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I’m terribly scared, I read that the only one there is Rybelsus but it’s fucking expensive and it’s tirzepatide not reta..

know I’ll probably get hate for this. I’m not even trying to pretend I’m in a “typical” situation with this stuff. I’m very active, I train 6–7 times a week, I follow my diet, but I still can’t get properly lean or defined.
Social media is honestly messing with my head. I keep seeing girls go from extreme bulk phases to being super lean in like 2–3 months and it makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong or like I’m stuck.
About 3 years ago I was advised to do a pretty aggressive bulk because I had previously lost a lot of weight due to an eating disorder. I followed that advice without real professional guidance and ended up gaining around 20 kg in 5 months. I had a lot of stretch marks, but everyone kept telling me it was “good” and that I’d just cut later and keep muscle.
After that things got really bad. My hunger regulation felt completely off. I went from extreme restriction (like 1000 kcal phases) to losing control and having binge episodes, then trying to compensate again. It turned into a cycle of restriction and overeating that I’ve struggled with for years.
Now I’ve finally managed to get my body back and I’m definitely more defined than before, but I still don’t feel satisfied or “lean enough.” And seeing bikini-level physiques on girls who look completely normal otherwise just messes with my head and expectations.
I’m honestly at the point where I’m considering things like retatrutide or tirzepatide just to help control appetite and break this constant binge–restrict loop, because I’m exhausted of it mentally and physically.
I just don’t know if there’s actually a sustainable way out of this without constantly feeling like I’m fighting my own body or falling back into the same cycle again.

I used S-4 (Andarine) for 5 weeks and honestly I was expecting better results. The side effects people talk about especially night vision problems I didn’t really experience except for acne on my back, chin, and neck and extremely oily skin which was pretty unpleasant.
What I definitely noticed was harder muscles and a better pump but nothing beyond that.
I’m not sure if this is actually a side effect but I feel like my appetite has increased a lot and I really can’t control it.
I’ve read mixed reviews about cardarine usually people use it if they want to improve cardio performance or ostarine since it’s supposed to help preserve muscle during a cut and maintain what you’ve built but I haven’t really seen significant fat loss results reported.
Does anyone have any advice?
I’m seriously considering something that suppresses appetite like tirzepatide but I’m honestly afraid of ending up looking flabby or losing muscle mass as well.
I know there are different alternatives diet training calorie deficit and I’m really trying my best but I still have these thighs that I just can’t seem to define no matter how good my deficit or training is I really need some advice or an alternative.