u/No-Leg-6361

I can't remember the last time I got good sleep. Sleep hygiene does not matter I do not drink caffeine or alcohol, I don't eat food after 7pm, I don't look at any screen past 9pm none of it matters I will lay in the dark with my eyes closed starting at 11pm and my brain will literally keep me awake until 4 in the morning.

Supplements? I've tried them all melatonin, magnesium, zzzquil, etc. all of them get me to sleep just fine only problem is I will wake up 4 hours later and not be able to fall back asleep. Without it I consistently wake up after 6 hours with a headache

Why don't I just get a sleep study?

Good question I live in the United States of America and the cheapest sleep study in my state is $1,500 no I don't have insurance because I work retail and because I'm so tired I keep messing up my interviews.

Tldr can't get more than 6 hours of sleep a night constantly having headaches and sleep hygiene does not help.

I can't remember the last time I got good sleep. Sleep hygiene does not matter I do not drink caffeine or alcohol or eat food after 7pm none of it matters I will lay in the dark with my eyes closed starting at 10pm and my brain will literally keep me awake until 4 in the morning.

The only way to fall asleep at a reasonable hour is to overdose on melatonin and even then I will wake up 4 hours later and not be able to fall asleep. Without it I consistently wake up after 6 hours with a headache

Why don't I just get a sleep study?

Good question I live in the United States of America and the cheapest sleep study in my state is $1,500 no I don't have insurance my job is a cheap piece of shit and the rest of the country is on a hiring freeze.

Tldr can't get more than 6 hours of sleep a night constantly having headaches and sleep hygiene does not help

So basically right now I'm working at a small screen printing store for not great pay with a bad commute but the coworkers and hours are awesome. I have enough free time that I'm able to pursue a bachelor's degree online.

The problem is I recently got an offer close to where I live the pay is good and company reviews say its a good place to work it might also give experience relevant to my degree. Only problem is the position means I'm going to be hauling heavy furniture in and out of burnt, flooded, and mold infested houses from 7:30 am till whenever management says we can go home.

I fear I'm going to be too physically and mentally exhausted to keep up with my classes with this new job.

Tldr. Old job worse pay better work life balance or new job with better pay but shit work life balance

Want to get into the office side of supply chain? TOO BAD because this is the major of pizza delivery driver or Amazon warehouse worker.

Don't be fooled by the abundance of job listings when researching this major. No matter what you do you will never be qualified for any position.

Never should have wasted 4 years on this major the only thing I'm qualified for is hauling boxes in 101° humidity fml

Basically as the title says every year since 2020 I've found a new health issue. 2020 Autism diagnosis. 2021 orthopedic issues that keep me from running on anything but marshmallows in highly cushioned shoes. 2022 actually nothing. 2023 ulcerative colitis. 2024 herpes type 1. 2025 diabetes. And 2026 just got diagnosed with sleep apnea. Can't wait till 2027 when it's revealed I have asthma or some bullshit lmao.

Needless to say this is having a big impact on my self esteem. It's not the diagnoses themselves it's more the feeling that every year I learn about another thing that's wrong with me. and it's started to make me feel defective and less lovable. I feel like I'm growing into a version of myself that would get shoved into a locker in a movie.