it does not affect me. I don't need to shit on y'all for your choices. Even if I feel bad for people who change themselves for other people.
Girls are not little boxes. We are diverse. We are different. "Other girls" are just girls enjoying themselves in the world. Acting like girls are lesser than you just because they make different choices isn't okay. It isn't how we help each other.
You cannot be a girl's girl and participate in the "Not Like Other Girls" trend. That's just my opinion.
Let me know your thoughts.
I was with my partner (trans masc and punk) and two of my close friends the other day. (One is a tomboy and one is a Therian, so she had a fake tail on the side of her pants).
We were walking home from a park near my house and we crossed a street when we noticed a car pass us. I briefly glanced at them, but noticed one of the lady give us a look.
Not an "oh, that's new" look. She looked DISGUSTED by us. Literally looked at us like we were gum on her shoe.
I didn't care much about it because I get looks like that all of the time, as I dress punk/alternative myself. So I get a lot of harassment. (literally, that same day someone threw a cup of water out their car window at us).
But then, the car stopped in the MIDDLE OF THE DAMN ROAD! I instantly knew something was about to happen and so did my friends/partner. We got really anxious because the car turned around and stopped. The ladies in the car were waving at us.
We didn't realize they were missionaries of course. And we didn't realize the whole THREE blocks they were following us.
Finally, they sped up and turned a corner. The street they turned onto ended with a dead end. So I was terrified that we were about to be jumped, harassed, kidnapped, etc. Can you blame me? We were being followed by a car. For three blocks.
ONLY when we passed that street and were halfway in the road did they get out. AND ONLY THEN did we see their badges and pamphlets.
One of the ladies grinned (wayy too wide to be real) and started trying to talk to us. I just said, "Have a nice day!" My friends and I basically ran away.
I don't care WHO you are, if you think it's okay to follow people, your morals are Fucked up.
So, I am an ex-christian. And now I am a pagan/ hellanic polytheist/Satanist (Ignore how I have so much of a mix. I'm figuring stuff out). I am also nonbinary (AFAB) and I have a demiboy partner. (Also AFAB).
We both have homophobic and transphobic parents, so both of us still look fairly feminine/unisex.
Anyways, we were in the mall for my partners birthday, having a good time. I'd bought them their favorite flavor of Boba and a cute blanket from Hot-Topic. We walked past a stand for hair supplies and products. I took a second to look at one of the curling irons, and I noticed a man (very loudly) preaching to one of the salesmen at the stand. He seemed to be in an argument with him, and he was yelling at him about why he needed to 'seek and accept Jesus'. And 'stay on the right path'. I got uncomfortable, and I felt a lot of sympathy for the salesman, as he looked really annoyed and upset. Clearly, it wasn't friendly preaching. It was harassment.
Not only was he VERY loudly preaching to this man and harassing him, but he LITERALLY had a shirt on that said "marriage is between a man and a woman ONLY!" with a scripture listed below it.
I wish I was kidding. But I'm not.
My partner grabbed my hand and lead me away, as the argument seemed to be coming to a close. And sure enough, it did. The guy who had been preaching turned around and walked off in a huff. Right towards us. He spotted us (we were still holding hands and my partner had a pride pin on their backpack) and made a beeline for us.
He started going on a rant, waving his hands all over the place and telling us how we were going to go to hell if we didn't "turn away from the wrong path" and "turn to the right one". I tried to just wave him off and walk away with my partner (Who was getting visibly uncomfortable). But he wouldn't take the hint. He followed us, continuing to raise his voice every time we told him to leave us alone. A few people looked over, but no one seemed to give a shit. Crazy christian harassing teens? Eh, who cares.
Finally, I turned around and yelled, "leave us alone! I'm a satanist and we're both perfectly happy the way we are!" I was almost crying by this point, because I have extremely bad social anxiety and I was already overwhelmed because the mall was pretty crowded and loud.
He immediately went on another rant about satanists and what horrible people they were. And what a horrible, godless person I was. Finally, an adult came over and had him back off. We saw him walking around a little bit after that, but he didn't approach us anymore.
What is it with Christians that makes them think EVERYONE has to believe in their beliefs? I HATE it!
It might sound a little messy, but I really just wanted to get this down and share my experience...