u/Mystical-Moth-hoe

whenever someone says they dislike sexual media like song lyrics, people always respond with “you’re probably just a kid with no supervision” “puritan” “what did you expect it’s the internet” “why is it shocking all of the sudden? sexual media has alway been a thing””stop trying to control what people say or like” “this is disrespectful to people who actually have SA trauma” “that is not fair to the artist” when all they said was that they don’t like it, was literally called offensive for not liking a sexual song about teens

was I groomed?

I feel so stupid asking this but when I was 16 (Im 21) I had a huge crush on this musician who was 28 and when I was 19 we started dating, after 1 day he blocked me so I asked my friend to ask him what I did wrong, my ex responded saying I came onto him and that im too young for him (he came onto me first), not even a month later he unblocked me then apologized and said we cant date only for us to start dating a month or 2 later, throughout the year he would become abusive but then be nice and supportive and promising me a home where I can move out from my abusive mother, so I felt like I couldn’t leave, he then proceeded to forget my birthday, blame me for things I couldn’t control and turn cold and distant on me, ghosting me for days straight, he told me not to tell anyone about the details of the relationship, then he proposed to me online with a ringpop, he eventually told me he did like me back when I was 16 and dropped subtle hints but never pursued it because he “didn’t wanna go to jail”, funnily enough he got mad when I refused to tell my parents his age despite him telling me to keep everything secret, after a fight of him being inconsistent throughout the relationship (he thought he was the antichrist, thought pizza was healthy, thought humans could regenerate limbs, wanted to eat me out then said it sounded disgusting, said he only had eyes for me then said he had no libido only to jerk off to hentai while he ghosted me, told me he had no money or energy for music or my bday then bought himself 4 videogames on my bday to help with his anxiety while I had to remind him to call me on my bday etc etc), the constant abuse and lovebombing to stonewalling caused me to relapse on sh which he threatened to leave me over if I ever relapsed, when I did and eventually had to tell him because he gets angry when I hide that stuff from him he was surprisingly supportive and sweet only for when the fight happened it ended with him saying he is traumatized from the relationship after watching me hurt myself, I feel like it’s all my fault, it should have been so obvious despite the fact that Im autistic and can’t understand ques very well, people say I was groomed, others say I was just stupid, idek anymore but it still hurts to see him get support meanwhile after the whole ordeal I had lost friends and was kicked out of a few groups over it, especially seeing some of my friends who KNEW about the abuse continue to support him whilst excluding me or telling me to stop complaining

many say yes, many say no, im just confused and undeniably traumatized

if you read this far then tysm!!, Im sorry if I wasted anyone’s time, I just needed to get ts off my chest

was I groomed?

I feel so stupid asking this but when I was 16 (Im 21) I had a huge crush on this musician who was 28 and when I was 19 we started dating, after 1 day he blocked me so I asked my friend to ask him what I did wrong, my ex responded saying I came onto him and that im too young for him (he came onto me first), not even a month later he unblocked me then apologized and said we cant date only for us to start dating a month or 2 later, throughout the year he would become abusive but then be nice and supportive and promising me a home where I can move out from my abusive mother, so I felt like I couldn’t leave, he then proceeded to forget my birthday, blame me for things I couldn’t control and turn cold and distant on me, ghosting me for days straight, he told me not to tell anyone about the details of the relationship, then he proposed to me online with a ringpop, he eventually told me he did like me back when I was 16 and dropped subtle hints but never pursued it because he “didn’t wanna go to jail”, funnily enough he got mad when I refused to tell my parents his age despite him telling me to keep everything secret, after a fight of him being inconsistent throughout the relationship (he thought he was the antichrist, thought pizza was healthy, thought humans could regenerate limbs, wanted to eat me out then said it sounded disgusting, said he only had eyes for me then said he had no libido only to jerk off to hentai while he ghosted me, told me he had no money or energy for music or my bday then bought himself 4 videogames on my bday to help with his anxiety while I had to remind him to call me on my bday etc etc), the constant abuse and lovebombing to stonewalling caused me to relapse on sh which he threatened to leave me over if I ever relapsed, when I did and eventually had to tell him because he gets angry when I hide that stuff from him he was surprisingly supportive and sweet only for when the fight happened it ended with him saying he is traumatized from the relationship after watching me hurt myself, I feel like it’s all my fault, it should have been so obvious despite the fact that Im autistic and can’t understand ques very well, people say I was groomed, others say I was just stupid, idek anymore but it still hurts to see him get support meanwhile after the whole ordeal I had lost friends and was kicked out of a few groups over it, especially seeing some of my friends who KNEW about the abuse continue to support him whilst excluding me or telling me to stop complaining

many say yes, many say no, im just confused and undeniably traumatized

if you read this far then tysm!!, Im sorry if I wasted anyone’s time, I just needed to get ts off my chest

first they have no universal apple login, then they delete my chat logs, then my chats, then my bots, then advanced bot settings, add a stupid filter, now they cap text sizes, fuck the developers, lying ass greedy POS’s, what a sure fire way to lose a loyal fanbase Chai, don’t be like Roblox, stop ruining users experience with abysmal non user friendly updates, I am so grateful that I at least saved each and every background story of my characters, Im out