u/No_Sea_360

I got recjected today feeling sad. I also blank i don’t know what to do.

I am doing everything I like to do, watching anime, editing, talking with friends on discord, music singing and everything going fine in my life.

Yet there is unhappy feeling that i can’t explain, loneliness that won’t go away? Why i awake staring at screen and feel scared to let go phone from hand? Is feeling always miserable with all kind of emotions is being disabled. Tbh I got bad habit i just always play dumb front of friends. Maybe I am dumb always notice little things and overthinking about it despite knowing this will won’t help.

So I’ve been like low and thinking about my disability (muscular dystrophy) and how my life is hard and i can’t have girlfriend and even hurting my parents getting angry over little things like not praying and arguing.

So last night I was scrolling YouTube and i found this podcast “are you living for you?” And i listened the podcast and podcast discussed really good topics like saying no to people, sharing your own opinion, doing things in peer pressure or chasing friendships or relationships and scared of loosing people over small things.

After listening podcast I sat and thought about it and recalled my conversations with my friend and this is what she was also telling me and I was being blindsided by my own pain and not to seeing her care.

Now I understand this I just have to do things that brings me joy and peace✌🏻to me and make time for myself not chasing others, because people come and go in life. Only I will stay with myself so why I spend time hurting myself, where I can do lot of better things reading a manga, watching anime or movie, listening music and singing, doodles on phone, maybe start conversation with people on discord. Rather than Crying for things I don’t have. I know I will still get low moments and feel lonely or sometimes i might wanting chasing people. But from now I will do journal daily and give most of time to myself doing things I enjoy. 😊

I’m a 20 year old guy with muscular dystrophy (yes I need help with normal things and use wheelchair), and I’ve always wondered something. When you’re getting to know someone, would you rather they mention a disability early on or only after you’ve known them for a while? And would a physical disability be a dealbreaker for any girl, or does it depend on the person? If it’s dealbreaker should I stop trying the thing is “I believe in love but i don’t believe someone can love me” Just curious to hear different perspectives. My all interactions happen online.

I am talking with someone from few weeks. I don’t have any romantic feelings for her and i just feel good when I talk with her and share memes. But when i think to tell her about my disability i feel, anxiety comes in “what if she see me differently or stop talking or stop watching reels i send or worse insult me” Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I wasn’t disabled. When I start getting close to someone or enjoy talking to someone, I end up overthinking things a lot. Not just the usual worries about whether they like me or not, but also concerns about how they’ll see my disability, when to tell them about it, whether it changes how they view me like if they feel any attraction towards me and what if they stop talking and categories me, and what the future might look like. Sometimes I think that if I were non-disabled, socializing and getting to know people would feel much more free and natural. Like I would’ve get nervous but not extra layer of anxiety come from disability (I have muscular dystrophy)
I know everyone has insecurities and relationship worries, but I wonder if this is one of the differences between disabled and non-disabled people when it comes to forming connections.

I’m 20 and have muscular dystrophy. Today I had a conversation that hit me harder than I expected in discord. People were talking about studying for exams, and they asked me what I was studying. I explained that I don’t go to school or college because of my disability muscular dystrophy and how complicated my situation is. They said “you could’ve do online study” I told them that “it’s was hard for me and i spent my day just managing pain” They asked what I plan to do in the future, and I said “I’m learning video editing and hoping something works out” and their responses felt ignorant, made me feel misunderstood. one person said “it’s common in boys” (she meant to muscular dystrophy) i said to her “I know this fact, should it make me feel good? It makes me feel worse.” and one joke about it has own benefits. 
Then i cried for 30 minutes alone and everything felt useless to me even my dreams to find editing work and i asked to buy me powerful good laptop and felt dumb just to hoping someone will love me. Like people doesn’t even know to show empathy and here i am hoping like dumb 🤡maybe i have little chance. 
For now I’m feel fine but little sad but i know in midnight I’m gonna cry again.

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I’m looking at the Lenovo LOQ 15IAX9 on Flipkart right now. It has the i5-12450HX, 16GB RAM, and a 4050 for around ₹63,990.

Honestly, most 4050 laptops I see are closer to 70k-75k, so I'm a bit skeptical about why this one is so cheap. Is the GPU power limited, or is it just lower priced because of the 12th gen CPU?

If you have this exact laptop, let me know if it's worth buying or if I should look elsewhere. Thanks!

I'M FROM INDIA My family is very religious, and they expect me to pray all the time. I feel like being disabled in a religious country makes things even harder. Recently, I argued with my dad and told him I don’t like doing religious activities.

Since then, my mom has been playing religious chanting in the morning and evening. I don’t mind it in the morning, but in the evening it makes me feel uncomfortable. I told her not to play it, but she always says things like, “If you love me, you will do it.”

I’ve been going along with it for the past four days, but today I lost control and got angry at my mom. She got hurt, and now I feel bad about it. But she still doesn’t understand how mentally exhausting it is to be forced into something I don’t want to do.

I can’t even escape I have to listen to it for two hours, and I can’t play loud music either because I don’t like loud noise. I feel like this is happening to me mainly because I’m disabled.

Is anyone else experiencing this? What should I do?

I’m 20 and have Muscular Dystrophy, so I’m home pretty much 24/7 my whole life happens through my phone and laptop. I’m tired of advice like “just go out” or “focus on yourself.” I do focus on myself finding remote job and doing content creation but I’m also lonely and want to date. The problem is I don’t have “normal” daily experiences, so conversations sometimes feel like an interview, and I end up carrying them. Online is my only way to meet people, and I don’t always pick up social cues well. How do I make conversations feel more natural instead of like Q&A, and how do I find someone who sees me as a partner, not someone to feel sorry for? Also, are there any spaces (especially in India) where people actually value personality over lifestyle? I’m just trying to figure out how to work with the reality I have.

I have tried dating advice and twenties India and i didn’t got any response.

I’m 20 and have Muscular Dystrophy, so I’m home pretty much 24/7 my whole life happens through my phone and laptop. I’m tired of advice like “just go out” or “focus on yourself.” I do focus on myself finding remote job and doing content creation but I’m also lonely and want to date. The problem is I don’t have “normal” daily experiences, so conversations sometimes feel like an interview, and I end up carrying them. Online is my only way to meet people, and I don’t always pick up social cues well. How do I make conversations feel more natural instead of like Q&A, and how do I find someone who sees me as a partner, not someone to feel sorry for? Also, are there any spaces (especially in India) where people actually value personality over lifestyle? I’m just trying to figure out how to work with the reality I have.

I’m 20 and have Muscular Dystrophy, so I’m home pretty much 24/7 my whole life happens through my phone and laptop. I’m tired of advice like “just go out” or “focus on yourself.” I do focus on myself finding remote job and doing content creation but I’m also lonely and want to date. The problem is I don’t have “normal” daily experiences, so conversations sometimes feel like an interview, and I end up carrying them. Online is my only way to meet people, and I don’t always pick up social cues well. How do I make conversations feel more natural instead of like Q&A, and how do I find someone who sees me as a partner, not someone to feel sorry for? Also, are there any spaces (especially in India) where people actually value personality over lifestyle? I’m just trying to figure out how to work with the reality I have.