u/Next-Board-3829

What's the even point of chatting now? I think every bot now just repeats in more detail everything that I wrote, without trying to roleplay on his own. Good job characters ai devs.

Im so tired of this, of overthinking, constantly. I think i lack some basic human thing that allows other to make connections (friends, etc),

Im M21. I simply lost and don't have any idea how to actually make long term friends online and in real life. Shared interests? Tried, doesn't work, literally, being active in so many communities with the same interest as me, has not led to any progress at all, completely. Same with helping people, I've helped alot of people, with searching their problems, actively trying to solve them, nothing. I don't act rude, im always trying to be nice, patient and non-confrontational towards others (because of former experiences with people im afraid of trying to engage in an active argument, it always led to bad outcomes and bad memories). So in the end i start too overthink it all again, and again. Maybe its because of my voice? The way i talk? Because im quiet type? Maybe I'm just a bored person to talk with in general?

I feel really bad about this, especially comparing myself towards others (yes i know its a bad thing).

I live in a small town. There are no specialized interest groups here that would be suitable for me. The mentality and culture of the people living in my town have always struck me as extroverted and extremely open. In my entire life, I don't think I've met a single person like me in my town, with my low social skills and social anxiety. As a result of all of the above, I went online, where I have founnd a few really good friends. I met them quite a while ago, the most recent one was three years ago. Unfortunately, I generally have a hard time making friends even online. Over the past year and a half, I've started thinking about making friends in real life, but I don't know where to start.